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  Just Some Of My Experiences ๐Ÿ™‚

Hi! My name is Anthony. I’m not posting this for any particular reason, just what ever you want to add or take away. I just want to share some of my experiences with depression. Just a little about me and how I’m dealing with it. 

 

I’m 24, single and never had a girlfriend. I’m currently completing a science degree, while dealing with depression and anxiety for the past year. I’ve been seeing a doctor and taking part in cognitive behaviour therapy. It’s only the past couple of days, that I’ve started taking medication (citalopram). Last September is when I really got sick. I was tired all the time, really down, would just stare, cold, numb, and dizzy. It was really an unknown time for me; I didn’t understand what was happening. I started developing thoughts to hurt myself.

My parents and family are really supportive, even though they find it hard to understand. I took a reduced course load then and saw my Dr., pretty much weekly and did CBT for most of the year. After a while, the depression got a lot better.

But around Christmas, I had anxiety almost constantly and the depression set in again. But it is not as intense. I guess sometime around spring. I was having more good periods than bad. But the depression/anxiety would still set in from time to time. Sometimes I can have long good periods, but the bad ones comes and goes from time to time. I’m back at school now for the fall semester. I’m doing great, but lately having problems with constant anxiety. A couple days ago, I decided to try some medication from my doctor. He put me on citalopram. I’m hoping that will smooth things out a little better. So far I’ve had no depression episodes, only anxiety and no side effects…
Here are something that I found useful, over the past year. Just something I pick up, either from therapy, reading, this forum anywhere really.  I’m very interested in positive psychology. I try to live my life by that as much as possible. I’m pretty much open about my depression and had more good experiences than bad talking about it.

anthony84 is a member of DepressionForums.org

   Just Some Of My Experiences  ๐Ÿ™‚

Hi! My name is Anthony. I’m not posting this for any particular reason, just what ever you want to add or take away. I just want to share some of my experiences with depression. Just a little about me and how I’m dealing with it.

I’m 24, single and never had a girlfriend. I’m currently completing a science degree, while dealing with depression and anxiety for the past year. I’ve been seeing a doctor and taking part in cognitive behaviour therapy. It’s only the past couple of days, that I’ve started taking medication (citalopram). Last September is when I really got sick. I was tired all the time, really down, would just stare, cold, numb, and dizzy. It was really an unknown time for me; I didn’t understand what was happening. I started developing thoughts to hurt myself.

My parents and family are really supportive, even though they find it hard to understand. I took a reduced course load then and saw my Dr., pretty much weekly and did CBT for most of the year. After a while, the depression got a lot better.

But around Christmas, I had anxiety almost constantly and the depression set in again. But it is not as intense. I guess sometime around spring. I was having more good periods than bad. But the depression/anxiety would still set in from time to time. Sometimes I can have long good periods, but the bad ones comes and goes from time to time. I’m back at school now for the fall semester. I’m doing great, but lately having problems with constant anxiety. A couple days ago, I decided to try some medication from my doctor. He put me on citalopram. I’m hoping that will smooth things out a little better. So far I’ve had no depression episodes, only anxiety and no side effects…
Here are something that I found useful, over the past year. Just something I pick up, either from therapy, reading, this forum anywhere really. I’m very interested in positive psychology. I try to live my life by that as much as possible. I’m pretty much open about my depression and had more good experiences than bad talking about it.

1)I promised myself that the most important thing to me is being happy. I would pay any cost and do anything I had to do to achieve that. But not put any time limits on myself. Start with the small things and move up from there. Be smart about it and don’t give up…. ๐Ÿ™‚
2)Being grateful for my life. Anytime I have a good experience I write it down in my journal, so I revisit it to help counter my depressed thinking. I also write down what going good in my life. Its easy to forget, went your going through a hard time.
3)I started writing down things I want to do with my life in my journal, also pasted images of things I wanted to do, have or experience. Anything really quotes, TV’s, places, education…. Even if that idea was big, I would still put it in my journal. Lately, I moved the images and text to a vision board. I just got a big piece of cardboard board on the back of my door with all the pictures and stuff on it. It helps when you doing visualizations, you have ideas to visualize.
4) The book Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy, Dr. David Burns is just an excellent book on CBT period lol… My therapy used a lot of information from it…
5)Sometimes there were a lot of fears of the future… We have to live in the now. No body can predict the future. It easy to get over whelmed, put your energy into the now. Break task into smaller pieces and slow things down if you have too. Remember the most important thing is to get better… ๐Ÿ™‚
6)Mediation and progressive relaxation were useful to me. I found a lot of videos on you tube, that I put on my Ipod… ๐Ÿ™‚
7)You perspective is everything. Two different people can look at the same thing and have different results. Personal development is really important. My city has a positive thinkers club…
8)I always loved the quote “Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure.”… ๐Ÿ™‚
9)Be determined and stay with it. People try to label themselves.. I’m this or I’m that… I believe were all the same and I’m just as talented as you but just in some other way… ๐Ÿ™‚
10)Take it one day at a time…. exercise, sleep, eating are all good too… cheers ๐Ÿ™‚

I believe my life is worth something and I know yours is too. I finished high school too scared to talk to women… I never ever though about university… I needed a tutor to get though high school… I failed the entry exam for the military…. I barely had any social life…. I was always quiet and shy… I avoid conflict…. But I D*** sure have came along way… I’m 13 courses from finishing my computer science degree and almost have a minor in mathematics… My gpa is high enough that I can apply for honours in software engineering… ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m applying for my internship this summer…. ๐Ÿ™‚ All I can say is that I’ve done alot of things that I’ve never dreamed I could do… ๐Ÿ™‚

I think this forum is great and much needed. I don’t post much, but found alot of useful information here. Theres probably tons of things I could say, but I just want to share some of my experiences and thoughts… I intend to get better and hope the same for you.

Thanks for reading;

Anthony

anthony84 is a member of DepressionForums.org

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