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Hi guys,
I never posted on DF much, just read a lot and now especially not anymore! Why?
Because after months of being in a very dark pit I am finally starting to see the light!

I’m not sure what I owe it to; medication, getting out and doing things, or just my body naturally fighting it off, but I am so happy that I have found some relief! Now I’m not 100% back to normal and who knows if I will ever be, but I am content! I still have the physical symptoms of major depression from sitting around and being sedentary for a long time. My body feels basically that of a 70 year old. But that’s alright, because I am not sad anymore!!! And you won’t be forever either!

jenleigh89 is a member of depressionforums.org

 

 

 

 

Hi guys,

I never posted on DF much, just read a lot and now especially not anymore! Why?

Because after months of being in a very dark pit I am finally starting to see the light!

I’m not sure what I owe it to; medication, getting out and doing things, or just my body naturally fighting it off, but I am so happy that I have found some relief! Now I’m not 100% back to normal and who knows if I will ever be, but I am content! I still have the physical symptoms of major depression from sitting around and being sedentary for a long time. My body feels basically that of a 70 year old. But that’s alright, because I am not sad anymore!!! And you won’t be forever either!

 

We are facing possibly the most terrible disease anyone could ever have to fight through! I feel so strong for having gone to the lowest depths of life and coming back up! I read my journal from a few months ago and i can not even believe what I was writing! I never want to go back there! That is why I will continue fighting and not give up! I had quite possibly the most severe depression a few months ago, I wanted to end my life sooo badly, I did not know who I was, apathetic, basically a nervous wreck! So it IS possible to get better!!!

My best advice to you and anyone will tell you is to get up and get OUT, or you will never get out of this. I promise it was not until I started getting out, going to work, being with friends and doing normal things that everyone does that I started to feel slightly better! You HAVE to! Fight it! Don’t let this stupid disease own you!

Kick its butt! It might hurt for awhile, but it is what we are here to do and it just might click again with you one day!

We are SOCIAL creatures and we can not get by being stuck in cocoons! If you are as bad as I was, just starting out by getting outside and walking around the block is a good step! Go to the mall, sit on a bench and people watch! Look at their shoes and count all the black ones! Anything to get your mind off it !

Because this is a vicious cycle, the more you sit and wallow in your misery, the worse it gets!

You are not dying! You are ALIVE and WORTHY and SPECIAL!!!! Everyone on here is VERY smart! We are VALUABLE! Love yourself! Take care of yourself! It gets soooooooo much better, you will be SO GLAD you didn’t do something stupid. You will be a stronger, better, wiser person when this is all said and done and one day you will look back like me and see it!!! There is a LOT in store for you; it’s in your hands!!! Get up, go with a friend to a movie, the mall and go for a walk, whatever! Do stuff!  I promise that is why I am preaching, because YOU can get better like I did! 

 

Jen 

 

 jenleigh89 is a member of depressionforums.org

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