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Hi everyone, my name is Frank. I am now 28 yrs old. I have no health issues or any major personal issues really and up until a certain point in time I was pretty normal. I didn't think I would be coming to this forum but I ended up here because I decided I needed help with something. What I'm about to describe may be a little unusual or difficult for some people to reason with but I felt I needed to talk to someone about it.

I have been suffering from an unusually painful feeling ever since Jan. 15th or Jan. 16th 2014 (when some antique indian (sub-continent) war relics were brought into our home).

The feelings I've been having over the last two months have been cyclical usually intensifying towards the middle part of the day (11:30-1:30 PM) when it can get absolutely unbearable. It feels like something is ******* you from inside taking away any positive feelings you may desire to experience leaving you empty and without meaning and frightened. Usually the late afternoon/night brings some kind of relief which I will get into later.

It's a difficult feeling to describe in words but if I could describe it it would be a feeling encompassing many negative emotions all rolled into one (i.e. intense and sometimes irrational fear, sadness, tearfulness, a feeling of isolation, feeling like why do i exist?), a tendency of wanting to be outdoors out of my house. Just making it to the next minute can be a challenge. It can be extremely difficult to deal with at its most intense moments. As I mentioned before, it peaks around mid-day and then gradually eases towards the late afternoon. Usually, my sexual drive also goes up during the intense period.

Towards the evenings (usually after 8pm) something starts to change, I start having these feelings of wanting to go out and do something mischevious i.e. steal, cheat, vandalize, make fun of other people, cruise the night with or without friends, get out of the house and roam and just generally be up to no good. Sometimes I begin to laugh hysterically because of these mischevious thoughts. On some nights, I have feelings of intense anger and revenge against people who I perceive have done me wrong or done anyone else wrong.

Over the last two months, I have been going through a very difficult period. I looked up the symptoms of clinical depression and my symptoms don't seem to match with most of the symptoms of clinical depression. My appetite is normal, I have no trouble falling asleep for the most part, I don't have any unusual changes in weight, not really any feelings of guilt/worthlessness, etc. I have no trouble waking up even though I've been experiencing a brief period of panic usually about 15 minutes before I wake up.

The reason I find this situation especially unusual is because I started having these feelings the same day (or just the day after) some antique indian (east indian) war relics were brought into our home by my Dad.

I'm trying to approach this situation with a rationalist mindset but there have been some weird things going on in our home since this time including very fast moving black shadow type things appearing in the corner of ones eye and once even directly in front of me for a brief instant (this was during the day time). Sometimes it can feel like your being watched. Things have sometimes also been misplaced in our house without explanation. Lights that we always remember to turn off are on the next morning. I've also noticed a greater feeling of heaviness and stress in our home since this time. I've also been having some unusual and sometimes uncomfortable dreams since the period started.

Could someone help me out?

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Hi Frank. That sounds really creepy about the relics. I do believe in hauntings and that objects can be haunted, but I am not going to say anything definitive about your theory because I just have no clue. I believe in the supernatural, though. I don't know what you should do. Can you tell your dad about your feelings? You could try "smudging" the object and your home. (Do an internet search if you don't know what this is.) There is no proof this is going to do anything, but it could help ease your mind. It is also possible you are being paranoid about the object due to a condition you haven't been diagnosed for. No one here can tell you that. Do you suffer from anxiety? That can cause paranoid thoughts. I just don't know, but I'm sorry you are going through this. I hope it gets better.

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Thank you spiritual wanderer for offering a helping hand, I don't believe I suffer from any anxiety disorders etc. and I started having these issues on or after Jan. 15th. I think I'll go ahead and try that sponging process you were discussing. My mom and dad also think that there has been a general feeling of heaviness in our home since this time.

I also get uncomfortable feelings while I'm dreaming (usually towards the early morning right before I wake up) which I didn't really have before this period.

I'm trying to work through it though and should be getting rid of the stuff that we brought into our home soon :book:

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Frankk1 you should do some research into EVP (electronic voice phenomenon) you can purchase the equipment you need from amazon. It really comes down to a digital recorder you'd be shocked at what people have captured. also something called a spirit box which uses white noise for real time communication. If what I've seen of this is to be believed then if you have spirits and you ask the right questions, you'll know about it.

Then once you do you can start planning the next steps.

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Frank1,

In my teens, I began to have what some might call unusual experiences that are beyond what I...and others...would consider normal in the usual sense. All of my experiences were of a positive, even of a protective nature. I became interested in depth psychology, Eastern philosophical schools, and science...particularly quantum mechanics, in order to understand how certain things that occurred were possible. My experiences were such that others knew positively that I wasn't making things up, nor imagining things. I am well aware of the power of the mind, in terms of imagination.

Then, one day, I found that I had been in touch with what I will call "dark" or "negative" energy. This came into my life in the form of a manuscript, written (typed) by a man who had, himself, had some very strange and frightening experiences in another country. Through a friend of mine, this man asked if I would "ghost write" his account, so that he could sell it. I did not want to write any book for anyone, nor did I want to see his manuscript. I said "no." The man persisted, and finally I agreed to at least read it. The manuscript arrived, and the beginning was well written, and I was for the time being momentarily engaged in his account. But soon after, the writing disintegrated, and the story became so oppressive, that I literally felt negative energy wrap around me. I called the man and told him I wasn't interested--but did so in a kind way. He pleaded for me to keep it a bit longer, to reconsider. He was very assertive, so I said, "okay." But I knew I couldn't have anything to do with this manuscript. It literally creeped me out. Up until then, I'd never even considered there being something like "evil" or "negative" energy. It was not part of my experience of life. This situation changed my mind, however. Strange and unfortunate things began to occur in my otherwise peaceful life, such that coincidence was ruled out by my husband and myself. For one thing, our phone (in a big, modern city) ceased to work, and the telephone company could find no trouble on our lines. It took three weeks for the phone to come back on. Other very serious things occurred, and finally I decided that I just wanted that manuscript gone. I was angry that I'd be expected to pay the cost of sending it back to the writer and so put it in the trash--wanting it gone from my house. Well, the trash collector picked up the garbage from 191 homes in our tract--but skipped our can. The next day, I drove to the post office and mailed it back to the man, and the problems stopped. I haven't gone into the details of what happened, but they were serious.

So, although I am sure that there may be people that scoff at such experiences as you (and now myself) have described, I am positive that there is more to this world than meets the eye, that is, the eyes that we use to view our material reality as a matter of course. It is my opinion, for what it is worth, that there exists, like the opposite sides of a coin, the positive and the negative, yet both are of one substance. In terms of what might be called psychic energy, I think that consciousness is ultimately good, and it is up to us to uplift our minds and hearts to accord with what is higher. Doing that will offer you much protection from whatever dark influences are in your presence. I agree with another poster, that you might have someone come into your home to do some sort of uplifting ritual. It may also sound silly to say this, but "if" things can carry energy, and these things are connected to war, with its fear and anger, then it would be good to try to calm this feeling by engaging kindly with the relics. Mostly, fear and anger come from being misunderstood and also from misunderstanding from their own side.

Anyway, I hope you find peace.

Nopawn

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Thank you everyone, for trying to understand my situation and for offering supportive comments to help me get through what I'm dealing with. We are trying to get rid of the relics we brought into our house (lets see if that fixes the problem).

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