duck Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 Moved the XE wagon into the carport, had fun moving it too!! Wet 'n' muddy and no traction!!Now that's fun!!! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 Cut most of the lawn until the rain interruptedChange my sister's car oilRepair my old fence again.( needs a new one)Went to the local hardware store bought for some toolsGo to Starbucks to meet my friends. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smithci Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 I meditated this morning before work and I am starting to enjoy it. I am looking forward to practicing more 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark_nights Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 I finally picked up the C programming book again and actually made good progress. I expect I'll stay up all night with this book and the Bluefish code syntax highlight program now that I finally got some motion forward. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
earwaxxer Posted July 12, 2014 Share Posted July 12, 2014 Interesting thread - it helps me to cut myself some slack when I read about others struggles. Some days I find it hard to tolerate being awake - rather be asleep - more relaxed and an overall better 'life' than being awake. Those are hard days. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GAJ123 Posted July 12, 2014 Share Posted July 12, 2014 Just had a doctors appointment. Really only thing I did today besides be online & watch a little TV. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Quarkygurl Posted July 12, 2014 Share Posted July 12, 2014 I honestly feel so much better since being on my new medication. I actually exercised today, did house work, showered and put lipstick on......it has been forever since I put any makeup on. It was only lipstick and was not my whole makeup routine but it is a huge plus. I love my new meds. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dsm Posted July 14, 2014 Author Share Posted July 14, 2014 Flew out on Thursday to pick up my 5 year old granddaughter and flew back with her on Friday. Both legs of the trip were exhausting and stressful with delays and almost missed a connecting flight. Now I have her for 3 weeks so no matter if I feel horrible, I have to find the energy to live life to the fullest while she's visiting. Then I make the entire trip again to return her. It's sooooooo hard at times to find the strength but I love her so much that I must do it. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phantastic Mirage Posted July 14, 2014 Share Posted July 14, 2014 I have accomplished eating Ghost Pepper Chili at a friends house today. That burns like **** but it was also sooooo delicious! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Metal_Falcon_351 Posted July 14, 2014 Share Posted July 14, 2014 Drove to Melbourne and picked up an engine for the XD ute. So much easier with a Forklift and a ute to transport it in :)Went to a mates joint.And did some shopping for mum when i got back. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted July 14, 2014 Share Posted July 14, 2014 Read my psychology workbookMeet my friends at Starbucks and the nice lady was working today. I did not see her for three weeks. I wanted to ask her name but I was too scared.Walk for one hour and lift some weightsPackage my laptop to mail in for repairs. There is no sound.I am going on a trip/vacation for a few days. I may not be able to post. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
serena7321 Posted July 14, 2014 Share Posted July 14, 2014 Congratulations!Today I went to the movies with my husband and drive the car. It look easy, but it is not for me.I am glad u made it.I understand u.Now I cant sleep.... insomnia 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Metal_Falcon_351 Posted July 16, 2014 Share Posted July 16, 2014 Went for a push bike ride as the weather was great.Did more job seraching and sending off applications.Went to the doc.Did some work on the wagon. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sammycat0609 Posted July 16, 2014 Share Posted July 16, 2014 I took my daughter to school- she was almost 20 minutes late but better late than never, right? I did an hours housework, had a shower, cooked a nutritious dinner and made sure my daughter got to her dance class after school. Also interacted/ played with my son throughout the day. Overall a pretty good day for me. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dsm Posted July 16, 2014 Author Share Posted July 16, 2014 I have been keeping busy with my 5 year old granddaughter who is with me for 3 weeks. I'm trying to not feel guilty if we don't do incredible things together. I know she would love to go to the beach but not sure I can muster up the energy for that. But we do crafts and play games and I love her. I hope that's enough. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
idkusername465 Posted July 17, 2014 Share Posted July 17, 2014 I finally joined the gym this week!And I'm beginning to practice recognizing my cognitive distortions! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sammycat0609 Posted July 17, 2014 Share Posted July 17, 2014 I washed the dishes. Had a shower. Got my daughter to school and took her to the shops afterwards to buy her something I'd promised. Made dinner. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
earwaxxer Posted July 17, 2014 Share Posted July 17, 2014 I finally joined the gym this week!And I'm beginning to practice recognizing my cognitive distortions! Nice work! Its hard to recognise the distortions, but such a key breakthrough! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
idkusername465 Posted July 18, 2014 Share Posted July 18, 2014 Well I just actually attempted to go to the gym, but despite the fact that I went at 10pm (to avoid the crowd) it was still crowded. So I left because I thought I would be uncomfortable.I try not to think that the trip was a complete failure, and recognize the distortions my brain is committing. So far I have identified a few tonight:All or none thinking: By saying the experience was a complete failure not only I'm I oversimplifying the experience, but I'm also failing to notice the positives, which is the fact that I made an honest attempt to go.Mind Reading: On my way back I could have sworn these two girls were laughing at me for some reason (I'm paranoid of these type of things). But I honestly can't know something like that, I'm merely projecting my own fears into the whole thing. This could also be an example of personalization in which I'm always assuming peoples actions are in response to me.Catastrophic Thinking: I walked out of the gym because I felt that there were too many people. This in turn I thought would make me extremely uncomfortable and I felt like wouldn't be able to cope with the situation. All of this is probably a gross over exaggeration. I think I'm going to to go back in a couple hours say... maybe 3am (24 hour gym) 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dsm Posted July 18, 2014 Author Share Posted July 18, 2014 Took my granddaughter to the beach yesterday. I waited until early evening so I didn't have to be around people. It went better than I thought. Tonight we are going to a circus. I'd rather just sit in a hole all weekend, but I will go out for her. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Redneckdown Posted July 20, 2014 Share Posted July 20, 2014 I showered, brushed my teeth and got dressed. After arguing with myself I went to the store for new coils for my e-cigg and what a nightmare that was. I hate talking to people since I stutter alot when put on the spot. Oh yeah i registered for this site so there's something else i did today. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Metal_Falcon_351 Posted July 20, 2014 Share Posted July 20, 2014 Went to a car meet last night, good turnout, did a lap of town before heading to lime burners.Washed me ute todaycooked dinner 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rhyl Posted July 21, 2014 Share Posted July 21, 2014 I disposed of the dead plants in the house. I've been meaning to do this for ages. I had two...floor plants...in the bedroom, that were quite dead, and I really think they have been contributing to my depression. Out they went today! Oh, and I vacuumed. I don't think I've done that much in the last two weeks. LOL 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MaineGardener52 Posted July 21, 2014 Share Posted July 21, 2014 I woke up and managed to make some breakfast for hubby and me. Afterward, we took a walk with our dogs and came back home. I was feeling a little tired, so I took a nap and then woke up in time to cook us some dinner. He said the food was so good he didn't think he would need to eat for days. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dsm Posted July 22, 2014 Author Share Posted July 22, 2014 (edited) My 5 year old granddaughter has been with me 1.5 weeks now and we have 1.5 weeks to go. I am exhausted beyond words. Mostly mentally. Physical exhaustion I can take. Mental exhaustion is much harder. There are times I resent her simply because I want total silence and want to just stare at a wall. But I love her so I will get through this. I just have to remember that all the yucky feelings I have really have nothing to do with her. It's my depression. She deserves so much better. I hope I'm not destroying her in some way. Edited July 22, 2014 by dsm 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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