scatter Posted November 19, 2013 Share Posted November 19, 2013 Do you guys ever think about changing to something new? I'd really like to find something a bit more "stimulating" something that I could actually care aboutHey. I also abhor my job. I want to walk out pretty much the whole time I am there. I would too if I could. Anyway, as for your question, I've thought of switching back to a line of wwork that is more in-tune with mmyfield of study. However, the realization that I couldn't even finish my masters or hold down my lab job prevents me from taking a step forward. That and the meaninglessness of it all... 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tuldas Posted November 19, 2013 Share Posted November 19, 2013 Most days I pace around the house, or sit on the floor staring into space. I've recently been able to get into games and books again, so spend as much time as I can lost in one or the other. Anything I can do to make my brain stop pestering me with how terrible of a person I am, and how I deserve to be miserable and on and on.Back in 2009 I would go out for long walks and take pictures, but these days I can't find anything beautiful about the world. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
randomnzguy Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 Well I quit my job... In the end I just decided it's not worth it. So looking at temp work to get me some perspective on what other work places are like and hopefully find something interesting to do. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blueyonder Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 (edited) i work in a really demanding customer service job for about 24 hours a week. i spend the rest of my time taking care of my mother. when im alone and i dont have to do anything for my mother, i sometimes drink alcohol and think about how my life is consumed by things i do not enjoy. when i have enough energy i write and draw. i love to write and draw more than anything but i dont always have the energy. rather than working in my s***ty job or helping my mother with stuff, i would rather be teaching myself and learning interesting things, i would rather be reading the great world literatures. Edited December 15, 2013 by blueyonder Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kalla Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 Since I'm in school, I'm usually studying and working on assignments. I also have an internship and a couple volunteer gigs so I spend a few hours (~15 a week) doing that. Otherwise, I'm either lost in my thoughts, watching TV, surfing the web or being anxious or depressed about random things....maybe I'll see some friends every now and then, too. I try to stay productive to keep the anxious/depressed thoughts out of my head, but it's difficult. I wish I could put those bad energies and thoughts into something productive. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doommantia Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 Gaming, listening to music and watching films/shows and feeling sorry for myself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ASLycoris Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 writing. "working." reading. gaming. watching various movies and/or series... It's a productive lifestyle. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SpiralingMind Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 I spend a lot of time day dreaming about what it would be like to be someone who isn't me. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 when I am at work I spend all day stressing and dealing with anxiety, when I am at home I meditate and try to sleep to get ready for the next work day Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gravity Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 I spend a lot of time day dreaming about what it would be like to be someone who isn't me.Me too. When not working I desperately try to find a bit of hope. Something I can BELIEVE in that makes sense. (No More False Hope BS!) After many, many years I have yet to find a way out of Treatment Resistant Depression hell. Now.... still searching for my last ditch solution but for the most part I'm gathering the courage to leave...gravity Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RichW Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 I work full time and as much as anything I'm grateful for the distraction that brings. Besides that, I do an awful lot of procrastinating online but when I'm not I'll be on my exercise bike watching TV or I'll meet friends in a pub or something. I could definitely do with a new hobby, but I don't feel like I can dedicate myself to much if anything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Penny64 Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 I would love to be able to work again but it is impossible. I have a friend who owns a pizza buizziness (not what I have ever done, my degree and work was in Early Childhood Ed. ) and she gave me a pat time job, 3 hour aday ,3 days a week making pizza in the back. Not hard but my anxiety was paralyzing (this was a few years ago). I last 1 1/2 days. She was very good about it. Her son has suffers from anxiety. I have been on disability (SSDI) for 13years.I spend a lot of time watching TV (nothing sappy though, has to make me think), have appointments to go to daily (Therapy 3 1hour sessions 3 days a week), I walk for at least 45 minutes daily to try to keep my mind clearer and body feeling better, I make myself go to the communityroom (I live in an apartment building for those with chronic mental illnesses) and socialize with others(I really would rather not like to get out but it is part of my treatment plan that my psych and therapist have set up and will be checked when SS checks up every once in awhile).When weekends come around like today, I have spent most of it so far on the couch watching NFL Football. :) , cleaning and baking.So most of the stuff I do is around a small community I live in or someone takes me to other appts as I can no longer drive due to seizures that I have after a stroke in July 2012. Yea! It sucks! I feel like I have lost all independence. :( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lcdream Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 Googling depression/anxiety and various medications. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justaguy13 Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 I work a 37.5 hour week, and see my family once or twice a week, my friends maybe once or twice a week too. I live by myself so most of the time I am alone, either watching TV, playing video games or worrying about all the stuff I should be doing.I fantasise a lot too, about the type of life I would like to have or about how awful my life currently is. I wish I could stop doing this and actually do something that's real but I've been finding it so hard recently.I'd like to take up running, or go out more, but I'm too scared to try and I don't have anyone to do anything with. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jenwilson523 Posted December 15, 2013 Share Posted December 15, 2013 Yup, same here. Spend most of my time playing video games and fantasising about all sorts of unrealistic stuff. Makes me feel better till I realize how boring my life has actually become. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Penny64 Posted December 16, 2013 Share Posted December 16, 2013 I also spend time with my kids during the week here and there as they live in the same town I do (ages 20 @ 22). I fix meals for us at least 1 night a week. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
flasquish Posted December 16, 2013 Share Posted December 16, 2013 Staying busy, go to work Monday to Friday, and now in my free time posting on this great forum. So many sad people out there that need to let it out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dsm Posted December 16, 2013 Share Posted December 16, 2013 I'm in front of my computer usually 16 hours per day, 7 days per week. I'm a blogger and it's all I ever do. It's a good excuse for doing nothing else. I'd much rather be cleaning, walking, living, but I have no interest in actually doing those things. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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