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How Old Were You When It Began?


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Hi all,

I was officially diagnosed at 19, but in retrospect I realized that I was depressed in the 6th grade. I can remember praying to die at night and when I'd wake up in the morning, I wept from disappointment. Of course, back then I didn't know that I was ill.

At what age do you think your depression began?

For me it was 11.

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I've never been officially diagnosed, but I talked to a therapist about 2 years ago and she said from everything I told her about how I feel it sounded like I have depression.

Going off that I've probably been fighting depression since I was 23 starting with being fired from my job, girl friend moving away then breaking up with me, and realizing I had no friends other than her, plus other events. I'm 26 now. For the most part I feel like I can suppress it, but i've noticed more and more when smaller and smaller things go wrong my negative feelings get magnified.

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Hmm, it was kind of an on/off thing for me. I was diagnosed by a psychologist when I was very young, maybe about 7. I remember bursting into tears a lot in class when I was in elementary, and I took antidepressants until I was in the 6th grade. Then in middle school and high school I made some good friends, and just kinda mellowed out.

Then when I began college again I would have episodes, but usually fairly isolated. Then in the past year and a half it's gradually become more prevalent. I'm not as depressed as I was as a kid, but more so than when I was a teenager. I think a lot of it has to do with my work, growing up, facing adulthood, a lot of friends moving away, etc.

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Officially diagnosed at 16 years old. I've had two major episodes since (currently going through one of them), and have been mildly depressed on and off. Although when I look back to my childhood, I have always felt different, kind of strange. In a way, I feel like depression (and anxiety) has always been creeping behind me, controlling my thoughts and my life in general.

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Well, I didn't get diagnosed until I was in my 50s...but, looking way back to my college days, I think it started when I was about 19 or 20. It definitely got worse in my late 40s though.

On edit: I've always felt "different" as well; things that didn't bug other kids would bug me. I can remember feeling this way even in kindergarten.

I hadn't thought about a particular episode in decades, but when I was about 5 or 6, I got put in a hospital for "tests". I remember thinking that I felt fine but my parents felt I needed "tests" of some sort. I got blood taken and I was wired up to some kind of monitoring device. I was in for a couple of days...and I don't remember ever hearing what the results of the "tests" were...

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I think 12 or 13 for me. It wasn't that severe at first, I would have episodes lasting several months than things would improve until the next episode. It would get worse with each episode until some suicide attempts when I was 19 and 21.

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I remember wanting to die and thinking about suicide as young as 8. I wasn't diagnosed until my early 20's. While I still have episodes, I've stopped having suicidal thoughts. Maybe, I'm just mellowing out with age.

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It's interesting how a lot of us started at puberty.........

I was thinking about that too. It really is interesting, isn't it?

Officially diagnosed at 16 years old. I've had two major episodes since (currently going through one of them), and have been mildly depressed on and off. Although when I look back to my childhood, I have always felt different, kind of strange. In a way, I feel like depression (and anxiety) has always been creeping behind me, controlling my thoughts and my life in general.

Beautiful way of describing it, Eric. Depression = evil, cruel puppeteer.

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This is a topic i am currently struggling with accepting. I have never had a moment in my life when i wanted to harm myself until this last year. It boggles my mind on how something like this can just happen like that, without warning. My therapist states that perhaps it has always been there, but i don't know if i can buy that. I would like to think that I am very aware of my body and emotions, and would be able to know something like this could be creeping up on me. My therapist and i go back and forth on this :) but she love's me LOL

i remember having to see a therapist when i was 12 for panic attacks after i witnessed a traumatic event. She treated me with guided imagery at that time to help calm me down; no meds. The therapy worked and I was good throughout high school and college. Unfortunately, It just hit me again 10 fold in my life like freight train out of no where at the age of 38.

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i remember waiting to disapear at the age of 4. not diagonist until 18 when my mom took me to see some one thinking i was additiced to porn. she recived some emails about some websites. my elementry teachers just said i was in a shell.

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I think I've always been prone to depression, but despite my sensitive nature I was surprisingly tough as a kid and only had my first depressive episode when I was 16. After that I had some milder episodes but managed to get a couple of grades and to live so-called normal life, until I broke down again last autumn, at the age of 27. My worst fear is that I'll never make it into worklife even if I'd like to, but otherwise I've accepted the fact I'll never be as 'normal' as most people. Being normal is hugely overrated anyway :Coopwink:

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for me it was at 16, am now 51, it wasn't until this year that i found a therapist and psychiatrist who communicate together about how im doing and they have worked wonders getting me on the right med combo and helping me to work through the depression and not letting it get too bad, i just wish i found these two years ago

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Probably when I was about 12, though I remember having a panic attack at school in 4th or 5th grade.....but I wasn't diagnosed with Dysthymia til 16, and then MDD and medication at 17.

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