Depression, Anxiety, And Possibly Dystonia

[alexk315]

OK So i'll be honest I never thought I would put this out anywhere probably three people if that know what really is going on with me. I had a really bad stint of depression like 6 years ago. Had some suicide attempts (began self harming something I would do for years) got hospitalized and was put on seroquil for a while to help me sleep ( I wasnt at all for days at a time) a couple years ago I went back into a funk just as bad and started seeing a new doctor. They tried giving me seroquil again to help me sleep and it gave me a crazy reation, Half my body shut down and I was pretty sure at the time I was having a stroke or something. Needless to say it wasn't pleasant. Since then attacks come and go and for pretty much a month I was laid up taking ativan and trying to avoid stress. It almost made me fail out of grad school but not they let me back in and I started getting attacks again the last few days and to add to my already crazy anxiety they are threatening to throw me out of school. I had to be taken to the hosptial today because my possibly dystonia, possibly anxeity attack was so bad. Does anyone know how I can begin to deal with something like this and be functional again? Anything I can take? I get too scared to even take my anti depressants now and being off them for a long while too isnt helping. I havent been able to really get out of bed and do anything in many months. It;s getting pretty dire. Thanks.

Edited March 25, 2013 by AquaViolet
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[endoftheworld]

Sorry to hear you're not doing well at all.

Sounds like depression has been taking over your life from time to time, bit like myself.

How old are you? And what are you studying?

[CPA]

I had reactions to anti-depressants until I tried Remeron. I started at only 7.5 milligrams and it made me sleep like a baby. When I increased it to 15 mg (which is usually the lowest, starting dose) it helped anxiety, panic attacks, sleeping, and depression. I have been taking it for 10 years. The only side effects, for me, have been weight gain (under control) and requiring about 8-9 hours sleep each night.

I was able to return to work (I'm a college professor) and lead a productive life (with limitations due to my other health issues.)

I would look for another psychiatrist and a counselor, work with both, eat healthy foods (plenty of omega 3 and organic) and know that you will get better.