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First time ever writing to a forum, so much to share but having trouble starting. Depression has been with me as long as I can remember. For the last 1-1/2 yrs. I have been to steady counseling and tried different meds., yet my friend shadows me, today especially. I have stopped therapy for now, seeing the Psych next week for advice on new meds.

This is really gonna sound weird (well, maybe not). For the last few years, maybe 5+ I constantly see the numbers 111 and 1111 on the clock, maybe 3-6 times a week. I thought perhaps that the end of my life would be on 11-11-11(not by my doing). Have thought about it alot these last few days. It seems today like it would be such a relief.

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First time ever writing to a forum, so much to share but having trouble starting. Depression has been with me as long as I can remember. For the last 1-1/2 yrs. I have been to steady counseling and tried different meds., yet my friend shadows me, today especially. I have stopped therapy for now, seeing the Psych next week for advice on new meds.

This is really gonna sound weird (well, maybe not). For the last few years, maybe 5+ I constantly see the numbers 111 and 1111 on the clock, maybe 3-6 times a week. I thought perhaps that the end of my life would be on 11-11-11(not by my doing). Have thought about it alot these last few days. It seems today like it would be such a relief.

Maybe you could put the numbers in a more positive perspective? Stop and buy a lottery ticket and play only numbers with ones in them! Ya never know.....I was watching a show just last week "How the Lottery Changed my Life" and the guy on there said he'd never played it before but had a dream where some numbers popped up in his head so he bought a ticket on his way home from work and won! I don't remember how much, but it worked. Stranger things have happened......

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First time ever writing to a forum, so much to share but having trouble starting. Depression has been with me as long as I can remember. For the last 1-1/2 yrs. I have been to steady counseling and tried different meds., yet my friend shadows me, today especially. I have stopped therapy for now, seeing the Psych next week for advice on new meds.

This is really gonna sound weird (well, maybe not). For the last few years, maybe 5+ I constantly see the numbers 111 and 1111 on the clock, maybe 3-6 times a week. I thought perhaps that the end of my life would be on 11-11-11(not by my doing). Have thought about it alot these last few days. It seems today like it would be such a relief.

Maybe you could put the numbers in a more positive perspective? Stop and buy a lottery ticket and play only numbers with ones in them! Ya never know.....I was watching a show just last week "How the Lottery Changed my Life" and the guy on there said he'd never played it before but had a dream where some numbers popped up in his head so he bought a ticket on his way home from work and won! I don't remember how much, but it worked. Stranger things have happened......

Nice idea, thank you.

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Hi ilan. The numbers you mentioned have spiritual meaning to some and to some they are considered lucky numbers. I have seen them before too. I personally think you should feel good about seeing them. I don't think you should view it as the end of your life, but a special blessing.

Welcome to DF :)

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Hi and Welcome to DF ilan

I have been listening to the theories on 11/11/11 today on the radio. Many people see it as a new beginning, a lucky day and a day when things will get better. I agree trying to see it in a positive light may help a little.

Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

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