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I too feel lonely and it's not a good feeling. When I'm at work, I put on my mask, but when I leave, the real me comes out. My best friend and I have been friends for 16 years and even though she knows everything about me and vice-versa, I can't help but think that she's sick of me telling her the same old thing. I feel like a broken record and no matter how much I want to repair it, I can't. It's too broken to even try. I feel like there is a dark cloud looming over me at all times. I can't get away from it. Going to my parents house is like torture for me. I love both of my parents but I can't help but feel uncomfortable, scared and lonely. My mind constantly drifts to a place where there are no dark clouds. I want so much for this feeling to go away but I feel stuck. I cry about everything. When I want to confront my sisters for the things they have done to me, I can't. I feel like my voice is stuck in my throat and the only thing I do is to cry. I cry because I'm angry, depressed, and lonely. No matter how much my mother tells me that she's there for me, I can't bring myself to tell her how I really feel. I'm even crying typing this and I have a meeting in 25 minutes!

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I readsome information recently, that this mask is just the ego. In legal terms, it is known as a person. But could be applied in scoiety. For example: a 'person' working in a shop "a sales rep" and a 'person' buying an item 'a customer'. You become the role. "You are a customer". But that only applies to the ego and it's not your true self.

I too feel lonely and it's not a good feeling. When I'm at work, I put on my mask, but when I leave, the real me comes out. My best friend and I have been friends for 16 years and even though she knows everything about me and vice-versa, I can't help but think that she's sick of me telling her the same old thing. I feel like a broken record and no matter how much I want to repair it, I can't. It's too broken to even try. I feel like there is a dark cloud looming over me at all times. I can't get away from it. Going to my parents house is like torture for me. I love both of my parents but I can't help but feel uncomfortable, scared and lonely. My mind constantly drifts to a place where there are no dark clouds. I want so much for this feeling to go away but I feel stuck. I cry about everything. When I want to confront my sisters for the things they have done to me, I can't. I feel like my voice is stuck in my throat and the only thing I do is to cry. I cry because I'm angry, depressed, and lonely. No matter how much my mother tells me that she's there for me, I can't bring myself to tell her how I really feel. I'm even crying typing this and I have a meeting in 25 minutes!

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Perhaps is because we disconnect from reality, because of how traumatised we become be seeing the world as it is

I too feel lonely and it's not a good feeling. When I'm at work, I put on my mask, but when I leave, the real me comes out. My best friend and I have been friends for 16 years and even though she knows everything about me and vice-versa, I can't help but think that she's sick of me telling her the same old thing. I feel like a broken record and no matter how much I want to repair it, I can't. It's too broken to even try. I feel like there is a dark cloud looming over me at all times. I can't get away from it. Going to my parents house is like torture for me. I love both of my parents but I can't help but feel uncomfortable, scared and lonely. My mind constantly drifts to a place where there are no dark clouds. I want so much for this feeling to go away but I feel stuck. I cry about everything. When I want to confront my sisters for the things they have done to me, I can't. I feel like my voice is stuck in my throat and the only thing I do is to cry. I cry because I'm angry, depressed, and lonely. No matter how much my mother tells me that she's there for me, I can't bring myself to tell her how I really feel. I'm even crying typing this and I have a meeting in 25 minutes!

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I too feel lonely and it's not a good feeling. When I'm at work, I put on my mask, but when I leave, the real me comes out. My best friend and I have been friends for 16 years and even though she knows everything about me and vice-versa, I can't help but think that she's sick of me telling her the same old thing. I feel like a broken record and no matter how much I want to repair it, I can't. It's too broken to even try. I feel like there is a dark cloud looming over me at all times. I can't get away from it. Going to my parents house is like torture for me. I love both of my parents but I can't help but feel uncomfortable, scared and lonely. My mind constantly drifts to a place where there are no dark clouds. I want so much for this feeling to go away but I feel stuck. I cry about everything. When I want to confront my sisters for the things they have done to me, I can't. I feel like my voice is stuck in my throat and the only thing I do is to cry. I cry because I'm angry, depressed, and lonely. No matter how much my mother tells me that she's there for me, I can't bring myself to tell her how I really feel. I'm even crying typing this and I have a meeting in 25 minutes!

Yes. Sometimes I'm filled with heartbreak because I don't want to "overuse" my closest friends. I've had some tell me that they're sick of hearing me repeat myself all the time. So I confide in people that I'm less close to, and sometimes they use it against me. That's a pretty disgusting feeling. Yesterday I had to leave class because I felt overwhelmingly sad. I went to the bathroom to cry, and came back with red eyes I'm sure. The worst part: I don't even know what was wrong or what triggered it. I feel you sister.

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I believe it's caused by a heightened sensitivity to the energies around us. If we sense nagativity, this can cause us to become sad. That's how I feel, but It's also what I'm picking up from most peoples descriptions

I too feel lonely and it's not a good feeling. When I'm at work, I put on my mask, but when I leave, the real me comes out. My best friend and I have been friends for 16 years and even though she knows everything about me and vice-versa, I can't help but think that she's sick of me telling her the same old thing. I feel like a broken record and no matter how much I want to repair it, I can't. It's too broken to even try. I feel like there is a dark cloud looming over me at all times. I can't get away from it. Going to my parents house is like torture for me. I love both of my parents but I can't help but feel uncomfortable, scared and lonely. My mind constantly drifts to a place where there are no dark clouds. I want so much for this feeling to go away but I feel stuck. I cry about everything. When I want to confront my sisters for the things they have done to me, I can't. I feel like my voice is stuck in my throat and the only thing I do is to cry. I cry because I'm angry, depressed, and lonely. No matter how much my mother tells me that she's there for me, I can't bring myself to tell her how I really feel. I'm even crying typing this and I have a meeting in 25 minutes!

Yes. Sometimes I'm filled with heartbreak because I don't want to "overuse" my closest friends. I've had some tell me that they're sick of hearing me repeat myself all the time. So I confide in people that I'm less close to, and sometimes they use it against me. That's a pretty disgusting feeling. Yesterday I had to leave class because I felt overwhelmingly sad. I went to the bathroom to cry, and came back with red eyes I'm sure. The worst part: I don't even know what was wrong or what triggered it. I feel you sister.

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