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Hi all,

 

I think I'm finally ready to try Wellbutrin for my depression & anxiety.

The reason I havent taken this medication is because I was afraid it would remove that hard switch deep inside me thats keeping me alive. 

 

I've noticed that I seem to go into a 2 month depression every 2 months. Give or take a few weeks to a month but its pretty consistant.

I also avoid all social contact due to anxiety.  I dont check my mail or answer the phone. I have no friends & stopped talking to family for years now.

So heres basically what happens.

Day 1:  Feel good. Have energy, hope, want to do things.  I'll start by jumping on my elliptical and feel great afterwards.  This will snowball into my 'normal' routine of wake up workout. Then I'll shower & make a protein smoothy. This sets the day for success.  House gets cleaned and Im motivated to do what I want to do.  I'll start studying for some certs, duolingo, doing hobbies etc.

Day 60: All of a sudden I just stop working out. I see it happening, I want to workout but its like Im on auto pilot and when I try to reason with myself its like talking to a wall - met with silence.  I'll go buy a bunch of junk food and binge.  This snowballs the other way. I wont shower for days, wont go outside, stay in bed until I cant, dishes stack up etc.  Then I'll start having thoughts of maybe Id be better off not here.  When I do have to venture out for food its painful for me.  This lasts about a month then I start feeling better but it takes about another month for me to get back to 'normal' and start working out again.

This cycle is exhausting.

 

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I completely understand your situation.  I did not feel Wellbutrin worked.  Yet, now that I have excluded it from my daily Rx protocol.  On lamictal 400mg as well as I am bipolar.  I feel horrible, still stressed and feel so sensitive.  So maybe Wellbutrin was working.  I am talking to my psychiatrist soon and will revisit this situation with her.

 

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Hi imokreally and welcome to the Forums.

I think you are so courageous.   Your post helps me with my own struggles although they are different from your own and I know your post will help others who are battling the horrors of mental illness.  I am not familiar with the medications you mentioned but others here are and I hope they will see your post and respond to it with kindly and helpful words.

These Forums have been a welcome refuge for me and helpful and I hope that will be your experience too.  I want to wish you only the very, very best!

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Hi @imokreally I experience this cycle too, ill be good for 3-6 months then the depression and anxiety hit and I stop working out and get too anxious to leave the house and my diet turns to shit and this will last months as well. I dont know how to fix it or stop it but its damn ****ing exhausting! Hang in there, at least we're not alone in this, I find that comforting if nothing else

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On 8/29/2021 at 2:34 AM, imokreally said:

Hi all,

 

I think I'm finally ready to try Wellbutrin for my depression & anxiety.

The reason I havent taken this medication is because I was afraid it would remove that hard switch deep inside me thats keeping me alive. 

 

I've noticed that I seem to go into a 2 month depression every 2 months. Give or take a few weeks to a month but its pretty consistant.

I also avoid all social contact due to anxiety.  I dont check my mail or answer the phone. I have no friends & stopped talking to family for years now.

So heres basically what happens.

Day 1:  Feel good. Have energy, hope, want to do things.  I'll start by jumping on my elliptical and feel great afterwards.  This will snowball into my 'normal' routine of wake up workout. Then I'll shower & make a protein smoothy. This sets the day for success.  House gets cleaned and Im motivated to do what I want to do.  I'll start studying for some certs, duolingo, doing hobbies etc.

Day 60: All of a sudden I just stop working out. I see it happening, I want to workout but its like Im on auto pilot and when I try to reason with myself its like talking to a wall - met with silence.  I'll go buy a bunch of junk food and binge.  This snowballs the other way. I wont shower for days, wont go outside, stay in bed until I cant, dishes stack up etc.  Then I'll start having thoughts of maybe Id be better off not here.  When I do have to venture out for food its painful for me.  This lasts about a month then I start feeling better but it takes about another month for me to get back to 'normal' and start working out again.

This cycle is exhausting.

 

So this is what happens when you are not on Wellbutrin correct?  And you now want to give Wellbutrin a try to see if it breaks this cycle?

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