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I am only active on three forums now, and one wiki, about horror films. Yet I'm plagued by a stalker on that wiki, who leaves stupid anonymous comments, and he was bothering me on other forums with multiple profiles. When this crazy Kiwi gets caught out though, he tries to move his profiles to new names, yet he forgets there are still breadcrumbs that lead back to him because of his edits. 

While I do occasionally post on some other forums, like this one, I'm usually only on three forums about gaming, and I'd say they're all dead, apart from being attended by a few posters who submit pointless three word replies here and there. It's nothing that makes conversing with anybody really worth your while anyway. Once 'the honeymoon phase' is over with some newer games, I don't see a lot of people posting on them much anymore. Now that I don't have broadband, and have to use mobile data to access the Internet, I cannot get videos to play in full HD or even medium or low quality, and downloading games I find now takes me days, as I only have 4G speed. Broadcasting games is also out of the question, as it's not likely I'll be able to achieve a stable enough connection, and be cut off so constantly, making it a chore to bother with. And of course, many gaming forums as I pointed out, are dead now. So you kind of have to reply to video comments on YouTube, and build up a thread that way, weeding through all the ridiculous posts from trolls. All the decent responses get buried, so again, is it worth the hassle to participate in such groups? The more active forums like GameFAQs really, really should be avoided. Trying to have a worthwhile conversation with any users on that site, is akin to trying to get blood from a stone. They're all degenerates, and likely shills, so they won't care about anything you say in any case. I've seen other users engaging with them, as if they need to get the last word in, and I'm thinking, "Why take the bait?" 

But one of the reasons I gave up on anxiety and autism forums, was due to the sheer amount of people on them who implied I was nuts (or the culprit). I've posted quite a number of threads on them, explaining stuff about my problems, and only about 2 in every 50 users understand where I'm coming from. I'd re-registered on one forum I had not been on for like 4 years after being banned, and somehow after I posted with a new identity, they immediately remembered who I was. Like, I got kind of mad at them again because I felt like they were not interested in what I had to say when I went into this long winded rant about what had been going on. They were being awkward and unhelpful. I'd go into this long tangent about how I got betrayed by my former support workers, and I even described some of the (in my view) heinous things they did to me, such as one guy emailing me with a nickname years ago, and with me getting lied to about two women who didn't want to support me again, and whatnot. Both of which, are pretty bad incidents from the perspective of a client, actually. All they did was say I did this, this, and this, appearing to be fully disinterested in accepting that they did bad things to me first. All the bother with these so-called support workers actually lead to a number of jail terms for me, and all manner of stress, because I felt I needed closure, and I kept contacting them when I wasn't supposed to. Now I don't even have any support, and my mother does everything for me. My older mate just lives up the road, but I seldom ever see him nowadays. To be honest, I started to think he was avoiding me.

In recent years, I realised I was 'getting on a bit', age-wise, even though I'm only 34. Well, I decided to try my hand at acting ages ago, since everyone loves movies, and I always felt that if you cannot be a good actor for whatever reason, there's nothing wrong with being in films as an extra. I'd did acting years ago in an amateur class for disabled people at a college, but then I didn't do anything like that for long enough because of having anxiety issues, and I had a hard time after losing my support and being reunited with my ex after nearly 7 years, who from that point onward, kept on scamming me until she just eventually exited my life again. It was hellish, I tell you. But finally, I started getting some small extra roles in movies; I landed minor roles in a few full length movies, and also some short films. In fact, I was meant to get a speaking part in a Christian film, yet my scenes were edited down heavily, to the point where I felt like I'd wasted my time. 

I've had to suffer with people slandering me online, which has affected my acting ambitions greatly and caused so many setbacks. Like, I know the people who did it before, and they're actually still at it. I've donated money on sites like Indiegogo, hoping I'd get to appear in these low budget films in a small capacity, and then I've been purposefully 'bumped' because someone was spreading stories to other producers, and as a result, I have gotten nowhere. Recently, I compiled some list of what I could have been in, and there's like 40 films I missed out on being a part of. They didn't refund the money either, and I don't know if now is a good time to take the matter up as a small claims case. It's bad right now, as practically all businesses are closed due to the coronavirus commotion. In the past, I called so many legal firms and even recorded me speaking to them so I could prove how annoying the process is. Nobody was able to help, or they asked for way too much money.

In general, a lot of people I've met in real life have taking the biscuit with me, like people in general, care personnel, co-workers, escorts, Internet losers, and doctors. At my age, I feel like it's not healthy to be sitting online all day long moping over the past, but it's the only socialising I am able to get. After all of this nonsense with being hurt by people, it has kind of made me just not care anymore. And I think about my mother loads, too. She is 66 now, and I think in a few more years, she will probably not be able to get out much. Even now, she cannot walk long distances. My sister cannot even help me now, as she is housebound due to a disability, and is going through a custody battle with no solicitor to back her up. It's just gotten pretty dull, and 2020 already sucks. And when it comes to acting, I don't have an agent to find me any decent jobs. Extra work is sort of meaningless, because you're just on the screen for a few seconds in the background doing nothing, and nobody is fussy about that type of stuff. I'm not able to travel anywhere, which might have been an option had I been able to go further away. My criminal record means I can't be in mainstream movies, and the local filming crowd are blackballing me on the indie scene, which I cannot always prove outright. So, I reckon it's a lost cause now that the doomsday is nigh. I'm not so sure you can even sue somebody either, unless you have a lot of dough in the bank. Even so. That's not going to stop anybody from doing it again.

 

 

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On 4/9/2020 at 2:41 AM, Rebecca Chambers said:

I am only active on three forums now, and one wiki, about horror films. Yet I'm plagued by a stalker on that wiki, who leaves stupid anonymous comments, and he was bothering me on other forums with multiple profiles. When this crazy Kiwi gets caught out though, he tries to move his profiles to new names, yet he forgets there are still breadcrumbs that lead back to him because of his edits. 

While I do occasionally post on some other forums, like this one, I'm usually only on three forums about gaming, and I'd say they're all dead, apart from being attended by a few posters who submit pointless three word replies here and there. It's nothing that makes conversing with anybody really worth your while anyway. Once 'the honeymoon phase' is over with some newer games, I don't see a lot of people posting on them much anymore. Now that I don't have broadband, and have to use mobile data to access the Internet, I cannot get videos to play in full HD or even medium or low quality, and downloading games I find now takes me days, as I only have 4G speed. Broadcasting games is also out of the question, as it's not likely I'll be able to achieve a stable enough connection, and be cut off so constantly, making it a chore to bother with. And of course, many gaming forums as I pointed out, are dead now. So you kind of have to reply to video comments on YouTube, and build up a thread that way, weeding through all the ridiculous posts from trolls. All the decent responses get buried, so again, is it worth the hassle to participate in such groups? The more active forums like GameFAQs really, really should be avoided. Trying to have a worthwhile conversation with any users on that site, is akin to trying to get blood from a stone. They're all degenerates, and likely shills, so they won't care about anything you say in any case. I've seen other users engaging with them, as if they need to get the last word in, and I'm thinking, "Why take the bait?" 

But one of the reasons I gave up on anxiety and autism forums, was due to the sheer amount of people on them who implied I was nuts (or the culprit). I've posted quite a number of threads on them, explaining stuff about my problems, and only about 2 in every 50 users understand where I'm coming from. I'd re-registered on one forum I had not been on for like 4 years after being banned, and somehow after I posted with a new identity, they immediately remembered who I was. Like, I got kind of mad at them again because I felt like they were not interested in what I had to say when I went into this long winded rant about what had been going on. They were being awkward and unhelpful. I'd go into this long tangent about how I got betrayed by my former support workers, and I even described some of the (in my view) heinous things they did to me, such as one guy emailing me with a nickname years ago, and with me getting lied to about two women who didn't want to support me again, and whatnot. Both of which, are pretty bad incidents from the perspective of a client, actually. All they did was say I did this, this, and this, appearing to be fully disinterested in accepting that they did bad things to me first. All the bother with these so-called support workers actually lead to a number of jail terms for me, and all manner of stress, because I felt I needed closure, and I kept contacting them when I wasn't supposed to. Now I don't even have any support, and my mother does everything for me. My older mate just lives up the road, but I seldom ever see him nowadays. To be honest, I started to think he was avoiding me.

In recent years, I realised I was 'getting on a bit', age-wise, even though I'm only 34. Well, I decided to try my hand at acting ages ago, since everyone loves movies, and I always felt that if you cannot be a good actor for whatever reason, there's nothing wrong with being in films as an extra. I'd did acting years ago in an amateur class for disabled people at a college, but then I didn't do anything like that for long enough because of having anxiety issues, and I had a hard time after losing my support and being reunited with my ex after nearly 7 years, who from that point onward, kept on scamming me until she just eventually exited my life again. It was hellish, I tell you. But finally, I started getting some small extra roles in movies; I landed minor roles in a few full length movies, and also some short films. In fact, I was meant to get a speaking part in a Christian film, yet my scenes were edited down heavily, to the point where I felt like I'd wasted my time. 

I've had to suffer with people slandering me online, which has affected my acting ambitions greatly and caused so many setbacks. Like, I know the people who did it before, and they're actually still at it. I've donated money on sites like Indiegogo, hoping I'd get to appear in these low budget films in a small capacity, and then I've been purposefully 'bumped' because someone was spreading stories to other producers, and as a result, I have gotten nowhere. Recently, I compiled some list of what I could have been in, and there's like 40 films I missed out on being a part of. They didn't refund the money either, and I don't know if now is a good time to take the matter up as a small claims case. It's bad right now, as practically all businesses are closed due to the coronavirus commotion. In the past, I called so many legal firms and even recorded me speaking to them so I could prove how annoying the process is. Nobody was able to help, or they asked for way too much money.

In general, a lot of people I've met in real life have taking the biscuit with me, like people in general, care personnel, co-workers, escorts, Internet losers, and doctors. At my age, I feel like it's not healthy to be sitting online all day long moping over the past, but it's the only socialising I am able to get. After all of this nonsense with being hurt by people, it has kind of made me just not care anymore. And I think about my mother loads, too. She is 66 now, and I think in a few more years, she will probably not be able to get out much. Even now, she cannot walk long distances. My sister cannot even help me now, as she is housebound due to a disability, and is going through a custody battle with no solicitor to back her up. It's just gotten pretty dull, and 2020 already sucks. And when it comes to acting, I don't have an agent to find me any decent jobs. Extra work is sort of meaningless, because you're just on the screen for a few seconds in the background doing nothing, and nobody is fussy about that type of stuff. I'm not able to travel anywhere, which might have been an option had I been able to go further away. My criminal record means I can't be in mainstream movies, and the local filming crowd are blackballing me on the indie scene, which I cannot always prove outright. So, I reckon it's a lost cause now that the doomsday is nigh. I'm not so sure you can even sue somebody either, unless you have a lot of dough in the bank. Even so. That's not going to stop anybody from doing it again.

 

 

It seems that you have seen alot of successes and failures in your life, these things happen to everyone but to varying degrees.  You will meet all kinds of people with different styles, personalities and desires. That is a privilege no matter how strenuous it can be communicating with different people and doing different things, it is a blessing in life.

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The stalker actually abuses me on YouTube, and emailed me the other night, after harassing me on Miniclip. I think I better get reporting him soon.

The only problem is, I reside in Scotland. He is in New Zealand, I believe.

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Hi,

I think we should not be so hasty to judge people. The people on GameFaqs and Reddit can be kind of funny and cool sometimes 🙂 at least I think so.

It is okay to judge people but you got to hear them out first. This the same you, you probably felt judged on the forums where the people gave you long rants and you feel judged for your record.

But people can say anything online. Like if I piece all you say then I would think you are a 34 lesbian from Scotland with a record lol. Like its a lot of info to divulge to people, if you slow down you can make connections. Dont reveal all your cards, you can get to know someone and keep the conversation going longer then you can make friends. Thats why I think, I hope its not offend you 🙂

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I play mostly survival horror games. 

Unfortunately, I closed another YouTube account. This guy called Alfred Gimpy keeps on following me around online, doing things to get my attention. 

He edits the same wiki pages that I do, so he gets subscribed to them. This means if I edit any page that he did too, he gets an email that I made a contribution. Then he closes these accounts he signed up, only to register even more. But besides doing pointless things like that, he posts my address on live streams if I play games on my PS4, or if I use a screen recorder on any of my phones, when I am playing pool on Miniclip.

He's just doing all of this because he's a fruitcake. 

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