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10 minutes ago, Extremebeginner said:

I don’t know if I moved forward or gave up today. Figured I needed a second opinion from a psychiatric doctor so I went to the emergency room. Came away, after I was given a choice, increase the anti depression med and add Seroquel, or put all my stuff in a bag and wait for a bed.

I’m feeling scared because I’m not getting any relief from depression. I’m looking into a supervised shroom experience because I don't feel that ECT will be good 

Sorry that your depression is so relentless at the moment..... Hospitals can be good for making friends..and having company. That's what I got out of it at least. Having people around who are not judgemental can be such a blessing.

Hope things improve in one way or another in the next 24. 

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19 hours ago, DialAForAlan said:

She's definitely not pretending to care about me though cause she wouldn't be so genuine when I vent/talk to her if she was.

I can handle unrequited love when it comes to celebrities and/or fictional characters but when it's somebody I know irl...that hurts on a much deeper level. Especially when it's somebody I have to see regularly.

Well who really says you can't be with her?  In today's world nobody is going to say oh my god you're with your physical therapist?  Go for it!❤️

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I've had a pretty crappy day today in a lot of ways.... Horrible argument with my dad on the way to therapy and then discomfort and anxiety with him on the way back.

Therapy was good as usual these days (holistic). 

But then just having n.mom violating my personal space this eve and trying to hold me like a child or partner would gave me the creeps big time.

Found out lawyer has done eff all so far for my move but is starting today to put things in motion after a bit of pushing by me. Should be moving in about 6/7 weeks. At least that is positive.

Also, foot has been hurting and clicking and I still don't know what to do with it. 

Bleurgh. Crap day. 

Love you all. Nite nite 😘

 

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41 minutes ago, sober4life said:

Well who really says you can't be with her?  In today's world nobody is going to say oh my god you're with your physical therapist?  Go for it!❤️

Her husband might have a complaint about it.

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Kind of a heavy day. Went to an appointment with a lymphedema expert and will be visiting her several more times. Just another medical problem to deal with. Plus, I got all honest with my mother about the meal plan my parents have me on, which seems to be making things worse. I'm always craving really bad things after eating the really good things. And my body can't take that. I also kind of accidentally told my mother to stop talking about food intake and such. It came out more harsh and absolutist than I intended. I don't want to shut my parents out; they are getting old. But I'm a bit burned out by the helicoptery feel of our relationship. 

 

But change is hard. "Change" is today's theme, methinks.

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3 hours ago, Extremebeginner said:

I don’t know if I moved forward or gave up today. Figured I needed a second opinion from a psychiatric doctor so I went to the emergency room. Came away, after I was given a choice, increase the anti depression med and add Seroquel, or put all my stuff in a bag and wait for a bed.

I’m feeling scared because I’m not getting any relief from depression. I’m looking into a supervised shroom experience because I don't feel that ECT will be good 

I'm sorry you were forced to go to these lengths, but the emergency room should definitely be of help, if mainly because they know you're very serious. If only they could do the same as for a broken leg, fever, burns, etc. I hope they did set you on a better path towards solutions.

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26 minutes ago, Depressedgurl007 said:

Someone on this forum just messaged me a very triggering message. I don’t have to announce my departure but I’m leaving this forums for awhile. This world is full of inconsiderate people. 

You will be missed, sorry you have been triggered like that, some people , even here I guess don’t have all the social skills or didn’t think before they type. I’m sure a super admin can block their access to your pm’s, you may be able to block somebody yourself.

Take the time you need to recover, you will be welcome back at any time you choose. Hopefully you will talk with a super admin first so that either that person can be warned and or blocked. It is a learning process.

you can bounce on and off too, PM members who you trust only.

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5 hours ago, Nightjar said:

I've had a pretty crappy day today in a lot of ways.... Horrible argument with my dad on the way to therapy and then discomfort and anxiety with him on the way back.

Therapy was good as usual these days (holistic). 

But then just having n.mom violating my personal space this eve and trying to hold me like a child or partner would gave me the creeps big time.

Found out lawyer has done eff all so far for my move but is starting today to put things in motion after a bit of pushing by me. Should be moving in about 6/7 weeks. At least that is positive.

Also, foot has been hurting and clicking and I still don't know what to do with it. 

Bleurgh. Crap day. 

Love you all. Nite nite 😘

 

( hugs ), hope it begins to heal, stay off it

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1 hour ago, Depressedgurl007 said:

Someone on this forum just messaged me a very triggering message. I don’t have to announce my departure but I’m leaving this forums for awhile. This world is full of inconsiderate people. 

I'm very sorry this happened to you, don't let one comment ruin it for you and drive you away, you are a valuable part of this community 

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This isn't a cicada year.  Yeah sure.  I've learned they don't know much of anything about animals since I moved to an area where all there is is animals.  Here in the woods we have them every year.  I mowed the yard and could hear them and they were louder than the mower.  Where do you think they really go?  I know and if you get to close to their bushes they leave you covered in welts.😒

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10 hours ago, Extremebeginner said:

I don’t know if I moved forward or gave up today. Figured I needed a second opinion from a psychiatric doctor so I went to the emergency room. Came away, after I was given a choice, increase the anti depression med and add Seroquel, or put all my stuff in a bag and wait for a bed.

I’m feeling scared because I’m not getting any relief from depression. I’m looking into a supervised shroom experience because I don't feel that ECT will be good 

I don’t think staying in the hospital will do you any good.     I think you should take the medication and hopefully it helps you.  

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6 hours ago, Depressedgurl007 said:

Someone on this forum just messaged me a very triggering message. I don’t have to announce my departure but I’m leaving this forums for awhile. This world is full of inconsiderate people. 

Please don’t leave.  We will miss you.  🥰

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9 hours ago, Depressedgurl007 said:

Someone on this forum just messaged me a very triggering message. I don’t have to announce my departure but I’m leaving this forums for awhile. This world is full of inconsiderate people. 

Sorry to hear that. I hope it doesn't put you off for good. If it's any consolation, I get those triggering messages here sometimes too. Ignoring them works best for me. They usually get tired of being ignored and leave me alone 🤷

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I tried walking a bit again today. The pain is getting worse in my ankle. It's not bad pain, just pain. Still don't know what the eff I'm sposed to be doing but I'll be calling them on Monday and hopefully getting an appointment. ...When I'm there I'm gonna be asking a lot of questions and demanding more help. 

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I know it's frustrating @Nightjar.I can imagine all they did is give you the boot and say bye and you haven't heard from them since.  Nobody cares anymore.  The only time they deal with us is if we're physically talking to them.  Businesses used to try as hard as they could to be the best.  Now I'm not even sure if they care if we come back.  Someone will always be there to bill in some capacity and they don't care who or for what reason they're there.

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40 minutes ago, Nightjar said:

Lol. 'Yes, it's time for bed' for me now. Nite friends 😘

Goodnight Nightjar!   Sweet dreams.   Hope your ankle pain goes away.   😍😍

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How are you doing Sober?  Are you planning to do more work on your home?   
 

It is very hot today.   I was out for a few minutes and I had to run back inside.

The Fringe Festival is in our city.   They have live plays.   I stopped going a few years ago because there are too many trouble makers there.   

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55 minutes ago, duck said:

How are you doing Sober?  Are you planning to do more work on your home?   
 

It is very hot today.   I was out for a few minutes and I had to run back inside.

The Fringe Festival is in our city.   They have live plays.   I stopped going a few years ago because there are too many trouble makers there.   

I'm ok just tired.  Yes there should be 3 more work days here.  I've done too much this year.  Is it my plans?  No it's more like it's the house's plans.  It never really ends.  You have to keep repairing things the whole time you're in a house.  It's always oh no don't open that door or don't open that drawer.  Oh no don't step there.  It's my place though.  I never thought I would have my own place.  The generator will be next because I'm never being stuck here in bad weather with no electricity again.  I thought I wasn't getting out of here alive a couple of times last year and I'm never doing it again.

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