sober4life Posted May 6, 2020 Share Posted May 6, 2020 I've done everything I can do today. Puke from stress. Repeat tomorrow and every day from now on! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jkd_sd Posted May 6, 2020 Share Posted May 6, 2020 (edited) @sober4life, so sorry you are going through the nasty stress. Is it related to the job you wrote about? Edited May 6, 2020 by jkd_sd Typo 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 6, 2020 Share Posted May 6, 2020 32 minutes ago, jkd_sd said: @sober4life, so sorry you are going through the nasty stress. Is it related to the job you wrote about? No the job never happened to be honest. All I can handle doing for now is odd jobs. The idea that I could handle a 12 hour shift was the manic me talking. I don't know if I could ever handle a 12 hour shift. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted May 7, 2020 Share Posted May 7, 2020 I feel like the world has gone to hell 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted May 7, 2020 Share Posted May 7, 2020 (edited) 11 hours ago, watalife said: I feel like the world has gone to hell I think it was there to begin with. At least since humanity became the top dog. Good riddance if we get wiped out. Edited May 7, 2020 by samadhiSheol 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted May 7, 2020 Share Posted May 7, 2020 6 hours ago, samadhiSheol said: I think it was there to begin with. At least since humanity became the top dog. Good riddance if we get wiped out. I can't disagree with that. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 7, 2020 Share Posted May 7, 2020 6 hours ago, samadhiSheol said: I think it was there to begin with. At least since humanity became the top dog. Good riddance if we get wiped out. Come on we're all in this together remember. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
camilo Posted May 7, 2020 Share Posted May 7, 2020 Worn out. I am tired of being strong. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jkd_sd Posted May 8, 2020 Share Posted May 8, 2020 21 hours ago, watalife said: I feel like the world has gone to hell That's not even the scary part. The scary part is that no one even noticed! Yes, we are all in this together, whether we admit it or not. The question is whether or not we will work together. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 8, 2020 Share Posted May 8, 2020 2 hours ago, camilo said: Worn out. I am tired of being strong. I feel the same way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nothing_man Posted May 8, 2020 Share Posted May 8, 2020 9 hours ago, camilo said: Worn out. I am tired of being strong. Got the feeling. All the effort... sometimes it feels like it's in vain 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 8, 2020 Share Posted May 8, 2020 It's possible to get a good life from here but do I even care anymore now that mom is gone? I could get a good life but it's much more likely that this is it. It's most likely over at this point. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryapplez2020 Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 Well **** that’s all I got to say at this point 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
anxiousE Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 5 hours ago, sober4life said: It's possible to get a good life from here but do I even care anymore now that mom is gone? I could get a good life but it's much more likely that this is it. It's most likely over at this point. did this happen recently, sober?? I'm very sorry to hear it! Hang in there! Things could still turn around, but i have kinda been thinking similar thoughts lately myself...I mean, i have a pretty decent life, but hope for my dreams seems likely over maybe. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 Generally speaking, I am feeling calm these days. Once in a while I feel overwhelmed but for the most part I am okay. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 5 hours ago, anxiousE said: did this happen recently, sober?? I'm very sorry to hear it! Hang in there! Things could still turn around, but i have kinda been thinking similar thoughts lately myself...I mean, i have a pretty decent life, but hope for my dreams seems likely over maybe. I don't have dreams anymore. I'm the weird creature that lives in the woods that god should have put down a long time ago. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladysmurf Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 I am angry, and anxious. i keep having nightmares. i went for a walk i hope that helps me calm down for a bit.. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladysmurf Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 7 hours ago, sober4life said: I don't have dreams anymore. I'm the weird creature that lives in the woods that god should have put down a long time ago. there's got to be something inspires you sober, maybe something you've always dreamed of doing..? maybe something you and your mother talked about,? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 Great! I'm the one that no one ever calls or invites to get together. Only person that does wants me to do her housework from top to bottom. Dad only calls before bed so he feels he has done his part as a father. Pathetic. Everyone is fake these days. In person it's I love you blah blah and then never see or hear from them. Fake. If I could be fake I could get somewhere. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 2 hours ago, ladysmurf said: there's got to be something inspires you sober, maybe something you've always dreamed of doing..? maybe something you and your mother talked about,? Yes I talked about wanting to have a family of my own but it's not as simple as pushing a button on a vending machine. If you're a weird monster that nobody wants to be with then that dream is over. I look healthy but after a few seconds of talking to me people head for the hills because I'm nuts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RichW Posted May 9, 2020 Share Posted May 9, 2020 In a word, stupid. I've always been a sucker for nostalgia and I can have rose tinted specs, just not about the present or the future. I know I'm looking at the past differently, from such a messed up time. I know it's illogical, I know anxiety and depression are but they still happen. What do you do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jkd_sd Posted May 10, 2020 Share Posted May 10, 2020 31 minutes ago, RichW said: and I can have rose tinted specs, just not about the present or the future. Yeah, I know what you mean. Do not know if this is helpful, but I finally figured out why I tend to do this. When remembering the past, I know how things compare between then and now. So, I recognize and appreciate the good things from 'then'. What I do not (usually) remember is that I did not appreciate those good things 'then'. When I look at now and the future, I do not have the 'how things are gonna be' to compare with. So, I fail to recognize what 'now' things will seem good later. (And if you followed that winding trail, you have evidently not had enough to drink today. ) 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 10, 2020 Share Posted May 10, 2020 Life since mom left this house has been a complete nightmare. Every single second I feel like screaming and ripping out every piece of hair I have. It's been complete hell! I can't take this anymore but there is no end. It keeps going and going and going with no good times in sight! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Floor2017 Posted May 10, 2020 Share Posted May 10, 2020 It was another tough day today but I got through it. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Floor2017 Posted May 10, 2020 Share Posted May 10, 2020 1 hour ago, sober4life said: Life since mom left this house has been a complete nightmare. Every single second I feel like screaming and ripping out every piece of hair I have. It's been complete hell! I can't take this anymore but there is no end. It keeps going and going and going with no good times in sight! I’m so sorry that you are going through difficult times and yes, it is hard to get over losing a parent. I know because I lost my dad coming upon six years but it still doesn’t get any easier. We just accept it and keep on moving 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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