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16 hours ago, sober4life said:

I think I'm probably in the final chapter of my life.  The mind and body are toast.  My dreams are usually my mind trying to convince me to leave the world.  It's done and why wouldn't it be?

Sorry to hear you are going through a rough time.  Hugs 🤗 

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10 hours ago, Nightjar said:

It's happened again. Buyer number 2 has pulled out 🙄 Apart from that today went as well as possible I guess. I took mom to her appointment at the hospital, got some supplies while she was at her appointment, then picked her up again and brought her home. Anxiety has been high today as I've been negotiating anxiety inducing roads and not having the down time that I need. 

On the positive side, sis is back on board with helping the olds and I won't have to do it all myself, thank god 🙏

Oh dear! This is not good. I am so sorry 😢 

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5 hours ago, nothing_man said:

I got the job 🥲 . Rescued myself during the day, put together, did some breathing exercises, took a cold shower, and put the better face. The job is a challenge, gotta face new things, I even have to guide some fellows. I hope strength follows me. Now that I'll have an income, I can go back to therapy and to the gym, both will improve my health overall.

One of the places I thought for cheering is here, in a way, you're my family, we're on the same ship. I hope you're having a great day, "one more time around, might do it, one more time around, might make it".

Congrats you got the job.  😀

Breathing exercises, cold shower, and going to the gym are all good things for us.  

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16 hours ago, nojoy said:

Someone told me that I needed a ME day. I'm taking a ME week.

If it wasn't for financial reasons, I would have resigned from my current job & take a ME rest-of-life.

I firmly believe some people are simply born luckier than others; these lucky few have favorable, fortunate situations (e.g. generational wealth) handed to them on a silver platter with zero effort from them. Others who are just unlucky: cancer, mental illness, job situation in ruins etc

Myself? I feel like I'm top 10-15 unluckiest persons in the world for the past 3 years accumulated. Unfortunately, no one can control or alter his/her own luck.

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22 hours ago, nojoy said:

The holidays are worse for me.  I grew up with a mother who could find fault with everything every holiday,  birthday, special occasion. The anxiety I felt was like walking on eggshells.  So I hate to see them come around. Since my mother died, no one recognizes me on christmas, birthdays or mother's day. It is a very depressed time.  I've been thinking of not celebrating chrismas. Just hiding behind closed doors.  I have written a letter to my daughters about this & will make sure the grandkids do get something from me.  And if I have the money (plane, hotel), I am thinking of going to Atlanta & my niece may join me.  

Someone told me that I needed a ME day. I'm taking a ME week.

we all need the ME day and ME week, i fully support your decision, take it and go. no one else will care about you...only yourself and we neglect ourselves ...so go for it

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14 hours ago, monicott17 said:

I have bad Seasonal Affective Depression. I was never a big fan of the holidays and everything assoicated with it growing up but now…ugh. It is awful for me and combined with very little daylight/sunlight and the miserable weather we have here..it is even worse.

At a past job for several, I was guilt tripped/kind of forced  by my psycho boss into doing all kinds if holiday related things both during work and off hours and that has also soured me even more on the holidays.

I wonder if I lived someplace warmer and nicer, if I could handle it somewhat better? I have to think so since my current locale is so awful.

i think if you move in a warmer place it might help, but then again eventually reality and the illness will sink in after a while so im not sure if it will help 100% .....but that's a personal decision. I would say ask people who live in warmer climates and go visit before you invest in it..

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5 hours ago, duck said:

My health plan paid four hundred dollars less than I was expecting.  :sadwalk: My portion is now fifteen hundred dollars.  

This world is a disgrace.  It makes me so sick I can't stand it.  Are you saying they charged $1900 for 4 teeth?  It's disgusting!

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19 hours ago, nothing_man said:

I got the job 🥲 . Rescued myself during the day, put together, did some breathing exercises, took a cold shower, and put the better face. The job is a challenge, gotta face new things, I even have to guide some fellows. I hope strength follows me. Now that I'll have an income, I can go back to therapy and to the gym, both will improve my health overall.

One of the places I thought for cheering is here, in a way, you're my family, we're on the same ship. I hope you're having a great day, "one more time around, might do it, one more time around, might make it".

Congratulations! I think you've got this. Best wishes for complete success. 

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13 hours ago, iWantRope said:

If it wasn't for financial reasons, I would have resigned from my current job & take a ME rest-of-life.

I firmly believe some people are simply born luckier than others; these lucky few have favorable, fortunate situations (e.g. generational wealth) handed to them on a silver platter with zero effort from them. Others who are just unlucky: cancer, mental illness, job situation in ruins etc

Myself? I feel like I'm top 10-15 unluckiest persons in the world for the past 3 years accumulated. Unfortunately, no one can control or alter his/her own luck.

I'm in that top tier with you. Born poor white trash with genetic cancer and bad teeth. I apparently travel through this existence with a giant "KICK ME" sign stuck to my back. If something good does manage to approach me, circumstances intervene to make sure the good evaporates before my very eyes. I'm never in the right place at the right time; always just the opposite. The universe is actively malevolent towards me. I just need to "snap out of it" I guess. 

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5 hours ago, sober4life said:

This world is a disgrace.  It makes me so sick I can't stand it.  Are you saying they charged $1900 for 4 teeth?  It's disgusting!

I've got a tumor growing in my stomach. The cost of surgery to remove it would be tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars and I don't have "insurance." I can't even afford the monthly premiums. My biggest fear is that I will get so sick that my daughter will have to toss me into the hospital. The last thing I want is for her to be saddled with my medical debt. I'm rapidly closing in on that "final option." It's just a matter of finding the right method. 

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6 hours ago, sober4life said:

This world is a disgrace.  It makes me so sick I can't stand it.  Are you saying they charged $1900 for 4 teeth?  It's disgusting!

Correct!   You’re right.  This world is a disgrace.  

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11 hours ago, JD4010 said:

I've got a tumor growing in my stomach. The cost of surgery to remove it would be tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars and I don't have "insurance." I can't even afford the monthly premiums. My biggest fear is that I will get so sick that my daughter will have to toss me into the hospital. The last thing I want is for her to be saddled with my medical debt. I'm rapidly closing in on that "final option." It's just a matter of finding the right method. 

Sorry to hear JD.  We have to get you some help ASAP. 

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12 hours ago, JD4010 said:

I've got a tumor growing in my stomach. The cost of surgery to remove it would be tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars and I don't have "insurance." I can't even afford the monthly premiums. My biggest fear is that I will get so sick that my daughter will have to toss me into the hospital. The last thing I want is for her to be saddled with my medical debt. I'm rapidly closing in on that "final option." It's just a matter of finding the right method. 

So sorry to hear that JD.

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14 hours ago, JD4010 said:

I've got a tumor growing in my stomach. The cost of surgery to remove it would be tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars and I don't have "insurance." I can't even afford the monthly premiums. My biggest fear is that I will get so sick that my daughter will have to toss me into the hospital. The last thing I want is for her to be saddled with my medical debt. I'm rapidly closing in on that "final option." It's just a matter of finding the right method. 

Where I live, there are 2 major medical groups/hospitals.  Both of them have what is "charity assistance.  Four years ago I made use of one of them. I made several doctor visits & 2 trips to ER.  Each time at the doctor's I only pay a $10 payment based on my income at the time & when I received the ER  bills, I called the Billing office & asked if I could make payments.  I was sent forms to fill out for the charity/ financial paperwork to apply for help. Both of those bills were covered by the group. 

The last 3 years I paid for health insurance thru the government costing me between $170 to $107 this past year.  This year when I updated my info with the health/gov, somehow & for an unknown reason that nobody can tell me,  I qualified for Medicaid of which I didn't apply for & have never been eligible for in the past 7 years except for family planning assistance. (yeah like I'm young enough for that one).

Check out what is available in your area for assistance thru the major hospitals & see if you qualify for medicaid.  All you can do is waste a couple of hours & find some help.

It is terrible when we work all our lives while coping with mental health problems that when we need help we can't find it. And anyone else in the situation like JD & I,  look around your area. You have to ask questions because they won't tell you about the help you can receive.  I found out thru my family doctor about the charity program.

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9 hours ago, Nightjar said:

Tired. Still not getting enough sleep. Hopeful I can accept an offer on the house today and apart from that, not too bad I guess. It would be great to have my own safe space again. Where I know I can get enough sleep 😬

How did things go with the house today?

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