Nightjar Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 12 hours ago, sober4life said: I know I say I want a normal life but there's no way I could handle every day with people. Having to put on a show Saturday and Sunday means I have to work every day the rest of the month in some way to get ready for the show I have to put on. There's not a chance on earth I could do it every day. Well thing is, us humans will adapt to most anything in order to survive.. I don't have much choice at the moment. I'm trying to get as much positivity out of this situation as I can. I have to. But sometimes, like last night, I crumble. I was very rude to someone underneath my breath. I'm not proud of it but I felt like my boundaries had been overstepped and I lost it. Could have been worse I suppose.. Could have been a lot louder 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 4 hours ago, Nightjar said: Well thing is, us humans will adapt to most anything in order to survive.. I don't have much choice at the moment. I'm trying to get as much positivity out of this situation as I can. I have to. But sometimes, like last night, I crumble. I was very rude to someone underneath my breath. I'm not proud of it but I felt like my boundaries had been overstepped and I lost it. Could have been worse I suppose.. Could have been a lot louder I know how you feel. I don't hold back anymore. I try to be assertive with them and tough with them but I try to still be nice. Holding back leads to things like mom when she sent Christmas cards to everyone with notes in them telling them exactly how she felt about them all or it's like a pressure cooker. I might explode at a get together over the weekend. I want them to know I'm tough and they can't mess with me anymore. I'm a quiet reserved person for the most part but if they come at me I'm giving it right back. I won't risk the build up to exploding moments anymore so I let it out a little at a time or everything comes out at once. I'm not doing that anymore. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryapplez2020 Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 I strongly dislike me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 6 hours ago, sober4life said: I know how you feel. I don't hold back anymore. I try to be assertive with them and tough with them but I try to still be nice. Holding back leads to things like mom when she sent Christmas cards to everyone with notes in them telling them exactly how she felt about them all or it's like a pressure cooker. I might explode at a get together over the weekend. I want them to know I'm tough and they can't mess with me anymore. I'm a quiet reserved person for the most part but if they come at me I'm giving it right back. I won't risk the build up to exploding moments anymore so I let it out a little at a time or everything comes out at once. I'm not doing that anymore. Good for you sober How is it going today? 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 I feel very ill today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 On 11/25/2021 at 12:15 PM, ladysmurf said: Dont they have free classes at the library or nearby school? In my town library they have free classes for the older generation who isn't good with computers and needs to learn because everything is done online nowadays. My sister needs therapy! She thinks I am God and I know everything! 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 31 minutes ago, duck said: I feel very ill today. Sorry to hear. What feels wrong? It's my bedtime now so I'll say goodnight and pick up the chat in the am 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 26, 2021 Share Posted November 26, 2021 1 hour ago, Nightjar said: Good for you sober How is it going today? I've felt mostly numb all day mentally. It will be one of those days where I can't say much of what I did which sounds good I guess. Who wants to remember? Physically I'm hurting everywhere. I don't know how things are going to go from here. One day at a time. I feel like I've aged about 15 years since mom passed away 3 years ago. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
anon22ae Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 The post-Thanksgiving letdown is here, starting with Black Friday and continuing with the newly usual sequence of whatever days. If I were free, however, Jan. 2 might seem like a holiday of sorts, when you're able to do whatever you want while others are facing the renewed drudgery of the year just starting. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 I feel like everything is getting really bad again. Time to go stand on the bridge this time for real or live under the bridge. What a constant struggle. Exhausting this life. And all this at Christmas 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 20 hours ago, Nightjar said: Well thing is, us humans will adapt to most anything in order to survive.. I don't have much choice at the moment. I'm trying to get as much positivity out of this situation as I can. I have to. But sometimes, like last night, I crumble. I was very rude to someone underneath my breath. I'm not proud of it but I felt like my boundaries had been overstepped and I lost it. Could have been worse I suppose.. Could have been a lot louder Yes I understand. Once in a while these outburst come. This causes irreparable damage to the relations. I have been trying to remain silent and move myself away from such situations when I recognize it. This has helped me. We sometimes need to assert without getting angry. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 1 hour ago, watalife said: I feel like everything is getting really bad again. Time to go stand on the bridge this time for real or live under the bridge. What a constant struggle. Exhausting this life. And all this at Christmas This appears to be a poetry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 7 hours ago, sober4life said: I've felt mostly numb all day mentally. It will be one of those days where I can't say much of what I did which sounds good I guess. Who wants to remember? Physically I'm hurting everywhere. I don't know how things are going to go from here. One day at a time. I feel like I've aged about 15 years since mom passed away 3 years ago. Yes one day at a time is the way ahead. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 9 hours ago, Nightjar said: Sorry to hear. What feels wrong? It's my bedtime now so I'll say goodnight and pick up the chat in the am I guess when I write this its morning for you. Good Morning. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 9 hours ago, duck said: I feel very ill today. What happened? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 11 hours ago, cherryapplez2020 said: I strongly dislike me You should not cherryapplez, leave that job to others. We all like you here. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 9 hours ago, Nightjar said: Sorry to hear. What feels wrong? It's my bedtime now so I'll say goodnight and pick up the chat in the am I feel cold and flu like symptoms Good morning to you. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 27 minutes ago, pdh said: What happened? I feel very cold with flu like symptoms Thanks for asking. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 6 hours ago, duck said: I feel cold and flu like symptoms Good morning to you. Oh no, take care of yourself duck.. I guess it happens to us more this time of the year 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 8 hours ago, watalife said: I feel like everything is getting really bad again. Time to go stand on the bridge this time for real or live under the bridge. What a constant struggle. Exhausting this life. And all this at Christmas Oh god, what's happened? I know this time of the year is very tough on many of us.... The depressed in particular. At least the holidays don't last forever 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 14 hours ago, sober4life said: I feel like I've aged about 15 years since mom passed away 3 years ago. Ditto. But it's since I got divorced. Same time frame. I didn't used to have grey hair but I sure do now 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladysmurf Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 22 hours ago, duck said: My sister needs therapy! She thinks I am God and I know everything! im sorry, try not to let her get to you ...tell her she needs to learn, im sure they have free or cheap classes. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 Today was rough again....I've been really irritable and I don't like having people chattering around me. It all seems so pointless to me. I'm trying not to be an a$$ and to be polite but there's not much chat coming from my direction. Lol Anyway, I've given up for the day and come to my room. At least I learned one new thing today and that's where to get cash in this area Nite guys Hope your day is going better than mine 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryapplez2020 Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 i want to die Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 27, 2021 Share Posted November 27, 2021 I know how you feel. I hate life. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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