sober4life Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 I'm usually sick from the stress of sitting around trying to figure out the world around me. Every day I get more scared of this world. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
user1492 Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 Doctor's appointments are so bizarre now.... All done over the phone Doubled the dosage of effexor....lets see how this works.... 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 On 8/30/2021 at 2:04 AM, duck said: You are right. Now they are talking about booster shots. I hope this ends soon. I fear it's not meant to end. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 Anhedonic. I simply cannot work up any motivation to do anything. Stuff I used to be excited about doesn't even interest me now. There's a huge antique farm equipment show over the weekend near here. It's an annual event that wasn't held last year because of the so-called "pandemic." I used to get excited about attending but this year...meh. I doubt I'll go, because "why bother?" 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bbqdad Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 8 minutes ago, JD4010 said: I simply cannot work up any motivation to do anything. Stuff I used to be excited about doesn't even interest me now I understand when I am in depression mode there isn't anything that interest me. I like to play my guitar and write songs, but I haven't had an interest in that for several months. So I understand your predicament. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 23 minutes ago, JD4010 said: I fear it's not meant to end. We're in a real life horror story. If it's not this it will be something else. They've seen that they can have total control over us. Why would they give that up? If they decide to make us all wear chicken suits tomorrow we'll all complain but for the most part people will wear them and probably call 911 and report the ones that don't wear it. 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 8 minutes ago, sober4life said: We're in a real life horror story. If it's not this it will be something else. They've seen that they can have total control over us. Why would they give that up? If they decide to make us all wear chicken suits tomorrow we'll all complain but for the most part people will wear them and probably call 911 and report the ones that don't wear it. 100% CORRECT. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 alone, but im around people 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 1 hour ago, JD4010 said: I fear it's not meant to end. I think you are correct! First vaccines were voluntary now we are forced to get vaccinated. My city is forcing us to wear masks again starting today! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 1 hour ago, Bbqdad said: I understand when I am in depression mode there isn't anything that interest me. I like to play my guitar and write songs, but I haven't had an interest in that for several months. So I understand your predicament. Same with me. I lose interest in most things. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 On 9/1/2021 at 6:59 AM, Civil said: Feeling hopeless again, need to make changes in my life but its difficult to muster up any motivation. Therapy has just hit a roadblock after making such great progress. I hate me. So sorry to hear. Many of us are in the same boat. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nojoy Posted September 3, 2021 Share Posted September 3, 2021 For a change, I feel good, not just okay as usual but good. Feeling good is not going to last but the times I spend with my niece I come home feeling good. She makes sure that we go to lunch (her treat) & then we hit the thrift shops or craft stores at least every 2 weeks. She & her fiancée gave me money to buy a new water heater. I will greatly miss her when she leaves in 10 days to move to where he lives. She makes sure that I do not isolate myself. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlee Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 52 minutes ago, duck said: Same with me. I lose interest in most things. Same, I don’t feel the joy i once did in the hobby’s used to enjoy so I don’t do them anymore, because like JD said.. what’s the point 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlee Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 I feel depressed and sad today, no energy to get out of bed, I’ll probably spend all weekend in bed, oh well 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
June322 Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 Took a personal leave from work and thinking of never going back. I hate that job. I fool myself into thinking I can be the type of person that can work any meaningless labor job as long as it helps me and my family get by but I was wrong. I can’t handle that. So now I’m feeling a mixture of relief and stress being always from that hell hole. I just spend most day taking walks through the parks in the day and watching the sopranos at night. I have 3 weeks to figure my life out 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 8 hours ago, Charlee said: I feel depressed and sad today, no energy to get out of bed, I’ll probably spend all weekend in bed, oh well Energy is hard to find. These days I am so exhausted I struggle to get out of bed. After a couple of hours I am exhausted again and I have to sleep. ---------------------------------------------------- 1 hour ago, June322 said: Took a personal leave from work and thinking of never going back. I hate that job. I fool myself into thinking I can be the type of person that can work any meaningless labor job as long as it helps me and my family get by but I was wrong. I can’t handle that. So now I’m feeling a mixture of relief and stress being always from that hell hole. I just spend most day taking walks through the parks in the day and watching the sopranos at night. I have 3 weeks to figure my life out I had to quit my job. I never went back. It was too stress-full. I have been on long term disability since then. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Civil Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 I'm the bad guy. I have been beaten, bullied and belittled to the point where I act as though everyone is against me, even if they're not. I hate me. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 2 minutes ago, Civil said: I'm the bad guy. I have been beaten, bullied and belittled to the point where I act as though everyone is against me, even if they're not. I hate me. Don't let others tell you how to feel. I used to hate myself for decades then one day I realized I am not the problem. The people who bullied us are the problem. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 I'm back at 'my' house. It is so lonely without mini lion and I feel almost frightened to be here after everything that's happened. Anyway, fingers crossed I get a decent amount of sleep tonight. Not sure if that's gonna happen but I'm here and I'll try 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted September 4, 2021 Share Posted September 4, 2021 I fully believe I've done the best I could have done up to this point. I know mom would be proud of me. In 3 days I will be sober for 4 years. 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlee Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 3 hours ago, sober4life said: I fully believe I've done the best I could have done up to this point. I know mom would be proud of me. In 3 days I will be sober for 4 years. That’s huge sober congratulations she would of been, we are proud of you too 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlee Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 I got given lorazepam again thankfully I’m at a very low point again, I know it’s not smart to abuse benzos and I haven’t been given enough to do that, but right now I wish they could take me away in the floaty heaven they provide 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlee Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 I stopped caring for my plants cuz they were making me feel to overwhelmed, so some of them died. But I think I’ve been able to rescues two of them and I’ve repotted them so hopefully they’ll make a come back. Hopefully my mental health will make a come back too 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sheen Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 I feel like I’m a dead man inside a living carcass 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryapplez2020 Posted September 5, 2021 Share Posted September 5, 2021 I’ll tell yes if I could fix everyone’s problems and take it on myself I would am strong enough maybe I still would do it just saying 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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