iWantRope Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 I envy those who have passed away, they no longer feel painful distress 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DragonBallZ1995 Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 sometimes what i think is depression is ok its like youve accepted if it cant go it, but doing nothing after it is kind of bad for your image i also want to tell that writer of harry potter books was also was in depression, it proves that will power is everything 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DragonBallZ1995 Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 (edited) On 11/18/2020 at 12:18 PM, Depressedgurl007 said: I want to disappear. I don't want to deal with people, with work, with the pain of knowing I am causing people problems. see causing pepole problerm is thier problerm its not what you should be afraid of Edited November 20, 2020 by DragonBallZ1995 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mortis Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 I am feeling annoyed with seeing people say that I am "strong" for being able to get through another day with depression and anxiety. To me, ending it all seems like more of a display of strength, because to do so is to go against every impulse that we have as living creatures. You have to have the strength to bypass all of the self-preservation instincts that your mind and body are using to keep you alive. I feel weak for just going along with the tide of life. I wish I had the strength to have already ended it. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DialAForAlan Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 I'm...well, I've been better. We just finished a Weakest Link hiatus and now we're headed for another one after a few more weeks of episodes. And this time it's going to last for a month. I...I don't want to be away from Jane for that long. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 5 hours ago, iWantRope said: I envy those who have passed away, they no longer feel painful distress We are all fcked live or dead 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted November 20, 2020 Share Posted November 20, 2020 Dead to the world, dead to myself. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 This life gets to the point where it gets so ridiculous that I just have to say the hell with it and laugh. You expect me to be able to do that? In over my head doesn't even begin to describe it at this point but who cares. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryapplez2020 Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 @sober4life 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 Not bad today 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 I feel pretty good too. I wouldn't say things are bad but they're sure going to be interesting. I'm too old for a thriller story type life. I want to run and hide from it but it doesn't work that way. Other people come along and say today you're going to do this and that end of story. When all this bull is over I need to escape to a private island. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 6 minutes ago, sober4life said: I feel pretty good too Glad to hear it 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 I'm tired and have a lot to do as usual but if I can make it through December I will look for a easier job in the new year. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jkd_sd Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 For right now, I feel OK. I am grateful for that but know that it will not last. Guess I will take what I can get. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 Like I should be dead. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 Weary and tired. But that's my baseline so nothing out of the ordinary. I should be accomplishing stuff but I'm just screwing off. Again, nothing out of the ordinary. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 13 minutes ago, JD4010 said: I should be accomplishing stuff but I'm just screwing off. I think that's been the theme for my whole life. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted November 21, 2020 Share Posted November 21, 2020 (edited) 35 minutes ago, sober4life said: I think that's been the theme for my whole life. Yeah, now that you mention it...same here. I have a horrible "why bother?" outlook. Edited November 21, 2020 by JD4010 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryapplez2020 Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 Ugh that is all Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 4 hours ago, JD4010 said: Yeah, now that you mention it...same here. I have a horrible "why bother?" outlook. I put off everything really. I noticed I had a hole in the top of my mailbox a couple of years ago so I just don't send anything on rainy days anymore. I'm sure I'll do the same thing for the next 30 years. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 5 minutes ago, sober4life said: I put off everything really. I noticed I had a hole in the top of my mailbox a couple of years ago so I just don't send anything on rainy days anymore. I'm sure I'll do the same thing for the next 30 years. I finally picked up that piece of cherry pie I dropped the other night at least. That has been the extent of my motivation today. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 1 hour ago, JD4010 said: I finally picked up that piece of cherry pie I dropped the other night at least. That has been the extent of my motivation today. I still would have probably eaten it. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 There is always a new level of feeling bad. Thee is no rock bottom. The crap stops at nothing else but death. Hope doesn't exist. Connection, to anyone or anything, doesn't truly exist. I am tired. The downward spiral is endless and only gains more momentum. I want to die. There is nothing to look forward to. I hate myself even more. I would kick myself in the head if I met myself. There is no end to self-hate, no reason for self-love whatever the fck thst even means. You know what? I don't think I have ever really loved anything. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 On rare occasions I've had the love buzz they talk about. You really do feel high around the person. It's a real thing but it's like finding a needle in a hay stack. Most people make me sick and try to mess up my life. Is it worth traveling through the minefield for that love buzz that will probably also lead me down a path of briars? Not really. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
anon22ae Posted November 22, 2020 Share Posted November 22, 2020 45 minutes ago, sober4life said: On rare occasions I've had the love buzz they talk about. You really do feel high around the person. It's a real thing but it's like finding a needle in a hay stack. Same here... except I imagine it would have been a great deal better had the feelings been reciprocated. I imagine that must be quite something, if one is lucky enough to experience it... 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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