More evidence my abusive mom doesn't love me and that the facades are a lie

[The_Unwanted]

The reason why I'm affected by this is that I continue to receive comments from people trying to brainwash me in thinking that my abuser is the perfect mother. Before I continue, I must admit that this facade going on must be something, if in 2019 they are still able to convince lies to people who have 30 years + experience in the health field.

 

To start, it's been already proven on more than one occasion that:

1 - People flat out refuse to even talk to me, they automatically believe everything they hear about others, without even making contact with the person being victimized

2 - People have, already on more than one occasion, refuse to give me explanations when they make up excuses for my abuser's behaviors, even when I state facts and all I want is evidence to prove me wrong if I'm wrong.

Their answer is always ''I don't know''. That's not a very good counter-argument to a debate, imo.

 

My mother puts very bad thoughts in my head. Just being around her is no good for me whatsoever.

Recently, there has been easily more than occasion where my mom got caught doing several bad behaviors with me and her response was always to put the blame right back on me. I've made mistakes too with her, but unlike her I was able to admit my mistakes and offer legit ways to make sure they be corrected, something that my mom has never done for me and never will do because she does not love me.

Refusing to acknowledge even minor mistakes in behavior problems towards the victim, that's a sign that there is no love or desire to form a relationship. My abuser has 0 desire in having a loving relationship with me. And despite that, these people who received this evidence still flat out say to me, with the most upmost confidence in the universe, that there's a possibility of a relationship between me and my abuser, even if the abuser has repeatedly shown them zero signs in wanting to change.

A witness told me ''your mom says all these things about you, I know she loves you''. I asked the witness what did my mom say? I haven't gotten an answer.

There's now been multiple instances where people tell me lies by saying my mom does this and that because she's the greatest mother, I respond with a counter-argument by legit explaining how it's not true and what really happens when it's just me and her, and they either refuse to or do not answer me, when I present an totally true argument of what really happens. No matter what I say about my mother, they are never able to respond to me or tell me I'm wrong because I'm right and they know it.

 

The reason why I speak of this is not because I want to have a relationship with my mother. Everybody knows that it's impossible and I'm okay with that.

I'm speaking up because lies are being spread about her being perfect and everything's always my fault and people are constantly making comments to me directly of these lies. This is what needs to stop.

It's tiresome people always covering up my abuser's behaviors and what I wish I had in real life is someone to speak to, so I can have a case and evidence to prove that I am correct.

 

If I ever choose to go to any kind of ''counselling'', my only goal there is to expose my abuser and have conclusive proof.

 

Edited September 21, 2019 by The_Unwanted

[Epictetus]

I don't know what to say except that I am so very, very sorry you are in this terrible living nightmare!!!

[watalife]

We will never get away from these type people. They are everywhere you go . Where you work. Where you live. And those closest to us.

[The_Unwanted]

Massive update: I told someone close who opened up to me about past evidence against her how I consulted previously.

The person said my mom is the perfect mother and we are compatible. I revealed to them that my social worker told me we're not, in a secret message and to call my doctor for proof. The person was shocked and canceled an evening out with my mother.

I finally spoken up about evidence against her and in a way, it payed off cause it feels like a huge victory to finally be able to prove my csse.

On the other hand, I need to be very careful. I still go to my mother's for food. So to feed myself, I need to take extremely careful precautionary measures to not get caught deliberately busting her fake image because I won't have anywhere else to eat. And to hope she's doesn't find excuses to simply kick me out for nothing and then blame me.

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Abuse and being forced to live in isolation, solitude, and lies with people covering up my abuser may have messed up a huge part of my life.

Maybe it's a good thing to finally live in a real world where people are finally truthful with me. Maybe it's good for my dignity.

Edited September 22, 2019 by The_Unwanted

[BeyondWeary]

That is a good step for you. Keep hanging in there. It will work out someway. Sorry you have to deal with all that. 

BW

[The_Unwanted]

18 hours ago, BeyondWeary said:

That is a good step for you. Keep hanging in there. It will work out someway. Sorry you have to deal with all that.

My abuser said everything's my fault.

My social worker along with multiple others told me my abuser won't change/is incompatible with me.

The 2 possible sources that I can choose to believe are:

- My abuser

- Not my abuser

 

Who should I believe? Everyone knows what the answer is...

Edited September 23, 2019 by The_Unwanted

[The_Unwanted]

The only possible progress for me is avoiding contact with them.

Otherwise, no matter what I do, I'm in harm's way. They have done and are capable of doing absolutely anything to me.

Only thing I can do is to make sure that my belongings are safe make sure they don't try to make me look bad in front of others.