Nightjar Posted March 31 Share Posted March 31 Showered this evening... Booked a viewing this am. Drove to a viewing today. Went to the park to eat my sandwiches in the car. Played with my sister's cat for a little bit. Made some pasta for dinner and washed up a couple of dishes. Came to bed after an argument with n. Mom 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted April 5 Share Posted April 5 I was all proud of myself for showering today and then a little bit later, started beating myself up for my sub-par achievement Anyway, I'm still maintaining that I'm proud of my shower.... Also did a load of washing, stripped my bed, swept the patio, tidied up a bit and played with my sister's cat. Busy always feels better to me when I'm running on empty 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted April 5 Share Posted April 5 That last part is right for me too. When I'm running on empty I won't remember much of it. I'll wake up the next day and say wow I did that yesterday. I'll do that about today too. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Extremebeginner Posted April 6 Share Posted April 6 A shower is always so invigorating that I cant believe sometimes why I dont want to take one. Small steps are as important as big ones and cumulatively they all add up. So nothing sub par about congratulating yourself, I think its awesome. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted April 6 Share Posted April 6 Went and returned what I bought yesterday. Everything was wrong I didn't need any of it but i was going by what someone told me I should do. Well it turned into a nightmare. I've got what i need and nothing is wrong with it. Im not rich and my house won't look as good as yours. This is a rant. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Extremebeginner Posted April 9 Share Posted April 9 I have just decided to take my chances and go to home depot, Saturday afternoon, wish me luck…… 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted April 9 Share Posted April 9 2 hours ago, Extremebeginner said: I have just decided to take my chances and go to home depot, Saturday afternoon, wish me luck…… Good luck 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted April 9 Share Posted April 9 I did a yoga session this afternoon after a slow morning. Also mowed the lawn and entertained my sister's cat for a couple of hours. She's cute 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
monicott17 Posted April 9 Share Posted April 9 2 hours ago, Extremebeginner said: I have just decided to take my chances and go to home depot, Saturday afternoon, wish me luck…… Good luck! I made the mistake of going to the outlet mall on a Saturday afternoon and lets just say…it didn’t go so well. I did at least get a decent meal out of it and likely am going to buy online some of the items I looked at but didn’t purchase. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Extremebeginner Posted April 9 Share Posted April 9 It went exactly as I thought it would. Lots of people and I don’t mind people but they all seemed too busy to care about anything. Sad because I don’t know where to move to anymore to get back to how my life was 29 years agi 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted April 9 Share Posted April 9 (edited) The whole time I was at the family reunion today I was thinking someone stinks. Now that I'm home I realize it's me which is good. The person that knows they stink at the party is uncomfortable. The one that realizes they stunk before is the one the knows they won't be invited back so there's a silver lining to everything. Edited April 9 by sober4life 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted April 10 Share Posted April 10 More of the same shenanigans 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted April 12 Share Posted April 12 I drove 90 minutes to see a house The drive was lovely, through beautiful countryside. Glad I went today and got it done rather than leaving it till tomorrow. I didn't do much up there apart from seeing the house and buying a cuppa to take out and then driving back I wanted to miss the rush hour I'm feeling very tired and achy today. I didn't feel like doing anything. All I want to do is rest. I wish I could do that and nothing else for a few days. Not sure I could rest that long here with narc mom around but I'll do my best to get a decent rest tomorrow 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
monicott17 Posted April 12 Share Posted April 12 Managed to get more work done today than yesterday…including something that has been sitting around for awhile and getting pushed to the side. I got tired of looking at it so I just sucked it up and got it done. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted April 13 Share Posted April 13 I didn't plan on doing anything today but then I boarded the manic crazy train and cleared the list. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iWantRope Posted April 13 Share Posted April 13 6 hours ago, Nightjar said: I'm feeling very tired and achy today. I didn't feel like doing anything. All I want to do is rest. I wish I could do that and nothing else for a few days. Not sure I could rest that long here with narc mom around Besides your mom is there anything else stopping you for resting for even a bit e.g. full/part time job? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted April 14 Share Posted April 14 I bought a light, a light stand and a big deer picture for the wall all for 25 dollars at Goodwill. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Extremebeginner Posted April 14 Share Posted April 14 I wanted to get lots done but it didn't work out, so I decided to be happy with what I did do. Now I have lit the fire and am keeping warm with a cuppa. Can’t wait for winter to be over 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted April 14 Share Posted April 14 Made all my dreams come true and ate at the buffet. Then bought a cake and ice cream. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted April 18 Share Posted April 18 On 4/12/2022 at 9:22 PM, Nightjar said: I drove 90 minutes to see a house The drive was lovely, through beautiful countryside. Glad I went today and got it done rather than leaving it till tomorrow. I didn't do much up there apart from seeing the house and buying a cuppa to take out and then driving back I wanted to miss the rush hour I'm feeling very tired and achy today. I didn't feel like doing anything. All I want to do is rest. I wish I could do that and nothing else for a few days. Not sure I could rest that long here with narc mom around but I'll do my best to get a decent rest tomorrow How was the house? least you got a pleasant drive out to somewhere different and managed to avoid the rush hour traffic, not sure what it's like there but I've been caught in big cities before around 5pm and it's utter chaos. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nightjar Posted April 18 Share Posted April 18 3 hours ago, hocico said: How was the house? least you got a pleasant drive out to somewhere different and managed to avoid the rush hour traffic, not sure what it's like there but I've been caught in big cities before around 5pm and it's utter chaos. Ah yes, the drive out there is always good... House not so good. Lol. But I've got something else in my sights which I'm gonna hopefully arrange to go and see tomorrow 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kogent5 Posted April 19 Share Posted April 19 Researching "email counseling." Sounds stupid and like a way to steal money from the mentally ill tbh, but I have no privacy at my abusive home (i.e. webcam/phone is a no-go) and cannot go to therapy sessions like I used to. I'll at least try a few sessions. I really need to talk to someone with a non-judgmental outsider perspective. Losing my mind. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Extremebeginner Posted April 19 Share Posted April 19 I treated myself to a massage aimed at specifically helping anxiety and depression??? I have to say she literally shook me to pieces which dose seem to have benefitted my mood today. It was apparently a mix but based on Shiatsu. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Extremebeginner Posted April 19 Share Posted April 19 8 hours ago, Kogent5 said: Researching "email counseling." Sounds stupid and like a way to steal money from the mentally ill tbh, but I have no privacy at my abusive home (i.e. webcam/phone is a no-go) and cannot go to therapy sessions like I used to. I'll at least try a few sessions. I really need to talk to someone with a non-judgmental outsider perspective. Losing my mind. You have us all here too if you need outsider perspective. other option could be youtube video’s, with your headphones on, maybe? 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kogent5 Posted April 20 Share Posted April 20 3 hours ago, Extremebeginner said: You have us all here too if you need outsider perspective. other option could be youtube video’s, with your headphones on, maybe? For sure, I have a whole "mental health" youtube playlist lol. I will go watch it today. I'm just so depressing, and ppl are struggling here too. If you guys offer me support, I wanna be able to offer support as well, and I really just can't right now, so it feels unfair. I think after 2 years of this pandemic, I've reached my limit of "inner strength." What I need is someone' who's not insane/abusive to make my life decisions for me. I can't be trusted to make healthy decisions. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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