surfcaster Posted May 4 Share Posted May 4 7 hours ago, watalife said: Rant of the day Why do people think it's a good thing to call or give someone a gift on there birthday 'out of the blue' but you never here from them again till the next event. Do you think I'm going to fall apart or cry my eyes out if you don't call. And why do people always bring there birthday up when there's is right around the corner. So I never see or talk to you but you need a gift? I never ask for gifts but I do expect my parent to get a little something I mean dam. Lol. Someone did get me a gift and I did get them something for there birthday but I didn't ask them to. So basically the money they give me is going right back to them because I'm not taking gifts and not giving something back I think that's bad. But I did not ask for the gift because I literally have to pay for there's with that money. How stupid. Birthdays are getting on my nerves this year. Is it not totally awkward to receive a call from someone on that one day and that's it. I don't like it. I don't want to receive a gift if I don't have money to buy them something in return. People be getting there gifts and there gone! I just need my gift it's my birthday hint hint hint. Lol always hated my birthday and when i was old enough i always made sure i was not around, but on the other hand i always made sure i was around for everyone else's, just because i hated mine and wanted nothing from you doesn't mean i have to slight you if you love your birthday, just how i have always been 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted May 4 Share Posted May 4 Taking a day off for physical health, need to rest my aches and pains a couple days so i can make new aches and pains 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted May 6 Share Posted May 6 Saw my drug dealer today, err ahh i mean psychiatrist today, not much to say, same ass questions and I'll send your script renewal in 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 6 Share Posted May 6 16 hours ago, surfcaster said: Saw my drug dealer today, err ahh i mean psychiatrist today, not much to say, same ass questions and I'll send your script renewal in I remember those appointments. They last long enough for them to get through the process of reordering the new scripts and making the new appointment on the computer. There were actually times where the doctor didn't even look at me the whole time. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted May 6 Share Posted May 6 2 hours ago, sober4life said: I remember those appointments. They last long enough for them to get through the process of reordering the new scripts and making the new appointment on the computer. There were actually times where the doctor didn't even look at me the whole time. Yup, pretty much, but at least my therapist cares, been with her off and on for quite a while 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evalynn Posted May 21 Share Posted May 21 I'm not a confrontational person. Matterfact I'm the type to not say anything and then end up snapping on someone. Well I think I just did that to my neighbor, but I'm so frustrated. This is the old lady I've been complaining about who's constantly knocking on my door to tell me nonsense--and in one casae, refused to go away after knocking 7 times. Today I caught her using our hose and watering my front walk and front door. I yelled at her, "what are you doing?" one reason I was so upset is because our water bill mysteriously was very high a few months ago and we wondered whether someone was using our house and it's probably been her the whole time. She even said "you should be thanking me" which makes zero sense because there's no reason for her to be using my hose. And she knocked over my lily plant which is from my mom's funeral. So I was mad to see that too. Now I'm just worried about what I'm going to do about this lady. I think she's senile and she lives alone and drives her car (which she probably shouldn't). At some point, I might have to call someone to do a wellness check on her but I have really bad social anxiety so even thinking about having to do that makes me nervous. And nervousness is making me upset again. We don't know this lady's family so we can't call them to tell them she might need help, so I don't know what else to do. My husband is going to talk to the head of the HOA (we live in a townhouse community) but I don't know what he can do or what he'll do. I just have so much stress lately and this on top of everything else is upsetting me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frankensense Posted May 21 Share Posted May 21 First thing I would do is get a water faucet lock. They sell them at hardware stores. If you don't want to come out of pocket, you can either remove key, if it's an old school one, or take off the handle so you can't use it. That solves one problem right there. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted May 21 Share Posted May 21 1 hour ago, evalynn said: I'm not a confrontational person. Matterfact I'm the type to not say anything and then end up snapping on someone. Well I think I just did that to my neighbor, but I'm so frustrated. This is the old lady I've been complaining about who's constantly knocking on my door to tell me nonsense--and in one casae, refused to go away after knocking 7 times. Today I caught her using our hose and watering my front walk and front door. I yelled at her, "what are you doing?" one reason I was so upset is because our water bill mysteriously was very high a few months ago and we wondered whether someone was using our house and it's probably been her the whole time. She even said "you should be thanking me" which makes zero sense because there's no reason for her to be using my hose. And she knocked over my lily plant which is from my mom's funeral. So I was mad to see that too. Now I'm just worried about what I'm going to do about this lady. I think she's senile and she lives alone and drives her car (which she probably shouldn't). At some point, I might have to call someone to do a wellness check on her but I have really bad social anxiety so even thinking about having to do that makes me nervous. And nervousness is making me upset again. We don't know this lady's family so we can't call them to tell them she might need help, so I don't know what else to do. My husband is going to talk to the head of the HOA (we live in a townhouse community) but I don't know what he can do or what he'll do. I just have so much stress lately and this on top of everything else is upsetting me. I would shut off that hose from in the house if you can, that would solve that, if she is truly senile she probably doesn't realize she is doing anything wrong, not sure there is an easy answer but it's definitely frustrating for you. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted May 22 Share Posted May 22 Darkness, Into the void, Escape, the quiet is surreal, Endless nothingness surrounds me for what feels like eternity, Fallacy of escape is more a prison, Shuffling along in the darkness i hear a sound, Voices from beyond a portal, This must be a sign of things to come, As i step through, the portal closes, No return it seems, The voices are few. Speaking with clarity at first, In judgement i sit One by one they grow into a deafening roar, Pointing out every flaw i know too well, Upon my path becomes a fork, to the right, make good on an attempt that failed, To the left, the great unknown, appearing to be the void once more, Now i must choose. Where is this place i speak, tis my mind so weak 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 23 Share Posted May 23 (edited) Yeah I'm the person that always says I'm escaping but I haven't escaped once so far. Edited May 23 by sober4life Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted May 23 Share Posted May 23 I really wish Shai Linne would rap a little slower I can't keep up with the speed theology. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 25 Share Posted May 25 What do you even say about the world anymore? Every day you turn on the news the worst thing you could ever imagine happens. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted May 25 Share Posted May 25 I just wanna stay in my own little world here on the coast, fish, watch nature interact with the bay and ocean and be oblivious to the outside world 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 26 Share Posted May 26 I was at the store today and I saw a 3.5 pound bag of cat food in someone's cart and my first thought was I bet someone out there said I'll give you 50 bucks if you eat that whole bag of cat food and someone did it out there I just know it. One that size? Yeah it happened somewhere in this world. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted June 14 Share Posted June 14 (edited) I'm not slipping, I'm not slipping, I'm not slipping Edited June 14 by surfcaster 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kogent5 Posted June 17 Share Posted June 17 I was talking to my younger brother about dreams last night and he said he dreamed about places he's never been before, big and wide open spaces, and that he would be flying or running and could actually feel it. Meanwhile, I usually dream about our awful house, or places that are very crowded or cluttered. The only sense I usually have is hearing - usually loud bangs or yelling. A good dream can really mentally reset me but I get them so rarely. It makes me understand more why he seems, at least in some ways, more mentally resilient than me. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted June 21 Share Posted June 21 Yeah dreaming used to be an escape. It was much better than real life. I learned to control my dreams and I could do anything I wanted in the dreams. It was a setup. It was done so I would know what I was missing when it was taken away. Now it's used as a way to torture me because something out there knows I can't escape. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted June 27 Share Posted June 27 Strangely in the past few weeks i find i cannot go to the suicide forum, I'm not really feeling dire distress but still can't go there even to just see if anyone is looking for someone to vent to, when i do i get all weird mentally, just wish i could if only to give an ear Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted June 27 Share Posted June 27 Never work in fast food if you don't have to. I wish someone would have taught me to be a better person with better values. But my whole family pretty much didn't work so no one was setting any good examples. And no one was looking out for me and my future. Boo woo woo. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted June 27 Share Posted June 27 I remember my first fast food job. A guy came in and said I know this is your first day so I'm going to make your day miserable. That's how the job is. Customers treat you terribly and you can't say anything back to them. Well you shouldn't according to them but I did. It's probably why I've worked at about every fast food restaurant there is. I left every one of them with a big crowd of shocked faces in the room with me waving middle fingers at everyone and cussing everyone out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
monicott17 Posted June 27 Share Posted June 27 I really need a break from the news and social media. My anxiety has been getting worse recently and I believe the toxic nature of both of these things is a big reason why…especially the last few days. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted June 27 Share Posted June 27 3 hours ago, monicott17 said: I really need a break from the news and social media. My anxiety has been getting worse recently and I believe the toxic nature of both of these things is a big reason why…especially the last few days. Yeah they try to make us nervous and upset and then pretend to be our only friends with the only solution. They're sick. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted June 28 Share Posted June 28 (edited) Why would someone schedule you 7 days in a row. I'm 43 and I've never worked 7 days a row in my life. This job is full of negatives. I can't get anything done at home because I can't stand up anymore than I have to. Edited June 28 by watalife 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted June 28 Share Posted June 28 Just saw something weird outside. It looked like a squirrel but 3x the size. What could it be? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted June 28 Share Posted June 28 4 minutes ago, watalife said: Just saw something weird outside. It looked like a squirrel but 3x the size. What could it be? A groundhog. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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