sober4life Posted February 20, 2021 Share Posted February 20, 2021 I recently felt like mom wasn't watching over me anymore but today she gave me a sign that she is still watching over me. It worries me though because there's no way she could get into heaven if she stayed on the side of scum like me. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted March 18, 2021 Share Posted March 18, 2021 I'm trying to feel grateful for my pathetic life. I do have lots to be thankful for: a roof over my head, food, three kitties, an adult daughter who is still in touch with me... 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
justannabelle Posted March 24, 2021 Share Posted March 24, 2021 I'm feeling discouraged. After doing better for quite a while, I can feel myself getting worse again. I'm doing everything I can, applying everything I've learned about myself, about what is helpful and what isn't. But it doesn't seem to working much, and I feel myself slipping and my thoughts getting darker and darker again. I feel so tired. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted March 24, 2021 Share Posted March 24, 2021 I've got a headache that is coming from a top tooth that broke off and is rotting. I can't afford to have it fixed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shijima Posted July 20, 2021 Share Posted July 20, 2021 I feel calm, content and aright so far even though I had very bad dreams last night. I just got to push through them and keep my mind busy on other things today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
88Butterfly88 Posted July 23, 2021 Share Posted July 23, 2021 On 7/20/2021 at 10:45 AM, Shijima said: I feel calm, content and aright so far even though I had very bad dreams last night. I just got to push through them and keep my mind busy on other things today. I hope you don't have any more bad dreams! --- I'm feeling drowsy but otherwise okay. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CamiMoo Posted August 26, 2021 Share Posted August 26, 2021 I feel broken 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crewneck Posted August 27, 2021 Share Posted August 27, 2021 I feel like I'm just trying to keep busy. I'm feeling depressed again. I keep thinking what's the point of this life? I don't exactly want to die but all I'm doing is working, missing people, and watching videos to pass time in life. It feels meaningless. We just do this over and over till years pass until we die. I just don't get the point of it. Thinking back at my later posts I feel like I'm a totally different person. I hate this yo-yo effect of feeling okay one day and depressed all the other days. It's exhausting...I'm trying to tell myself it's just a bad day not a bad life...but I'm been depressed for years. So when will that ever end? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Handon Frypan Posted August 27, 2021 Share Posted August 27, 2021 Hot, overscheduled, and fragile. Been sick lately with a UTI. Been curious about some emerging mental health issues. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CamiMoo Posted September 1, 2021 Share Posted September 1, 2021 On 8/28/2021 at 3:03 AM, Handon Frypan said: Hot, overscheduled, and fragile. Been sick lately with a UTI. Been curious about some emerging mental health issues. I'm with UTI too this past week. Keep yourself hydrated at all times. Try to drink coconut water too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Handon Frypan Posted September 24, 2021 Share Posted September 24, 2021 Cought what appears to be a cold, but with kidney infection symptoms. My PT people are requiring a COVID test, and an online e-visit with my HMO is suggesting ER. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Handon Frypan Posted September 30, 2021 Share Posted September 30, 2021 Failure in communication with a dailyish attendant who stopped showing because of my sickness. Failure on my part of missing a request from my doctor. This all has created a lot of anxiety and a sudden decline in health, even though my cold seems to be abating. Wondering, as long as I live, how long I can maintain my current health, or improve it. Wishing you all well. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ellie Rose Posted October 6, 2021 Share Posted October 6, 2021 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Handon Frypan Posted October 7, 2021 Share Posted October 7, 2021 I keep going up and down. I had a good workout today, and did some laundry. But I'm feeling some vague sense of loss and failure as well. Hoping I can sleep properly and have a good perspective on it all tomorrow. All I know is I'm tired of being sick. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Severian Posted October 8, 2021 Share Posted October 8, 2021 For the entire day I felt normal, stable, I was casually working without any struggles. I'm surprised by how normal I feel knowing how many strong meds I'm taking. Right now I feel a bit uplifted and stimulated because of my evening medication. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lindahurt Posted October 17, 2021 Share Posted October 17, 2021 On 10/7/2021 at 12:52 AM, Handon Frypan said: I keep going up and down. I had a good workout today, and did some laundry. But I'm feeling some vague sense of loss and failure as well. Hoping I can sleep properly and have a good perspective on it all tomorrow. All I know is I'm tired of being sick. Hang in there and try to get some rest. Being welled rested should give you a new drive to move forward. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jxdama Posted October 19, 2021 Share Posted October 19, 2021 On 2/20/2021 at 12:10 PM, sober4life said: I recently felt like mom wasn't watching over me anymore but today she gave me a sign that she is still watching over me. It worries me though because there's no way she could get into heaven if she stayed on the side of scum like me. I am sure you are not scum. For one thing you have overcome addiction which is very hard to do. As far as how i feel today, not well. My loneliness will not go away no matter what i try. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted October 19, 2021 Share Posted October 19, 2021 1 hour ago, jxdama said: I am sure you are not scum. For one thing you have overcome addiction which is very hard to do. As far as how i feel today, not well. My loneliness will not go away no matter what i try. Well since posting this I got the virus and believe she was here with me a couple of the worst days at the bed. If I believe in anything anymore it meant even god didn't know if I was going to make it. If I was given the choice I would have chosen to leave with mom. I've never really wanted to be here so having a belief that I might actually go to heaven I'm ready when you are god. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jxdama Posted October 19, 2021 Share Posted October 19, 2021 11 hours ago, sober4life said: Well since posting this I got the virus and believe she was here with me a couple of the worst days at the bed. If I believe in anything anymore it meant even god didn't know if I was going to make it. If I was given the choice I would have chosen to leave with mom. I've never really wanted to be here so having a belief that I might actually go to heaven I'm ready when you are god. Hopefully you will be here for a long time. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
monicott17 Posted October 22, 2021 Share Posted October 22, 2021 Rough week so far. Got some things off my chest that were bothering me during my weekly therapy session today…felt good to do so and I am not afraid to speak my mind in those sessions but unfortunately those things are still bothering me more than they should. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted October 22, 2021 Share Posted October 22, 2021 Like I shouldn't have to work with this condition but i guess I have no choice. Life has been terrible for 40 years I highly doubt it will get better only much worse so yeah! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Handon Frypan Posted November 25, 2021 Share Posted November 25, 2021 It's Thanksgiving here, and I am not feeling well at all. My family intends to come over both today andtomorrrow, plus I have to call other family, and send gifts. Anxiety is pretty high. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evalynn Posted January 6 Share Posted January 6 I had a mini meltdown, then I felt stupid about it. I feel better now but embarrassed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pdh Posted January 18 Share Posted January 18 On 1/6/2022 at 11:09 AM, evalynn said: I had a mini meltdown, then I felt stupid about it. I feel better now but embarrassed. I under your situation. I have had this many time. I feel it is ok, nobody notices it except ourselves :)) 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evalynn Posted January 19 Share Posted January 19 Guilty because I just cancelled my pdoc appointment because I just don't want to see her and she's been getting on my nerves lately, on top of my mild agoraphobia lately. She keeps pressuring me to see a therapist when we can't afford it. Frustrated, because I've been in pain for a week straight with my nerve damage. Scared, because I finally have an appointment about the pinched nerve and I hate seeing doctors and I'm afraid of what they'll tell me. Mad at myself, because I've been an emotional wreck lately and just miserable and angry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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