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Why I'm more unlucky than most people?


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This is my most honest post on this forum. My name is Alperen and I'm 19 years old. I was born in Middle East Country. And I've been poor my whole life. I don't like my parents, because although they're poor they brought me into this world. I hate them so much because they can't afford anything. I've been suffering from crooked teeth for almost 10 years. I've never smiled in my life. I don't go outside because my teeth way too disgusting. People look at me when i laugh and they disgust from me.

They call me fag.got, tranny and everything you can think of.. I have no health, no girlfriend, no friends, no cellphone.(yes i dont even have a cellphone!) My parents never liked me as well. I've never had good teeth. My teeth are crooked, disgusting, I have a big scar on my arm, I have nasal polyps in my nose, and most importantly I'm beardless. I don't even get a job. People don't even take me seriously. I don't wanna go into more detail.

 

 I think the only way to fix it is putting a bullet through my head. I'm tired of this bullshit. Being poor is one of the most disgusting experiences in the world. I hate it so much.

 

I wanna ask again, why i'm more unlucky than most people? Please can someone explain me why? Why are people born in Europe or USA or Japan, or people who have everything inherently material, have better life and better rich parents than me? If there is a God, I hate him for making me suffer. I just can't take it anymore and I wanna stop the pain. I don't even feel myself anymore. I hope the whole world will be happy when I die.

 

 

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Oh, so sorry, Alperen. What a hard life. I can understand some of what you feel. I don't like it that I was born into my hard life either. Yet there must be hope of things changing. Yet I can also see how you most likely can't see that happening. I think God may be the only one who can change your situation. Maybe give Him a year to change your situation for the better while crying out to Him everyday. If nothing happens, you can still end things if you must but at least you have given it all you have.

BW

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I know things may seem dim to you right now...I am sorry you are having such a hard time!! I hope that you do NOT end things, I believe every person is here for a reason...I personally think that God has a plan for you, you may just not can see that right now...Maybe you should pray about it, it couldn't hurt!!! I also think it matters how you are on the inside---being a good person is more important than looks!! and I know how it is to be poor, I understand about that--My main point though is that I am happy you came here to talk about things...8-]] 

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Hello Alperen,

I don't know what to say.  You're situation is extreme, and I hope you find some relief.

You're 19.  It will be up to you now, if there is to be any change.  I have no wise sayings for you.  If you could change anything, it would be your teeth.  Where you are, finding dental care is probably more rare than finding a good source of drinking water.  But, that is what I would work on if I were you.  As you say, your parents can't help you.  You need to give it all you have now, no time limits.  Before you say there is no hope, please look anywhere and everywhere, yourself, for treatment for your teeth.  Right now, all is negative for you.  Knock on every door, and look at any humanitarian services in your area.  Tell them you need dental care, tell them it's interfering with eating, with getting food into you.  You need one step up, one thing to hope for, so I can only suggest you lose yourself in that goal, and worry about a cell phone later.

Pray for a miracle?  As the young lady says, why not.  Right now the only thing you can imagine greater than yourself, is your own misery.  You have to try and change that.

Also, search your heart and your head for something you may have an interest, or talent for.  It won't immediately change your life, but may also, like dental work, be a way to move toward a goal.  Most people on this forum are not faced with the obstacles you have; remember, some are, and many feel the same as you.  Make a move in some direction to move forward, even in your hopelessness.  Once you've exhausted every possibility, start at the top again and try again.  Sometime doors knocked on twice, or three times, will bring an answer.  You are your best hope.

May luck find you,

Bulgakov

 

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21 minutes ago, Bulgakov said:

Hello Alperen,

I don't know what to say.  You're situation is extreme, and I hope you find some relief.

You're 19.  It will be up to you now, if there is to be any change.  I have no wise sayings for you.  If you could change anything, it would be your teeth.  Where you are, finding dental care is probably more rare than finding a good source of drinking water.  But, that is what I would work on if I were you.  As you say, your parents can't help you.  You need to give it all you have now, no time limits.  Before you say there is no hope, please look anywhere and everywhere, yourself, for treatment for your teeth.  Right now, all is negative for you.  Knock on every door, and look at any humanitarian services in your area.  Tell them you need dental care, tell them it's interfering with eating, with getting food into you.  You need one step up, one thing to hope for, so I can only suggest you lose yourself in that goal, and worry about a cell phone later.

Pray for a miracle?  As the young lady says, why not.  Right now the only thing you can imagine greater than yourself, is your own misery.  You have to try and change that.

Also, search your heart and your head for something you may have an interest, or talent for.  It won't immediately change your life, but may also, like dental work, be a way to move toward a goal.  Most people on this forum are not faced with the obstacles you have; remember, some are, and many feel the same as you.  Make a move in some direction to move forward, even in your hopelessness.  Once you've exhausted every possibility, start at the top again and try again.  Sometime doors knocked on twice, or three times, will bring an answer.  You are your best hope.

May luck find you,

Bulgakov

 

His story kind of remind me a little of myself being born with really bad feet and my mother

not being able to have them fixed.  She told me when I was a child that I would have to work

toward it one day.  So, for years I could just barely stand on my feet without being in really

bad pain. Once I turned twenty five I was able to go to a foot specialist to get some orthotics to

help some with the pain. Life can be difficult but we can learn how to overcome our short comings.

I still cannot stand for long periods of time but at least I still can stand.  I have been blessed to not

to have to stand for a living.  God will make away for us if we remain faithful to him.  

 

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2 hours ago, JellyThou said:

I wanna ask again, why i'm more unlucky than most people?

There's no rhyme or reason to this, it's just a matter of luck where you're born, who your parents are,  and what your health is like. Try not to compare your life too much to what you see on the Internet or TV, while there are incredibly wealthy people in the West there are also people who are incredibly poor and unlucky. Especially a country like the US that is idealized to the extreme there is a large invisible population struggling with poverty, millions of people who can barely afford to eat, have to work 2 or 3 jobs just to pay rent and don't even have money for healthcare. Many are on the verge of homelessness, all it takes is getting sick for a couple of weeks or having an accident. 

I'm not trying to dismiss your suffering, I can't imagine how hard it must be, but if there is one thing I learned in life is that envying those who have it better won't really help you change your situation. You're an adult now, instead of wasting energy hating your parents for not having been born privileged you should try to figure out what you can do to change this situation. 

In one of your other posts you mentioned you're from Turkey, that's not that far from Western Europe, why not try your luck in another country such as Germany? It's 1 - 2 days by bus depending on where you are in Turkey. There are 3 million Turks here already so it's not like you would be a complete outsider. Even if you don't have any work experience or education you should be able to find some work in construction or gastronomy. It won't be a luxurious life but you'll be able to get a cell phone and get your health taken care of. 

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I am so very sorry that you are suffering, Alperin. 

It is just heartbreaking what you have suffered in life and are still suffering.  Reading your post brought tears to my eyes.

 I wish I had some great words to offer you but unfortunately I do not such wisdom.

 I do want to tell you that my heart goes out to you and I hope that somehow, someway that things get better for you ! ! !  - epictetus

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It is not your parents' or God's fault you are poor. The system is designed to keep you under.

That being said, I'm not trying to discourage you  from hoping for a better future.

Like lonelyforeigner said, don't give up. Try to find a way to better your situation and stay positive. You've posted this from somewhere with an internet connection which means you've already got thousands of resources at your fingertips.

Good luck, and may you see lots of fortune in the future!

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On 1/18/2019 at 6:41 PM, braindead said:

It is not your parents' or God's fault you are poor. The system is designed to keep you under.

That being said, I'm not trying to discourage you  from hoping for a better future.

Like lonelyforeigner said, don't give up. Try to find a way to better your situation and stay positive. You've posted this from somewhere with an internet connection which means you've already got thousands of resources at your fingertips.

Good luck, and may you see lots of fortune in the future!

Can you explain me how is this not my parents' fault? Stop coping, ugly father with probably ugly mother will make ugly children if you are ugly just don't reproduce. I think ugly people should be neutered.

And I don't think I'm ever be able to find a job. Im ugly and my IQ is too low for this. So Im ugly and poor. I know you guys are gonna hate me for writing this, but I've got to get off my chest.  I'm really sick of it. Confidence doesn't mean anything, only handsome and tall males are naturally confident, if I start being confident I would be seen as overcompensating jerk.

Diet won't give you better face, it may make your skin looks slighty better but it doesn't really matter if you are ugly. Workout is the same, low body fat will make your bones looks more visible but you need those bones in the first place (I need surgery for forward growth)

 

Clothes doesn't matter, handsome guy will look sexy in white tshirt and jeans hygiene and remember, looks are just another characteristic as someone not a single female gonna accept you if your face is ugly, we as species always look at the faces, good looking face are extremely important not just in romantic sphere but also with friends and how easy is to find a job and get promotion if your face is attractive.  

 

I say being intelligent has more advantages. Intelligence only made me more depressed, or maybe i'm just average (IQ wise) and my brain messing with me and force me to act that way - "i'm better than other people" while in reality i'm lowest of the low.

 
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