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Ten years after

Hi all – especially to anyone still here, who may remember me. I was really touched, that 10 years after I said goodbye to the forum, my username and account are still active. That is so sweet of you folks.

A few turbulent up and downs at times, since 2008; the nature of bipolar. But for the last 4 years or so, good, stable times, on the right medication. I sold most of my worldly possessions three years ago, moved countries (went home after 43 years), have almost finished studies for a new qualification and will be setting up in my own business. Who would have dreamed, 10 years ago, that I’d have able to get to this? Certainly not me.

I identify less and less as bipolar now, and more as all the other sides of me. I tend to let people get to know me thoroughly first, before I tell them, if it’s even relevant. When I do let them know, they’re very surprised and say, “I’d never have thought it” - and what does that tell you??? Stigma is alive and well. What, we can’t just be ordinary folks with ordinary lives? Why would you “never have thought it”, if you didn’t have some screwed up concept of what people with bipolar look like? We are all around you, neurotypicals, mwwwaaahhhhh, beware!! Time to educate and advocate again; it never ends, does it?

There are some things I’d like to find like-minded people to chat about, hence my return. I’ll look around a bit and see if there are topics about them already, otherwise I’ll start new ones. I’m hellishly busy, as the final exams early next year begin to loom large already, but I need people I can talk with about stuff those around me irl, aren’t able to. Maybe I can be useful, too.

Hi again, folks.

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6 minutes ago, moonlightress said:

Ten years after

Hi all – especially to anyone still here, who may remember me. I was really touched, that 10 years after I said goodbye to the forum, my username and account are still active. That is so sweet of you folks.

A few turbulent up and downs at times, since 2008; the nature of bipolar. But for the last 4 years or so, good, stable times, on the right medication. I sold most of my worldly possessions three years ago, moved countries (went home after 43 years), have almost finished studies for a new qualification and will be setting up in my own business. Who would have dreamed, 10 years ago, that I’d have able to get to this? Certainly not me.

I identify less and less as bipolar now, and more as all the other sides of me. I tend to let people get to know me thoroughly first, before I tell them, if it’s even relevant. When I do let them know, they’re very surprised and say, “I’d never have thought it” - and what does that tell you??? Stigma is alive and well. What, we can’t just be ordinary folks with ordinary lives? Why would you “never have thought it”, if you didn’t have some screwed up concept of what people with bipolar look like? We are all around you, neurotypicals, mwwwaaahhhhh, beware!! Time to educate and advocate again; it never ends, does it?

There are some things I’d like to find like-minded people to chat about, hence my return. I’ll look around a bit and see if there are topics about them already, otherwise I’ll start new ones. I’m hellishly busy, as the final exams early next year begin to loom large already, but I need people I can talk with about stuff those around me irl, aren’t able to. Maybe I can be useful, too.

Hi again, folks.

Welcome back my friend and I'm so glad that you have so many positive

things to share with us about your past ten years.  It is a testament of how hard

work and finding the right medication what life can be like for all of us.  Once again

thanks for sharing such a enlightening Word. 

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Thank you, Floor.

Things really can and do get better. I attempted suicide twice long ago and became suicidal many times since; dragged myself through years of long, dark days and nights, and countless hospitalizations and med trials, but I can honestly say I am *happy* now and life is good, so good. Full of beautiful people to meet, interesting things to do and the mental health cause to fight for. I keep taking the meds, practising gratitude and doing the self-care; life is way too wonderful to screw it up, by stopping. I love myself and my life and I have a purpose and a role to play here in the world, now.

Please, everyone, don't ever give up. Never stop searching for the meds, therapy, activities, and people that clear the clouds away for you.

Love and light to everyone in darkness. Help is coming and we're waiting for you, out here in the sunshine.

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To add more hopeful stuff.

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On 10/20/2018 at 3:46 AM, moonlightress said:

Thank you, Floor.

Things really can and do get better. I attempted suicide twice long ago and became suicidal many times since; dragged myself through years of long, dark days and nights, and countless hospitalizations and med trials, but I can honestly say I am *happy* now and life is good, so good. Full of beautiful people to meet, interesting things to do and the mental health cause to fight for. I keep taking the meds, practising gratitude and doing the self-care; life is way too wonderful to screw it up, by stopping. I love myself and my life and I have a purpose and a role to play here in the world, now.

Please, everyone, don't ever give up. Never stop searching for the meds, therapy, activities, and people that clear the clouds away for you.

Love and light to everyone in darkness. Help is coming and we're waiting for you, out here in the sunshine.

Ohh M GEEE!  Where was I moonlightress, ten years ago? Mostly working behind the "scenes" I suppose? I must look me up, (ten years younger!!!).

My birthday is in two days, :glare:  I so wish I could turn back the clock just for me.  Please, keep posting.  I simply adore it and YOU!  You do know we have super A____Mazing Blogs here at DF, right?  I could listen to your words for___evvverrr.  Depressionforums.org really needs more

MH advocates like you darling.  The Stigma is real! 

So nice to have met you. 

~Lindsay

 

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6 hours ago, Lindsay said:

Ohh M GEEE!  Where was I moonlightress, ten years ago? Mostly working behind the "scenes" I suppose? I must look me up, (ten years younger!!!).

My birthday is in two days, :glare:  I so wish I could turn back the clock just for me.  Please, keep posting.  I simply adore it and YOU!  You do know we have super A____Mazing Blogs here at DF, right?  I could listen to your words for___evvverrr.  Depressionforums.org really needs more MH advocates like you darling.  The Stigma is real! 

So nice to have met you. 

~Lindsay

 

Thank you, Lindsay! I'm touched. 😊

You were around, but yes, mostly "behind the scenes". I thanked you for the forum in my thoughts many times.... but you probably didn't get the telepathic messages. 😜

Trace, Sheepwoman and fishguyUMD were very active then. 

Happy birthday!

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Good to hear, Im in a similar boat with bipolar 2. Decades of ups and downs and I am now stable  for longer than I can remember. I'm on top of the world and go for a checkup and a new script to my P doc every 6 months, as required by law in south africa. Stange, I also came back here ofter years just to check in. For other people out there, my treatment for Bipolar imiediatly improved my life. Every now and again a got a downer or anxiety but you need to hit the sweet spot. I know and have met many bipolar people, all of them doing well on their meds, except one guy who is now homeless and depressed because he refused to take his meds. 

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22 hours ago, moonlightress said:

Thank you, Lindsay! I'm touched. 😊

You were around, but yes, mostly "behind the scenes". I thanked you for the forum in my thoughts many times.... but you probably didn't get the telepathic messages. 😜

Trace, Sheepwoman and fishguyUMD were very active then. 

Happy birthday!

 

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