beth law Posted September 18, 2018 Share Posted September 18, 2018 Hi everyone, I'm very new to this and have never posted on line before,well apart from twitter! I'm a 45 year old woman married to Chris for 11 years.I live in a small place in maghull in liverpool. Together we have a blended family of three children. The reason why I wanted to join is because I can't cope. Ten years ago I married Chris I love him so much .9 months later we Had our first girl together. Then everything went wrong.I developed sepsis and was in a coma for three weeks. Since then then we've struggled financially .due to sepsis I can't remember anything about any thing. I have a very difficult relationship with my parents and family. My parents love me but are too crital of me. I've now not seen them in three months as they hate my husband. One year ago Chris suffered two heart attacks. I've been through addiction for painkillers and sleeping tablets. Chris is no longer working and we might lose our house, it's mortgaged so we don't get help. We are also being chased by baliffs for non payment of concil tax for 2019. We have no food on a regular basis or electricity or gas to heat the house. The most thing that's upsetting me is I miss my parents and feel I can't go round there as they slag off my husband and will give a hard time when I go. I'm on anti depression ser tramline 10mg but it's not working. I'm also off subozone so that's hard too. I buy sleepingpills so I can sleep but I still can't sleep. At the moment we have 5.00 to last us till next week. Am not suicidal as I couldn't do that to my daughter or hubby or our boys. I just want someone to listen.thanks so much for taking the time to read this,and I hope everyone else on this site is doing ok. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeyondWeary Posted September 18, 2018 Share Posted September 18, 2018 Welcome Beth! My heart goes out to you. Thanks for sharing so honestly. Hope you find some support here. Sorry that life is so hard for you now. Please keep coming back, reading other's posts, and posting yourself. We are a supportive community of people who share in the struggle. You are not alone. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Epictetus Posted September 18, 2018 Share Posted September 18, 2018 I also want to welcome you, Beth. I am so very, very sorry that you are suffering ! ! ! It is really heartbreaking what you are enduring and have endured ! ! ! - epictetus Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 18, 2018 Author Share Posted September 18, 2018 Hey bey, thanks so much for your reply,yes it would mean a lot to me to have support as I don't feel I have any.thankyou for replying to me, it means a lot, I'm a very open person, I will read ur story if ok with u? Thanks again bey xx 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 18, 2018 Author Share Posted September 18, 2018 Just now, Epictetus said: I also want to welcome you, Beth. I am so very, very sorry that you are suffering ! ! ! It is really heartbreaking what you are enduring and have endured ! ! ! - epictetus Hi epic, ahh thankyou so much, I could cry right now,life's a bit right now,I hope ur doing ok?? I think I should of disguised my name!but that's me! Too open.thankyou so much for reaching out ,its wonderful, x 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
caring2018 Posted September 19, 2018 Share Posted September 19, 2018 Hi Beth, We are so glad you reached out on this forum. There are so many wonderful and supportive people hear who listen and encourage. I am so sorry for all the things you are going through. My heart goes out to you. I am not familiar with the rules in Liverpool. I know in the US there is governmental help you can apply for. I will be praying for you and your family. You are a strong person and will be able to get through these tough times. Please continue to reach out and share, we are here for you. God Bless and lots of hugs! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 19, 2018 Author Share Posted September 19, 2018 Hi caring thanks so much for your kind words, no I can't get any help but u use food banks but u can only use them three times a year.this website is keeping me going, big hugs to u allways here if u need to talk xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Floor2017 Posted September 19, 2018 Share Posted September 19, 2018 Beth, I’m sorry to hear that you are going through difficult times and I know what going without means. Every month when I was a kid we would always run out of food before the month was out and we would have to find unique ways to feed everyone. Hang in there my friend and I pray that the mercy of the Mighty One touch your finances and your health so that your family might be able to get all the things that your family stand in need of. When I sit down to eat with my family I will be thinking and praying for yours as well 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 19, 2018 Author Share Posted September 19, 2018 Hi caring thanks so much for your kind words, no I can't get any help but u use food banks but u can only use them three times a year.this website is keeping me going, big hugs to u allways here if u need to talk xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 19, 2018 Author Share Posted September 19, 2018 Hey floor, your very kind ,gosh I'm just flabbergasted the love on this forum is just wonderful. I know about God, he never ever let's me down,he's watching everything, I think he has a plan for me but I don't know what it is. Thank you so much for your heartfelt response, I made dinner this evening but told the kids I had already eaten as you do.god will provide when he's ready too.I think this is a test y know? Sorry for rambling on! Blessings love health and light to you and your lovely family xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rattler6 Posted September 19, 2018 Share Posted September 19, 2018 Welcome Beth. I wish you and your husband a swift recovery. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
caring2018 Posted September 21, 2018 Share Posted September 21, 2018 I will continue to pray for you. I pray your husband heals. I know God will provide what you need. I am also glad that you have this forum to support you. Reach out anytime. I am always available to listen. Have a blessed week and I pray you get what you need this week for you and your family. Blessings and hugs! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 21, 2018 Author Share Posted September 21, 2018 thankyou caring,hope ur ok,I'm crap today,trying to be positive but its really difficult x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
caring2018 Posted September 24, 2018 Share Posted September 24, 2018 Are things any better this week? Just wanted to let you know you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. God Bess! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth law Posted September 26, 2018 Author Share Posted September 26, 2018 hi y'all,thankyou for all wishes and love,last week was better my husband got a job only for a week and were doing ok.how are u caring?xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Floor2017 Posted September 26, 2018 Share Posted September 26, 2018 I pray that you and husband continue to receive the comfort and encouragement It sometimes take to overcome very difficult situations. Continue to hang in there my friend 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twister Posted September 27, 2018 Share Posted September 27, 2018 Hi, Beth. So glad you found this group of warm, caring individuals. Just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prayers. Don’t ever lose hope! Hugs to you... 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kareyn Posted September 27, 2018 Share Posted September 27, 2018 Oh when you mentioned going off of suboxone, that in itself can be devastating for mood. In fact, for me, I was on opiates for about 4 years, and while I used them just as prescribed, they actually cured my major depressive disorder, during that time. Except when it was time to go off of them. Now, the cure is gone And my dark depression that has found no relief from anything else is back along with pain. This made me realize my depression is definitely from having my opiate receptors out of whack. Probably endogenous opioid dysregulation. So, you have so much going on in life on top of a strong chemical issue that can make your mood. It’s so rough. I can’t get out of bed Because of low mood from depression that a simple opiate takes care of. You have opiate withdrawals PLUS situational stressors. Not having money and food and worrying about basic needs along with the loss of Mom and Dad is a lot on your plate You aren’t alone. Glad to read things are starting to look up 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SailingSoul Posted September 29, 2018 Share Posted September 29, 2018 Wow. That's alot to deal with. Please be strong. I hope things look up for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SherylBenson Posted October 9, 2018 Share Posted October 9, 2018 Hey, welcome to the forum, I wish you get a speedy recovery. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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