MarkintheDark Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 5 hours ago, LonelyHiker said: Just feel like these neverending health issues are going to be the death of me..hyperbole, I know. I'm with you on that. And you nailed the feeling. More and more of my days the past few years have had to do with health issues interfering with my life. I was going to say enjoyment of my life, but some days it's just difficult to physically accomplish the basics. As if the depression wasn't enough. I guess you posted at the right time, because today was epic for me in that regard. I was reduced to taking an hour at a time. idk about you, but it can sometimes take me days to recover. And recover is a relative term. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TerryTM Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 Not good. I think my friends have finally abandoned me or something, I might be paranoid (I usually am) but they havent responded to any of my texts today (well yesterday, its 3am here now and I cant sleep). I feel alone at the best of times but now I feel completely lonely and truely alone. I dont have much of a social life, no girlfriend or anything anyway but I usually see my friends at least once a fortnight but lately ive seen very little of them, and they all do stuff together and most of them are in relationships. I have nothing and nobody. If this is part of getting older then I want no part of it. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 I am so exhausted from dealing with my daughter's heartbreak. She is 17, and I know she saw picket fences and children with this guy. She had a lot of future invested, unrealistically, of course. He ran, because, of course, they are young, and they are going off to university in September and she was needy, projecting and clingy, which scared him off. I am trying to bite my tongue and subtly get across her need to work on being comfortable with herself FIRST AND FOREMOST in this world. But, I don't want to preach or accuse her. (it is not about accusation, but rather growth, but I know she will take it as criticism). It is so hard. I wish I could absorb all her pain. I love her! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 I feel hungover this morning not from drinking. I went on a huge eating binge after seeing mom. I'm losing my mind over all of this with mom. I did have hope but she hasn't gotten better in months. Her life is over at this point. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 12 hours ago, MarkintheDark said: I'm with you on that. And you nailed the feeling. More and more of my days the past few years have had to do with health issues interfering with my life. I was going to say enjoyment of my life, but some days it's just difficult to physically accomplish the basics. As if the depression wasn't enough. I guess you posted at the right time, because today was epic for me in that regard. I was reduced to taking an hour at a time. idk about you, but it can sometimes take me days to recover. And recover is a relative term. Thanks for commiserating @MarkintheDark... Yeah, depression is hell enough without the physical b.s. Wishing you peace and better days, friend. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 Sorry guys that I haven't been online for a week or so... Hope you guys are doing alright. Thinking of you all I was questioning reality, becoming paranoid until I thought everything was evil. I was feeling dizzy and having panic attacks daily! I was considering ending it all but now I'm better... I don't believe my mental state got that bad. It was like I was possessed by a demon I am also confused but please give me advice... I've been writing a fanfiction (lol) but I've been posting it on and off because it stands out so much! I am afraid of people reading it but at the same time I really want them to. I want it to be famous, even though it is a very slim chance. Please help? The story is kinda adult themed too. It contains a disclaimer at the beginning haha 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 I don't know how I would survive without coffee. I dread the day I run out. Without I won't be able to leave the bed. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 On 7/23/2018 at 3:18 PM, JD4010 said: Remember! Alcohol is actually poison. That's why you feel so horrible the next day. Your body has been poisoned and is trying to detoxify. Your liver is thinking, "what is this sh!t?" and works overtime to get rid of it. You're right! I've also been feeling "possessed" for a few days after! It's not good, I was so happy before. Hope you're doing okay buddy 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 On 7/22/2018 at 10:12 PM, sober4life said: I don't mind people I just want to be able to choose when I can be around them. Paranoia has destroyed me. I've been in a feud with everyone I have ever known and most of the time my mind completely makes up the whole thing. They aren't watching me. They don't even know my name but that never matters. Yes, when I'm paranoid, it just feels like another person is inside of me tagging at my soul! I feel like a completely different person! That makes paranoia flare more. Paranoia is like when anxiety reaches a new high! I don't mind people much anymore. My mind constantly tells me they judge me and hate me. No reason! Some people are simply lost souls looking for peace but don't get it... That's what makes them mad! I'm afraid that's where I'll end up soon, lost and broken and never finding peace within. I know it is inside of me but I can't seem to dig deep enough and grab it... Sorry for ranting, just in that kind of mood 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 57 minutes ago, sober4life said: I don't know how I would survive without coffee. I dread the day I run out. Without I won't be able to leave the bed. I use caffeine to treat my depression but it overpowers my anxiety... Don't know whether or not I should give it up! Can't live without it either 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 I feel sad... Will I ever find peace within myself and impact the world or will I be a paranoid, depressed, over-the-edge, irritable person forever? Yes, I still think I have the power to change the world. I think I was born to impact the world Idk? I sound mental 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
onlyamemory Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 I feel...alone, empty and overall sad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeyondWeary Posted July 28, 2018 Share Posted July 28, 2018 My life feels like hundreds of puzzle pieces that I just can’t get to fit together no matter how hard I try 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iWantRope Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 I think I've narrowed my depression down to financial situation, or rather: financial inadequacy. What's the fastest way someone clinically depressed can amass a six figure sum of money? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeyondWeary Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 Hi iwantrope. Maybe check out a fund raising site? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 I'm surviving hell. Sometimes in life you have to believe this is hell because otherwise this is really happening. Otherwise this is really life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
APFSDS Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 Still feeling not too awful. No motivation to do anything, though. Still hoping it lasts longer or gets better. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 Mom tells me she wishes I would have let her die every time I see her.I wish I would die! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sentinel2 Posted July 29, 2018 Share Posted July 29, 2018 I feel like i want to die. Trying to convince myself of the fact that only few hours ago i felt great and that for sure soon i will feel better. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Laila Posted July 30, 2018 Share Posted July 30, 2018 Sick... Coughing and with a headache. Also I haven't been sleeping well and couldn't relax my mind at all this weekend. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted July 30, 2018 Share Posted July 30, 2018 7 hours ago, Sentinel2 said: I feel like i want to die. Trying to convince myself of the fact that only few hours ago i felt great and that for sure soon i will feel better. You will feel better! And welcome. So sorry you feel the need to be here, with us, but, glad you are reaching out! Big Hugs!!! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted July 30, 2018 Share Posted July 30, 2018 On 7/28/2018 at 1:22 PM, babyxgothxx said: I use caffeine to treat my depression but it overpowers my anxiety... Don't know whether or not I should give it up! Can't live without it either I'm not giving it up. Morning are chugging coffee and blasting heavy metal music. What would the people that know me do without the manic madman barging into every room like Hulk Hogan? 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mediocracy Posted July 30, 2018 Share Posted July 30, 2018 I am annoyed, irritated, hopeless and have this urge to punch violently dismantle someone or something. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
velvetpuddles Posted July 30, 2018 Share Posted July 30, 2018 Groggy and sore. I want to sleep all day and not move from my comfy bed, and yet...it's Monday morning. And now I've got another mindless week of work ahead of me. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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