vega57 Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 Thank you. As u can see not sleeping much but it is a beautiful early morning, it helps. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 When I go out wearing a pirate hat the day always seems to go well. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 On 5/22/2018 at 3:41 PM, zenzang said: it will never change. i'm being looked at like a piece of meat by every man i've ever met. We men are a visual bunch, unfortunately. I've been able to control it throughout my life but beauty still turns my head. Honestly, I can't help it. But at least I'm not a pig about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 20 hours ago, vega57 said: Why do my loved ones keep dying; my brother in law died at 9.30 this morning. He's dad died 5 months ago. That's what is on my mind. Oh wow, I'm sorry @vega57. My condolences. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 My former girlfriend is on my mind right now. I saw someone who reminded me so much of her earlier today. That threw me into a tailspin. I'm augering in and will soon hit the ground with a craptacular crash. I want to booze it so badly. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 26, 2018 Share Posted May 26, 2018 1 hour ago, JD4010 said: My former girlfriend is on my mind right now. I saw someone who reminded me so much of her earlier today. That threw me into a tailspin. I'm augering in and will soon hit the ground with a craptacular crash. I want to booze it so badly. I want to drink too. Sadly I do. I won't though nothing can ever make me drink. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Azealia Posted May 27, 2018 Share Posted May 27, 2018 Failed to **** myself again because I'm a naive *****. Today I'll just leave my phone behind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LouisRiel Posted May 27, 2018 Share Posted May 27, 2018 Nonsense trying to do my assignment Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mavigo Posted May 27, 2018 Share Posted May 27, 2018 My skin stings really bad. At least the winter is over. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vega57 Posted May 28, 2018 Share Posted May 28, 2018 On 5/25/2018 at 6:06 PM, SpiralingMind said: I'm so very sorry for your loss, vega. Thank you. This makes 12 since September 2016. The whole family is on edge Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vega57 Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 On 5/25/2018 at 6:06 PM, SpiralingMind said: I'm so very sorry for your loss, vega. Thank you. This makes 12 since September 2016. The whole family is on edge I'm thinking about so many things, how have we ended up here, about the sadness I see in my wife, not to mention our 2 families. I'm also having extremely bad thoughts but that for another place and maybe another time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 I'm going to be a lifelong throwaway and somehow I have to deal with that. I'll never be anything to anyone. If I died nobody would care. Nobody would show up to the funeral. I will never have flowers on my grave and nobody will ever visit my grave. I'm nothing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evalynn Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 How unhappy I am. How I must've done everything wrong for my life to get to this point. Do I have a reason to get up everyday anymore? Nothing about my life is how I want it to be. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lady Mozzer Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 I'm worried my dog is ill. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vega57 Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 11 hours ago, sober4life said: I'm going to be a lifelong throwaway and somehow I have to deal with that. I'll never be anything to anyone. If I died nobody would care. Nobody would show up to the funeral. I will never have flowers on my grave and nobody will ever visit my grave. I'm nothing. Child you are definitely wrong, we all have some one who loves us or at the very least is concerned. Don't let this thought run wild in you, does you no good. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vega57 Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 10 hours ago, evalynn said: How unhappy I am. How I must've done everything wrong for my life to get to this point. Do I have a reason to get up everyday anymore? Nothing about my life is how I want it to be. It may not be and probably will never be so but you have the power to change it. The "problem" is most likely your mental illness. When I'm in the midst of the fog of depression I to feel this way but I know it will lift, for how long I don't know but I know it will lift. Be patient, in patients lies power. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SpiralingMind Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 21 hours ago, vega57 said: Thank you. This makes 12 since September 2016. The whole family is on edge I'm thinking about so many things, how have we ended up here, about the sadness I see in my wife, not to mention our 2 families. I'm also having extremely bad thoughts but that for another place and maybe another time. That's a lot of people to say goodbye to, especially in so short a time. I'm so sorry for you and your family and the losses you've had. Take very good care of yourself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LouisRiel Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 Rent, bills, school, and stress Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Youngbull Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 How worthless I still am to other people, but not to myself... no matter how much I put myself out there for guys and actually being intimate with them and they still ignore me.. I want an intimate relationship but its hard to do that when im putting in 90%. I feel used, i feel lied to, i feel tired, i feel not good enough for others. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
duck Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 I am sitting in my parked car watching walk by laughing and having a good time. It is 11:33pm on our famous Whyte Avenue. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TopekaK Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 Big sigh. Missing my houseguest who was here from out of town. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vega57 Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 13 hours ago, SpiralingMind said: That's a lot of people to say goodbye to, especially in so short a time. I'm so sorry for you and your family and the losses you've had. Take very good care of yourself. Thank you for kind words. Yeah to many, way to many. People think we are cursed, but it's just life. The grandkids are suffering from fear that the grandparents won't be around much longer; that's us. We all talk about needing a breather, substantial time between each death. It's funny the things one thinks about at times like these. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JD4010 Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 11 hours ago, duck said: I am sitting in my parked car watching walk by laughing and having a good time. It is 11:33pm on our famous Whyte Avenue. I need to visit that avenue! Streetview, here I come... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 30, 2018 Share Posted May 30, 2018 Things are going better for mom. Her vision is starting to come back. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted May 31, 2018 Share Posted May 31, 2018 I have to work all day for the next 3 days and then it's vacation time. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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