Floor2017 Posted August 1, 2018 Share Posted August 1, 2018 THOUGHT FOR TODAY: Learning to become "THE POTTER", no matter what life throws at me I MUST be able to use it and to shape it into something that I can use for later purposes to improve my life in some kind of way. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted August 5, 2018 Share Posted August 5, 2018 (edited) hmm what's this "Sir Patrick Stewart will be reprising the role of Jean-Luc Picard in a new series of Star Trek" finally the best captain has returned to the bridge set phasers to stun. Edited August 5, 2018 by hocico 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
APFSDS Posted August 5, 2018 Share Posted August 5, 2018 I have to do this thing. I've been putting it off for months. I still can't do it. Oh the shame! Also falchions. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted August 6, 2018 Share Posted August 6, 2018 14 hours ago, APFSDS said: I have to do this thing. I've been putting it off for months. I still can't do it. Oh the shame! Also falchions. I take your falchion and raise you a billhook 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zenzang Posted August 7, 2018 Share Posted August 7, 2018 mind on the future, living in the present Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted August 8, 2018 Share Posted August 8, 2018 I’m not sure which horrifies me more: that I am empty, dissatisfied and cannot see a future for myself, or that there are millions out there feeling the same. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wisteria Posted August 10, 2018 Share Posted August 10, 2018 I should be better, skinnier, prettier, more intelligent, more popular, happier and not born to be this mess who I am now. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
APFSDS Posted August 10, 2018 Share Posted August 10, 2018 I'm starting to realise that I don't have any friends. It took me 12 years to figure that out. I've always kept my relationships professional when at work and distant when not, so it's probably partly my fault - or at least the fault of my personality disorder. S***, even if I had a life-partner I'd probably shake their hand instead of an embrace. That's on my mind right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
surfcaster Posted August 11, 2018 Share Posted August 11, 2018 best way to deal with regret is to avoid creating it in the first place. If you know you’ll regret it, don’t do it. In fact, a great way to make choices is to ask yourself whether or not you will regret it later. Words that have been spoken cannot be unspoken, and actions that have been taken cannot be taken back. Yet you can always contemplate those words and actions before you commit to them. You can envision the long-term effects they will have. Regret, once created, never completely goes away. Choose, as often as possible, not to create it to begin with. Rather than being burdened with regret, you can be filled with satisfaction for the life you’re living. Rather than facing difficult consequences for the choices you’ve made, you can be enjoying magnificent rewards. Make regret your friend by making it preventative rather than punitive. Think long into the future before you act, and live a life with no regrets. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kogent5 Posted August 11, 2018 Share Posted August 11, 2018 (edited) I have severe acne scarring. Today I did the first of several skin procedures to maybe reduce it. The thing is my face looks HORRID - literally like I just ******** someone and their blood splashed all over my face. Plus I'm super swollen and puffy. I look like a ketchup chip. I was trying to hide it going home, but my neighbor (one who I always wave to) saw me as my Dad pulled into the driveway. I really hope she doesn't think my Dad beat me...I wanna laugh at this but I'm pretty mortified and embarrassed. Edited August 11, 2018 by Kogent5 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted August 15, 2018 Share Posted August 15, 2018 The troubles in Northern Ireland. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted August 16, 2018 Share Posted August 16, 2018 (edited) I don't know where home is. I've never really known. I don't even know who I am. Edited August 16, 2018 by samadhiSheol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TopekaK Posted August 17, 2018 Share Posted August 17, 2018 14 hours ago, samadhiSheol said: I don't know where home is. I've never really known. I don't even know who I am. Ive been thinking of this lately. I don't feel at home anywhere. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
APFSDS Posted August 17, 2018 Share Posted August 17, 2018 My brother is coming to visit with his children. I'm so feral that I can't handle this s***. I want to run away. He's probably going to ask me stupid questions like: "Why don't you have a job? You used to have a great job!" and "Why don't you have any motivation to do things?" And the kids will ask: "Y U FACE SO SAD LIKE ALLLLLLLL THE TIME? " What the heck do I answer? "Life sucks, huh." Well... that's on my mind. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mediocracy Posted August 17, 2018 Share Posted August 17, 2018 33 minutes ago, APFSDS said: My brother is coming to visit with his children. I'm so feral that I can't handle this s***. I want to run away. He's probably going to ask me stupid questions like: "Why don't you have a job? You used to have a great job!" and "Why don't you have any motivation to do things?" And the kids will ask: "Y U FACE SO SAD LIKE ALLLLLLLL THE TIME? " What the heck do I answer? "Life sucks, huh." Well... that's on my mind. just tell them the sad truth about the world and life and with any luck they wont visit again. My family avoid me like leper. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted August 17, 2018 Share Posted August 17, 2018 On 8/16/2018 at 10:39 AM, samadhiSheol said: I don't know where home is. I've never really known. I don't even know who I am. It's been a lifetime of trying to figure myself out and never getting there. I'm never automatically someone. I'm always trying to be someone but I have no real identity. I'm nobody trying to be somebody else. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MarkintheDark Posted August 20, 2018 Share Posted August 20, 2018 (edited) Trying a second therapist Tues morning suggested by my HIV agency. Not particularly encouraged on this one either. As usual, I'm going armed with my usual interview questions and I'm going to be candid about my doubts. He's half my age. He wasn't even born when AIDS first hit. Among my issues are those typically facing long term survivors, essentially PTSD. And from what I've gleaned online his specialty is drug abuse which isn't even on my issues radar. The last one I had 10-15 years ago with a similar background was clueless about clinical depression. She tried to figuratively beat it outta me - imagine CBT on steroids - with so-called tough love..."You know what your problem is? You don't do anything until you're backed into a corner!" I'm also concerned about his extensive workload. Took me nearly a month to get an appointment. tbh, I'd be surprised if we click. Edited August 20, 2018 by MarkintheDark Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted August 21, 2018 Share Posted August 21, 2018 When I met her I thought it was the best moment of my life. I was too stupid to realize it was the worst moment of my life. My life ended that day and I began dying more and more each day. Now there is nobody left. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LouisRiel Posted August 22, 2018 Share Posted August 22, 2018 Fear of new med adjustments and sorrow over thinks I need to give up and adjust to try and get better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted August 22, 2018 Share Posted August 22, 2018 The crows have been following me everywhere even to see mom at the nursing home. I saw them open the trunk to the car and try to sneak into the car without me seeing them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted August 22, 2018 Share Posted August 22, 2018 Everything and nothing I guess. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tux Posted August 31, 2018 Share Posted August 31, 2018 What's on my mind right now is that I think I was doing really well, for a good while. But I am falling so hard. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted September 1, 2018 Share Posted September 1, 2018 I'm old enough to have grandchildren and I still have no children of my own. That's what I cry about most. I wish I didn't wait so long to want children. Now it's going to take a miracle.I will make it happen though. That's my next chapter. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
evalynn Posted September 1, 2018 Share Posted September 1, 2018 I'm not looking forward to tossing and turning in boredom and rumination for the next few hours. But I slept so much during the day that I doubt I'll have a good sleep tonight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Natasha1 Posted September 1, 2018 Share Posted September 1, 2018 All of the planning Cleaning Organizing Keeping upping 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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