Tungsten Aromatics 1,231 Posted January 9, 2018 Time for a new thread. :) 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tungsten Aromatics 1,231 Posted January 9, 2018 Why is it, that I have to have dual interviews for a job in the NHS? Really annoying. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JD4010 19,349 Posted January 9, 2018 Isolation. I'm isolating myself more and more. Especially at night. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Natasha1 11,808 Posted January 15, 2018 Food. All that i can shovel in. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
evalynn 22,034 Posted January 16, 2018 I started out with 12 socks. Now I'm done to 11 socks. The other pair is just missing. I haven't even worn them yet. I bet tomorrow I'll be down to ten. I can't sleep. I can't find the flashlight to look for them. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm not going to be able to do anything all night except think about this. I feel like it's kil.ling me. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
roadking02 1,768 Posted January 16, 2018 Natalie and how much I miss her. The moment I started playing my guitar tonight I thought about her, how she constantly told me to never give up on my dreams. How she always pushed me to do more with my music. How much she believed in me. That was a much different time then as now she is with someone and for all I know never even thinks about me. Not only is she on my mind but others from that time come to mind. I've either seen them in public (rare that I even go out these days) or they've messaged me wondering why I haven't posted videos in years and so on. Everyone has someone, has this great life and here I am basically stuck. Stuck because I am afraid of having seizures, afraid of being made fun of and just angry at how I was treated by classmates from high school. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Peggyhill 12 Posted January 16, 2018 Food, ruminating on bad people who hurt me, how I wish I never woke up. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
evalynn 22,034 Posted January 17, 2018 Body finally started to warm up. Mood started to stabilize. I need to find a book to read or something, before I go back to the dark place. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
sober4life 32,830 Posted January 17, 2018 On 1/9/2018 at 5:36 PM, JD4010 said: Isolation. I'm isolating myself more and more. Especially at night. I am too. I fear going out every time. I'm afraid of the world and everything in it. I live in constant fear even when I'm hiding I don't feel safe. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
evalynn 22,034 Posted January 18, 2018 I'm going to try very hard to have a good evening and night. I will try not to freak out over anything my husband says, or ruminate about things that happened months or years ago, or lose anything, or get generally frustrated. I am going to TRY with all my might. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LonelyHiker 5,036 Posted January 19, 2018 Death can't come soon enough. Nothing is any good anymore. Nothing. I wish I'd never been born. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
evalynn 22,034 Posted January 19, 2018 My legs ache a lot. I hope the dog stays docile until my husband gets home, because taking her for a walk is the last thing I want to do. I hope I can get a nap in, because I suspect I'll feel better after some more sleep. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Whostolemyfunny 3 Posted January 19, 2018 Erm, that venlaxfaxine is a really $hitty medication to be on. Talk about chemical castration, they ought to give it to repeat sex offenders I can't see how having a low libido is actually going to help with depression - its a bit like eating a turd sandwich with a bit of sugar sprinkled on 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
HeatherG 419 Posted January 19, 2018 thinking obsessive thoughts. wish I wouldn't think about my obsessive thoughts. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tungsten Aromatics 1,231 Posted January 21, 2018 Been offered a position in the NHS. Only 50mins on the train. Now to knock out occy health and start working! 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
evalynn 22,034 Posted January 24, 2018 I can no longer judge people whose dogs get out of the house without their knowledge. Tonight I was cooking and the kitchen had gotten all steamy so I opened the sliding glass door less than a foot to let the air circulate. Then of course I totally forgot about it, and ate my dinner. Maybe half an hour later I hear a dog barking outside. I was confused as to why my dog wasn't barking back, and then I realized the dog outside sounded like my dog! It took way too long for me to piece it together, but I finally threw the front door open and my dog runs in like "What took you so long?"... and then acts like nothing happened. I can't believe she snuck out, and then was too dumb to come back in the way she got out! Instead she walked around the side of the house to get to our front door. I'm just relieved she didn't get hurt or bother anyone while she was out there. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Natasha1 11,808 Posted January 24, 2018 (edited) How much of a rude and entitled little s*** my student was yesterday. Nothing interesting in the prize box. Well you little f***** you dont have to take one when you fill in your chart. No i am NOT going to buy a specific item in your chosen colour right when your chart gets filled in. What the actual f***? Other kids are grateful and love whats in there. They have a hard time choosing so how about you give up your prizes to a kid that deserves them?? Edited January 24, 2018 by Natasha1 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Lady Mozzer 14,161 Posted January 24, 2018 I feel so lonely right now. I can`t find my place in this world. I am surrounded by my family yet I feel so alone. I can`t explain it. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Natasha1 11,808 Posted January 25, 2018 I am not valued. My opinion does not count. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Natasha1 11,808 Posted February 15, 2018 How much i have to do today. Overwhelmed. Wish i didnt have to work. I wish i didnt have dbt today. I wish mt dbt homework was done. I wish dbt was not over soon. I just want to sing right now. But i cant because of all the stuff tgat has to get done while working through all of the above. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LonelyHiker 5,036 Posted February 15, 2018 On 1/21/2018 at 5:49 PM, Tungsten Aromatics said: Been offered a position in the NHS. Only 50mins on the train. Now to knock out occy health and start working! I know this is a bit late, but congratulations on the new job 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aki Sky 387 Posted February 16, 2018 The thoughts getting to know others here and making friends here as well. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aki Sky 387 Posted February 16, 2018 On 1/24/2018 at 6:57 PM, Lady Mozzer said: I feel so lonely right now. I can`t find my place in this world. I am surrounded by my family yet I feel so alone. I can`t explain it. You stole the very words out of my mouth... I've been feeling very lonely since I moved states. If you'd be interested in talking or anything let me know I'd enjoy talking to you. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aki Sky 387 Posted February 20, 2018 Thinking that I need to quit my vaping addiction and also how I've been putting off unpacking/organizing the million upon millions of boxes full of our stuff 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JD4010 19,349 Posted February 22, 2018 My long lost girlfriend. I'm pathetic. If only I knew what happened to her. 0 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
