KidSurvivor2011 Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 Hi everyone, This is the fifth edition of the "How Do You Feel Right Now" topics. For the sake of topic flow, the last six entries from the previous topic are below. If you followed the previous topic, be sure to follow this one so you continue to get notifications when new replies are posted. salparadise6132 Platinum Member Platinum Member 10,713 2,626 posts Gender:Male Location:Toronto, Ontario (IP: 74.15.99.200) · Posted 2 hours ago · Report post Meh! Tired. Blah. Early to bed tonight. Hugs all!!! And I truly hope for the best for all of you in 2018! Quote Edit Options Don't cry now. Don't you cry. Dry your eyes on the wind. La da da da. babyxgothxx Senior Member Senior Member 1 567 posts Gender:Female Location:UK (IP: 95.150.79.114) · Posted 2 hours ago · Report post 2 hours ago, carukia said: I know sometimes it's very difficult. I've been at the point where it seemed like there was no point in carrying on but things can and do get better. They did for me and they will for you too. X Thank you SO much for the positive vibes hun! Thanks also for what you said about my crush, I'll try to message him first on FB... I'm awkward myself but he's more awkward lol I really should be sleeping right now, to be honest... It's about 3am over here!!! X Quote Edit Options carukia Junior Member Member 106 116 posts Gender:Male Location:Merseyside, United Kingdom (IP: 213.205.242.207) · Posted 2 hours ago · Report post 2 hours ago, babyxgothxx said: Thank you SO much for the positive vibes hun! Thanks also for what you said about my crush, I'll try to message him first on FB... I'm awkward myself but he's more awkward lol I really should be sleeping right now, to be honest... It's about 3am over here!!! X You're very welcome, hun. I think it's a good idea to talk on Facebook first. I know how you feel. 3am and still not asleep. (I'm in the UK too). Hope you get to sleep soon. X Quote Edit Options I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best - Marilyn Monroe KidSurvivor2011 Mod/Administrator Admin Team- Mod/Administrator 3,556 2,675 posts Gender:Male Location:United States (IP: 24.144.235.147) · Posted 15 minutes ago · Report post Unappreciated, worthless, failure, ignored, sad, angry, miserable, hopeless... - KS Quote Edit Options evalynn Platinum Member Platinum Member 9,582 3,844 posts Gender:Female Location:Florida (IP: 70.126.239.63) · Posted 1 minute ago · Report post I had to block someone on my gmail account. Hope they don't try to message me on reddit, where we met. I think I'm done trying to befriend straight males. Quote Edit Options "Y un día después de la tormenta/ Cuando menos piensas, sale el sol" ~Shakira HeatherG Senior Member Senior Member 4 535 posts Gender:Female Location:US (IP: 72.94.42.168) · Posted 2 minutes ago · Report post 7 hours ago, uncertain1 said: worthless I'm sorry you feel this way. You're not worthless. Did the day get better (or the night?). I hope so. :) Quote Edit Options Love Above All Else Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carukia Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 Exhausted but not too bad. I just need to find the motivation to get out of the house. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
womanofthelight Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 Like I want to d i e. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KidSurvivor2011 Posted January 2, 2018 Author Share Posted January 2, 2018 Sad and defeated. Everyone is or has left me. There's nobody around, nothing left. - KS Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mattymatt Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 @KidSurvivor2011 I am sorry you feel that way and I have hope that things will get better for you. I really like the saying, "This too shall pass." because nothing in life is permanent - this means the bad times do go away. How do I feel right now? I am relieved that 2017 is in the rear view mirror. I am ready to go get me a job. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladysmurf Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 honestly? I feel like i wish I was never born Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 Day two of 2018 and already I have reached a new low... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 3 minutes ago, LonelyHiker said: Day two of 2018 and already I have reached a new low... Same but please don't lose hope x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 1 hour ago, ladysmurf said: honestly? I feel like i wish I was never born Me too 😞 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RiverLight Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 I just returned from the holiday --- OMG, I had the most AMAZING time at this concert NYE. Me and my new boyfriend dressed up in costumes, with glitter and glow sticks and went all out. Wish we had gotten some good pics of us, but we were too busy dancing and having fun. The show was incredible. Four bands, all covering the Grateful Dead, Pink Floyd, Talking Heads and Phish! And then some!!! But it was BITTER cold outside. BRRRR. Below zero after midnight!!! Now it's back to reality. Interviews, work and real life. YUCK. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 53 minutes ago, babyxgothxx said: Same but please don't lose hope x I'm trying, just feels like a losing battle babyxgothxx... I haven't felt this suicidal in a long time..it's scary. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 9 minutes ago, LonelyHiker said: I'm trying, just feels like a losing battle babyxgothxx... I haven't felt this suicidal in a long time..it's scary. Please don't leave us hun, you are so important here!!!! I know how it feels, I feel I won't make it until next year... Getting worried about you now! Have you tried calling a crisis number thing? x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Floor2017 Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 Hang in there it will get better and if you have too go to the ER and tell them what is going on in your life and they will help get you the help you need. Pastor, Floor2017 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 I'm not planning anything, just overwhelmed with ideation....I promised I would never abandon my son like that. In any case, I'm so depressed right now, I wouldn't have the drive or energy to snuff it even if I was intent on going through with it... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
uncertain1 Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 Thanks Heather and babygoth. Managed to crawl from that particular dark pit, in part because of people like you two. Feelings come in waves, and I sometimes can hang onto the surfboard (apologies to actual surfers and writers) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 43 minutes ago, uncertain1 said: Thanks Heather and babygoth. Managed to crawl from that particular dark pit, in part because of people like you two. Feelings come in waves, and I sometimes can hang onto the surfboard (apologies to actual surfers and writers) Hun thanks so much! That means A LOT so glad we could help somewhat... That's a blessing! Hun please don't degrade yourself like that... The other day, I described how I'm feeling. Like "I'm a slave to my mental illness and it has got me wrapped in chains... Pulling tighter and tighter..." Something like that. Describing mental illness can be very poetic... It does bring out your writing skills without effort. You would become a nice writer! It'll be inspirational if we could write a novel about mental illness to help people suffering. Or a song? x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 1 hour ago, LonelyHiker said: I'm not planning anything, just overwhelmed with ideation....I promised I would never abandon my son like that. In any case, I'm so depressed right now, I wouldn't have the drive or energy to snuff it even if I was intent on going through with it... Hun what happened? Do you want to message me about it? It helps to discuss, you know? x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
babyxgothxx Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 I wish I was babied... I know I'll get judged but I don't care... That is a part of me that I haven't changed and will never change just to please people x Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 23 minutes ago, babyxgothxx said: Hun what happened? Do you want to message me about it? It helps to discuss, you know? x Nothing specific babyxgothxx, just another drastic downswing in mood.... life is just going nowhere for me. I know I am the only one who can effect any meaningful change in things, but I don't even know what I want anymore. I see nothing but darkness and despair ahead... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RiverLight Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 (edited) Ok. You've got to be freaking kidding me. This company wants an in person interview on Thursday and just threw me four different documents of challenge tests to complete before then. Yeah right! Like hell I will get this done before the interview -- this is going to take me one full day! WHY do employers in my field always want to test my knowledge like this? Why can't the interviews and my great references suffice?!? I am beyond frustrated by this process. I wish I was more entry level, but I'm not! I'm at a senior level and apparently this is what they all do now. Talk about a hard landing back to reality today. I am not happy about this whatsoever. Edited January 2, 2018 by RiverLight Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyforeigner Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 50 minutes ago, RiverLight said: Ok. You've got to be freaking kidding me. This company wants an in person interview on Thursday and just threw me four different documents of challenge tests to complete before then. Yeah right! Like hell I will get this done before the interview -- this is going to take me one full day! WHY do employers in my field always want to test my knowledge like this? Why can't the interviews and my great references suffice?!? I am beyond frustrated by this process. I wish I was more entry level, but I'm not! I'm at a senior level and apparently this is what they all do now. Talk about a hard landing back to reality today. I am not happy about this whatsoever. Too many people over-promise and under-deliver... References aren't worth anything anyway, everybody who's semi-social will get a dozen people to speak highly of them. Just hang in there, you'll do fine! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 2 hours ago, Floor2017 said: Hang in there it will get better and if you have too go to the ER and tell them what is going on in your life and they will help get you the help you need. Pastor, Floor2017 Thank you for the kind words Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RiverLight Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 2 minutes ago, lonelyforeigner said: Too many people over-promise and under-deliver... References aren't worth anything anyway, everybody who's semi-social will get a dozen people to speak highly of them. Just hang in there, you'll do fine! I suppose I need this reminder -- thank you! It's just SO frustrating. Especially when you put all the work and effort into these things and then don't get the job for one reason or another. But thank you for the vote of confidence!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelyforeigner Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 1 minute ago, RiverLight said: I suppose I need this reminder -- thank you! It's just SO frustrating. Especially when you put all the work and effort into these things and then don't get the job for one reason or another. But thank you for the vote of confidence!!! Yeah, the application process can definitely be a pain. Just keep in mind that if you're good it's to your benefit, it'll wash out all the people who are only talk, beats competing with 500 other people ;-) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 3 hours ago, RiverLight said: I just returned from the holiday --- OMG, I had the most AMAZING time at this concert NYE. Me and my new boyfriend dressed up in costumes, with glitter and glow sticks and went all out. Wish we had gotten some good pics of us, but we were too busy dancing and having fun. The show was incredible. Four bands, all covering the Grateful Dead, Pink Floyd, Talking Heads and Phish! And then some!!! But it was BITTER cold outside. BRRRR. Below zero after midnight!!! Now it's back to reality. Interviews, work and real life. YUCK. Glad you had a nice time, best of luck on your interview Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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