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I shaved my head to show support for cancer patients and donated £25.00 to Cancer Research UK. 
I used to donated blood before I started having problems with tachycardia and I was terrified of needles back then. 
I donated an expensive watch to the British Heart Foundation. 
When my neighbour was dying from a heart attack, I did everything I could to save his life, I tried to put him in the recovery position despite having my right leg in a cast, sadly he died and I blame myself everyday for it because I failed to save him.
I bought food for homeless people. 

My aunt refused to use contraception when she was a prostitute so she got pregnant a lot but she had so many abortions and most of her children ended up in care or she only kept them so she could take the father's money.

My sister and her friend's were having a discussion on abortions and women's rights, all I said was that "Women who have abortions as an alternative to contraception are bad" and my sister and her friends think it's okay and they called me disgusting? 

My mother knows I have a learning disability and depression, my brother thinks it's a lie and he thinks I'm just a spoiled brat so he decided to tagged me in a public post on Facebook telling the world I'm a cry baby and lied saying I tried to beat up our mum. Where was he when my mother had a heart attack? Did he visit my mother in hospital for a week and brought her a throphy saying "World's Best Mum"? No, he was busy counting his money, driving around in his BMW and partying late at night with his friends. 

Also I get mocked for being a Christian, I don't mock my brother for being an atheist or my sister for being a vegan woman's rights activist. 

My family are so dysfunctional, I'm starting to believe whether or not I got switched with another baby at birth and should get a DNA test because I am nothing like my family at all. They criticised me for my beliefs and views and refuse to accept I am Autistic and have anxiety and depression. I am very sensitive and very emotional and I cannot help it because I am very sick, I got raped at 14, my cousin was ******** the same year my parents broke up, I got kicked out the house at a young age and had to go in supported housing where I got beaten up and had my money and food stolen. My only best friend was my cat that disappeared and I'll never know whether she died or was stolen. I have trouble making best friends and so the only friends I have are all online. 

My dream was to get married and have a family but what woman will ever want a man who still collects model cars, likes Japanese cartoons, enjoys playing video games and has flabs instead abs?

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Wow you are hard on yourself.

You've done some great things, but I hope you understand you don't have to be perfect to be loveable or likeable. You aren't responsible for your friends death, it is a sad part of life. Depression can make it really hard to have a clear perspective on things. Please consider your poor friend passed away being comforted by a friend fighting to save his life, they died nowing they were loved. The first is a guarantee, the second a blessing.

Sounds like there is communication difficulties happening. Library will help, books on being assertive in the right way and learning  that people can disagree without it having  negative impact. We all have different beliefs.

Depression is hard to live with, breathing is important Try not to think no one cares because you haven't gotten immediate responses. Three hours in emotional pain seems like an eternity, but three hours in perspective isn't, people do care on here, give it time.

Others will belong and offer more indepth advice.

I couldn't reply on your sucide post, as reply function missing. Dunno if glip or my dysfunction kindle.

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Oh btw your interests are very common in men. Most women tend to go for personality over looks or even money. So l wouldn't let that worry you. You need to work on your self esteem, then you won't have any trouble. People want to feel wanted not needed for them, unfortunately low self esteem can give off the wrong vibe. There is nothing wrong with you, just your beliefs need tweaking about yourself

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You sound like a very generous person, darkinside.  You've given alot to causes you believe in, and you have done your best to help those you see in need.  I"m sorry that some of your family are behaving like total a**h*les.  Sadly, I'm sure quite a few can identify with that part of your struggle.  Don't sell yourself short.  There is more to relationships than flabs and abs.  You sound like an amazing young man to me, it's just hard for us to see that part of ourselves sometimes.

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Don't be so hard on yourself, you sound like a very compassionate and loving person. Sometimes people in the world will take advantage of the soft spoken and compassionate but don't count these things as weakness. It sounds like you have been through a lot and have come through somethings most people would crumble under. This shows just how much strength you truly have. You mentioned you were a Christian, well remember that while biological family may not always be there for you, you were adopted by God and brought into His family. Lean on Christ in your life, he will not mock you for your beliefs or disabilities. I will be praying for you brother, and I hope that you can find peace in your relationship with Jesus. You are worth so much because you were created in the image of God.

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I love model cars (old 60's mustangs are my favorite), Anime, Video games, and am flabby. I'm also a girl, just saying. There's someone out there for everyone, and those are pretty awesome hobbies in my opinion.

 

But besides all of that. You sound like an amazing and uniquely caring individual, that anyone would be lucky to have in their life.

Like Rouik said, the nicest people are often taken advantage of, whether it's emotionally, financially or whatever. It's just the mentality of a broken world. I'm not saying it's fair or that you should have to endure it, but know you are not alone.

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i feel like i'm totally different to my family too so i know the feeling. i have wondered a lot if i was adopted or switched at birth and if i didn't look so much like my parents i would have gotten myself tested too. all i can say is you are the way you are for a reason and someone will like you for who you are even if your family don't. 

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