Realreason Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 today I miss my friend 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 7 hours ago, Natasha1 said: Happy that I finally got the local hiking group's schedule into my day book (yep day book...I'm very old school...heck I'm just getting old haha). Things are about to get very very busy. Busy be good, Nat!!! Have fun. It is probably already spring out there!!!! :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 6 hours ago, LoneSquirrel said: Well, I just made another phone call to another aunt, asking if I could stay there. It was clear that she was uncomfortable with the idea, so I told her it was just an idea, and I was going to make phone calls to look at my other options. I'm not sure that there are any, but I didn't want her to feel bad. I really don't want to live in my car, because I will probably have to get rid of my guinea pig if I do. Maybe I can figure out some way to keep him with me in the car. I just don't know if it will be okay for him. My sister is willing to take him, but she doesn't seem to give a s*** that I won't have a home. That hurts. Hugs Squirrel girl. I have my fingers crossed for you - and I am thinking about you!!! 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 I just don't know, anymore. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gs22 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 To all of you suffering I feel for everyone here but find it hard to read anything and keep rereading. If my brain were functioning better I'd write more. I'll think one thing but the words typed out don't match what's in my mind, an odd coordination issue. I'm surprised when I see what I've typed and don't understand how there can be a mismatch. Very anxious, above my abnormally anxious baseline and it's making my life more difficult than usual. I'm a chronic pain sufferer in multiple areas and it's just making me feel all the more helpless and hopeless. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 4 hours ago, CoolCat7 said: Don't worry about making her "feel bad." People should be there, especially for family!!!! Yeah, but she has her own financial and health problems. I don't want to add to her problems. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 2 hours ago, salparadise6132 said: Hugs Squirrel girl. I have my fingers crossed for you - and I am thinking about you!!! Thank you, Brian. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 1 hour ago, gs22 said: To all of you suffering I feel for everyone here but find it hard to read anything and keep rereading. If my brain were functioning better I'd write more. I'll think one thing but the words typed out don't match what's in my mind, an odd coordination issue. I'm surprised when I see what I've typed and don't understand how there can be a mismatch. Very anxious, above my abnormally anxious baseline and it's making my life more difficult than usual. I'm a chronic pain sufferer in multiple areas and it's just making me feel all the more helpless and hopeless. Hugs to you, gs. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SpiralingMind Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 @LoneSquirrel Have you tried calling 211 (United Way hotline)? You can also go to 211 dot oh are gee, too. It depends on what services are available in your area, but they might be able to help you find something. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 2 hours ago, SpiralingMind said: @LoneSquirrel Have you tried calling 211 (United Way hotline)? You can also go to 211 dot oh are gee, too. It depends on what services are available in your area, but they might be able to help you find something. Yes, I already called. I have to go and fill out some applications for assistance on Tuesday. I guess Monday is a holiday, and the lady at United Way said the agencies probably wouldn't be open, so that sets back my progress a little. Gotta love those holidays that no one celebrates or even knows why they exist. President's Day?? Come on, man. It's just an excuse for government workers to have a day off and mattress stores to have sales. Nobody f***ing celebrates President's Day. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 I hope I can start sleeping again. It's very hard to get the things done that I need to when I've been up for over 36 hours. I fell asleep around 7 pm, but didn't manage to stay asleep long enough. I'm so stressed out, anxious and upset that my attempts to sleep are mostly unsuccessful. It's really making things harder for me. Pills and alcohol can't even put me to sleep when I'm this upset (I tried that last night). I'm just cycling between anger, anxiety and despair, and I just can't find rest. My head feels like an over-inflated tire. I cry for hours, and then I get angry or anxious; I'm exhausted the whole time, but I can't do anything about it. I guess I need to do my thing where I put on a movie and pause it every 5 minutes to work on a chore or something. Maybe that will help. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Natasha1 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 8 hours ago, salparadise6132 said: Busy be good, Nat!!! Have fun. It is probably already spring out there!!!! :) well not quite haha...but its not minus 10 to 20 anymore! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
meeperfish Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 Nervous and impatient today. Have to go be around people who make me really nervous and help clean a garage out for a memorial for someone I don't know. I'm happy to help, just dreading the anxiety. Oh the anxiety. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jalen Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 Worried, stressed, and exhausted today 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Natasha1 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 48 minutes ago, Jalen said: Worried, stressed, and exhausted today wish i could calm your worry and stress Jalen. Try to take care of yourself and distract. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Natasha1 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 i feel somewhat more positive. at least more than i have been. re-visiting my old positive threads helped a little. but a part of me still only sees the cold that i exert to others. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladysmurf Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 On 2/16/2017 at 5:53 PM, evalynn said: like I could sleep for a thousand years that is how I feel too. At least when I am sleeping I don't have to think & feel ..... :( 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Waffles Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 frustrated. having difficulty putting words to my current situation. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
roadking02 Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 Had a panic attack last night while I tried to sleep... Then after getting to work this morning I had another one. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 1 hour ago, roadking02 said: Had a panic attack last night while I tried to sleep... Then after getting to work this morning I had another one. Sorry to hear it roadking...Hope you're doing better now! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
soloviola Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 I can never ever get through to the big uk helpline for those who are in despair. It's always always engaged. I don't know if I have been blocked or if this is my paranoia. Really upset. I needed to ring them last week. Couldn't get through. And I never ever can. It it doesn't seem right. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted February 18, 2017 Share Posted February 18, 2017 2 hours ago, soloviola said: I can never ever get through to the big uk helpline for those who are in despair. It's always always engaged. I don't know if I have been blocked or if this is my paranoia. Really upset. I needed to ring them last week. Couldn't get through. And I never ever can. It it doesn't seem right. Why would they block you? I can't imagine they would do that. I called the crisis hotline here in the states. The first time, I heard an introductory message and then got disconnected. I almost said "f*** it," because I felt like it was maybe some sort of sign that I should just die already. Are there any other numbers you can call? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted February 19, 2017 Share Posted February 19, 2017 I have just been attacked, emotionally, by someone I thought knew me and loved me for who I am. I am on the edge over this. It could go either way. I am hoping to keep my head up, even while feeling so alone and unloved. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LonelyHiker Posted February 19, 2017 Share Posted February 19, 2017 21 minutes ago, salparadise6132 said: I have just been attacked, emotionally, by someone I thought knew me and loved me for who I am. I am on the edge over this. It could go either way. I am hoping to keep my head up, even while feeling so alone and unloved. Oh man, I'm sorry that happened sal! You (and no one) deserves to be treated in such a callous manner. Keep your head up, friend! You can get past this. T 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted February 19, 2017 Share Posted February 19, 2017 14 minutes ago, LonelyHiker said: Oh man, I'm sorry that happened sal! You (and no one) deserves to be treated in such a callous manner. Keep your head up, friend! You can get past this. T Thanks LH!!! I know that I am running up against her (my friend's) own inner pain body. I am trying not to take it personally. Still, I thought she would know me better than this. I thought she trusted me. That is what hurts most. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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