Mikayla Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 11 hours ago, feeling_lost said: Feeling almost nothing and wanting nothing today. Slept a lot but that just intensifies those feelings -_-. Feeling like a burden and trouble.. and not being able to do anything about it because of my confused mind. Just feeling like I am the one creating all the messes in my life and I am the only one to blame. It'a hard to say myself if this is the result of being treated in a certain way for years or is this actually just the way I am. I just feel lost, once again. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 I have a pounding headache again so I am not getting much done and it is frustrating me. Oh well I will survive, just hope that everyone on here is okay 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
meeperfish Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 Had a rough start to the day, tried drawing multiple times and could not seem to overcome the negativity that started spiraling from my inability to draw clean line-art. So, I gave it a rest for a while and picked it up later. Suffice to say, a different pencil grip (and thus perspective) was all I needed. Already seeing improvements. There's something greater to be said about today but I'm not sure how to say it. I suppose it's that you should always give things room to breath and get some fresh perspective. (: 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dragonflyvision Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 3 hours ago, hocico said: I have a pounding headache again so I am not getting much done and it is frustrating me. Oh well I will survive, just hope that everyone on here is okay Wow! I have a bad headache too. I took some medicine and I've been sleeping most of the day. Hugs 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jalen Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 Lonely and pathetic 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gs22 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 17 minutes ago, Jalen said: Lonely and pathetic You may feel lonely but you are a wonderful person! 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 Just disappointed in myself. I have made great strides but I can't seem to get over the hump. Maybe I don't want to, enough? 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Natasha1 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 1 hour ago, dragonflyvision said: Wow! I have a bad headache too. I took some medicine and I've been sleeping most of the day. Hugs headache here too. nap didnt work. :( 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lady Mozzer Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 I feel tired today.My Mom is still struggling with her anxiety.I`m really concerned about it.I just want her to get better.She doesn`t deserve to go through this.So I am tired and worried tonight. 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 On 12/29/2016 at 11:07 PM, gs22 said: Froot Loops=healthy . . . right? It's a cereal not like chips. It must be healthy...there's "froot" in it. 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LoneSquirrel Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 2 hours ago, Jalen said: Lonely and pathetic 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 (edited) 2 hours ago, Lady Mozzer said: I feel tired today.My Mom is still struggling with her anxiety.I`m really concerned about it.I just want her to get better.She doesn`t deserve to go through this.So I am tired and worried tonight. Sending hugs to your mom and you. I sincerely hope she can find some peace. I also have to say that I am grateful that you are there for her, LM!!! Edited December 31, 2016 by salparadise6132 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
womanofthelight Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 (edited) Having my midnight (early morning) cry. Listening to some "music to cry by." Missing my brother. Still hard to accept that he doesn't love me any more. I'm haunting the past, wondering what I did wrong. Must have disappointed him in some way. I've been respecting his wish for no more contact. Maybe if I had courage, I'd contact him anyway. But the rejection I feel now is bad enough, and I can't do it all over again. Now another year of it to face. Why is some of life so very painful? No more. No more. " . . . I look for you, and you'll not answer. From the mountain I hear your voice. I scream your name but you don't answer. I hear echoes of my crying. I hear echoes of my crying. I hear echoes of my crying." (from La Promesa by Lila Downs) Maybe this will finally be the night I go to bed and sleep to reunite with those who have gone before me. Please. Please. Please. Let this be the night . . . Edited December 31, 2016 by womanofthelight spacing 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
anita_123 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 As 2017 is approaching in a couple of hours, I quite dread the new year because I was always so optimistic and hopeful about the new year yet it always comes crashing down on me. My results will be out in late February and it'll determine if I can get into a local university (Cambridge, pls be kind to me)(and yes my exams papers are actually sent to the UK to be marked) Advanced Happy New Year to all :) I really hope 2017 onwards will be in your favour!! 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mikayla Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 @womanofthelight I'm teary-eyed reading your post. I can't imagine my brother would do something like that. It would hurt me tremendously for sure. You can't spoil anything if you contact him from time to time and I think you should even if he keeps rejecting you over and over. Time is a healer and there's a good chance it will help him forget and forgive. 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 I do get sick of life. It seems like every day I have to try as hard as I can just to measure up to the people around me. While others seem to just be normal it takes great effort for me to work to get there. I get sick of the world making me think I am not good enough for them. I have to make changes to even deserve to be in their presence. That is the way the world makes me feel. 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladysmurf Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 Pretty tired because I didn't have a good night sleep. I am going to go lie down, but just wanted to say that I hope the New Year brings everyone happiness. 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 Feeling...uplifted. Music can do this to me. Alcohol too..in small amounts.. But I'm ok now. I'm ok. I hope you are too. All of you. I Hope 2017 will bring joy and meaning back into all our lives. Take care! 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
samadhiSheol Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 11 hours ago, Jalen said: Lonely and pathetic I know loneliness too well..and sometimes nothing can take away the feeling... But you are NOT pathetic. Never that. You are Awesome. You are there for us on df. Perhaps we can feel less alone here... 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Twilight Sky Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 (edited) Oh well.. Edited December 31, 2016 by Twilight Sky 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sober4life Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 It amazes me that people here accept me and care about me but in real life nobody really cares. The best response I can hope for from someone is get out of my way. I try to fit in with people but after a while I just realize it is pointless. I start to feel better and almost every time it is ruined by other people. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 10 hours ago, womanofthelight said: Having my midnight (early morning) cry. Listening to some "music to cry by." Missing my brother. Still hard to accept that he doesn't love me any more. I'm haunting the past, wondering what I did wrong. Must have disappointed him in some way. I've been respecting his wish for no more contact. Maybe if I had courage, I'd contact him anyway. But the rejection I feel now is bad enough, and I can't do it all over again. Now another year of it to face. Why is some of life so very painful? No more. No more. " . . . I look for you, and you'll not answer. From the mountain I hear your voice. I scream your name but you don't answer. I hear echoes of my crying. I hear echoes of my crying. I hear echoes of my crying." (from La Promesa by Lila Downs) Maybe this will finally be the night I go to bed and sleep to reunite with those who have gone before me. Please. Please. Please. Let this be the night . . . Hugs WOTL!!! I hope you feel better. I have nothing helpful to say about your brother, other than I am so sorry he has hurt you so! 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 Happy New Year everyone. May 2017 be an upswing for us all!!!!! You people are a blessing for me!!!! Thank you. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gs22 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 8 hours ago, sober4life said: I do get sick of life. It seems like every day I have to try as hard as I can just to measure up to the people around me. While others seem to just be normal it takes great effort for me to work to get there. I get sick of the world making me think I am not good enough for them. I have to make changes to even deserve to be in their presence. That is the way the world makes me feel. That really isn't fair to you or anyone here in the same boat, and I find I need to do the same and it's just so draining. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gs22 Posted December 31, 2016 Share Posted December 31, 2016 (edited) 1 hour ago, sober4life said: It amazes me that people here accept me and care about me but in real life nobody really cares. The best response I can hope for from someone is get out of my way. I try to fit in with people but after a while I just realize it is pointless. I start to feel better and almost every time it is ruined by other people. Don't let them ruin things for you, sober4life. Edited December 31, 2016 by gs22 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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