Char12 Posted May 23, 2016 Share Posted May 23, 2016 I started a new job 2 months ago. My previous one I had for 3 months and left because it wasn't right for me (I had no clue what I was doing and my manager was horrible). I really hit a low and I quit by handing a sick note in along with my resignation letter. During the time I was unemployed I came off my antidepressants as they weren't working and didn't switch onto my new ones, because I actually felt temporarily better. By the time I my depression did hit again, I was going to start my new job and didn't want to deal with any side effects.. I thought this new job may lift my mood too and felt hopeful about a fresh start. In this job I am constantly being criticized for mistakes I make even though I've not been told how to do certain things. It's to the point of nitpicking. My "supervisors" are around the same age as me, 22, and I think are constantly on at me and calling me to the office because they're training to for some management program. They're all friendly with each other too and I just don't fit it. For example I made a mistake on the till once and since then they all gather in a circle to check the figures after I've been on it which makes me feel stupid. I'm now in the same position as my previous job, literally going through the motions to make it through the day. It doesn't help that this job is only part time on minimum wage so I can sometimes be out for 8 hours for a 4 hour shift because I travel, and an hour of that goes towards my train fare. The hours are awful too, tomorrow I'm going to finishing at 10 o clock at night and getting home for 11:30 although In my interview I was told the latest I'd finish was 8. This weekend was my first full weekend off for a month and I got a text on Saturday morning asking If i could come in the next day. I'm waking up on the nights before work constantly with an awful sinking feeling and when it's time to get up I'll be physically shaking with anxiety. This happened this morning and I rang up to let them know I wouldn't be in and my manager was angry asking if I really couldn't make it in as there was an event on today. I'm guessing they're understaffed because so many have left the past week. My family are starting to think I'm just lazy and tell me "nobody likes there job, just put up with it" but I can't anymore. I feel guilty too that I've dragged myself in for 2 months feeling so down and missing weekends with family only to have today off anyway. I have been applying for other jobs and have an interview in 2 weeks.. I'm trying to hang onto this job until I get another but I just feel so done with everything. Should I start taking the prozac I was given but never took? I'd really appreciate some advice. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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