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I'm pretty good at dream interpretation.  I find them invaluable at helping me sort out my subconscious thoughts.  I try to work with mine daily.  They can be difficult and outright upsetting and distressing but I still find them full of insight.  If anyone has a dream that they want insight on you can post it or pm me and I can give it my impressions.  I can't make any promises to know exactly what it means but I can give it a try if you are interested.  Everyone is welcome to participate adding their insights as well. 

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I had a dream the other day but I forgot 90% of it. I do remember standing somewhere and an owl flying down and looking at me as it landed past me. 

ive been having a lot of dreams about my failures and breakups.  I know it's processing emotions but I feel like I take 2 steps back by dreaming these things. they re open wounds :/

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1 hour ago, ejc said:

I had a dream the other day but I forgot 90% of it. I do remember standing somewhere and an owl flying down and looking at me as it landed past me. 

ive been having a lot of dreams about my failures and breakups.  I know it's processing emotions but I feel like I take 2 steps back by dreaming these things. they re open wounds :/

Even if I only remember a small bit I look at it as the important bit so I still take it for what it is.  The owl is synonymous to wisdom, magic and insight.  So I think that the dream could be indicating that the truth and wisdom is looking you right in the face but you are letting it pass right by you.  Sometimes we have to hear things a lot of times before we believe it and take it on board.  This is especially true for people with low self image issues especially surrounded by feeling like a failure in life.  Yes, you have what seem like failures but they do not define you.  All failure is, is a chance to see what not to do next time.  All of us make failures but none of us is a total failure.  There is a thing a lot of people who are depressed to and that is cognitive distortions.  One of my go two ones was black and white or all or nothing thinking.  If I wasn't an absolute perfect success that means I am an absolute failure. The truth is I am neither.  I can't be perfect all of the time but I also don't fail all of the time either.  But only focusing on our failures is a sure fire way to loss faith in ourselves.  So take some time to try and give yourself some credit for the things you do, do well. Make a list of your positive traits so that you can start to see your potential and not just the things that failed.  That is the wisdom of the owl.  Once you do the failure dreams will stop.  Take care.

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39 minutes ago, Michelle38 said:

Even if I only remember a small bit I look at it as the important bit so I still take it for what it is.  The owl is synonymous to wisdom, magic and insight.  So I think that the dream could be indicating that the truth and wisdom is looking you right in the face but you are letting it pass right by you.  Sometimes we have to hear things a lot of times before we believe it and take it on board.  This is especially true for people with low self image issues especially surrounded by feeling like a failure in life.  Yes, you have what seem like failures but they do not define you.  All failure is, is a chance to see what not to do next time.  All of us make failures but none of us is a total failure.  There is a thing a lot of people who are depressed to and that is cognitive distortions.  One of my go two ones was black and white or all or nothing thinking.  If I wasn't an absolute perfect success that means I am an absolute failure. The truth is I am neither.  I can't be perfect all of the time but I also don't fail all of the time either.  But only focusing on our failures is a sure fire way to loss faith in ourselves.  So take some time to try and give yourself some credit for the things you do, do well. Make a list of your positive traits so that you can start to see your potential and not just the things that failed.  That is the wisdom of the owl.  Once you do the failure dreams will stop.  Take care.

wow. thank you so much. I'm going to re read this bc it does resonate with what my counselor said and what makes logical sense. it's just hard that my emotions are what control me right now. 

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5 minutes ago, ejc said:

wow. thank you so much. I'm going to re read this bc it does resonate with what my counselor said and what makes logical sense. it's just hard that my emotions are what control me right now. 

I know what you mean.  My emotions can run away with me as well and it can be hard to not stop the train sometimes.  I have found Mindfulness to be pretty helpful.  I can't always stop beating myself up with my thoughts and emotions but it is slowly helping me turn things around.  Unfortunately a lifetime of thinking and responding to the world doesn't turn around overnight so just keep at it and working with your counselor.  You are making progress even if it doesn't seem like you are.  Take care.

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I dreamt that I was with my friend at some mechanic shop or otiside of one off some road and we were just goofing off and laughing we made fun of male model poses. som random guy came up and joined in on the fun. he looked like my soulmate. he left.

we Walked down a dirt road into a warehouse. and an old beat up elephant being ridden by a solemn looking female performer walked up to to us.. to me. the elephant looked sad and we locked an eye.
 
I said, almost, almost you'll be free. the master of ceremonies looked solemn too. I asked which sanctuary will she go to? and  he turned into a woman and then said... she won't go anywhere I don't know where she will go she doesn't get along with other elephants. I'm afraid she will be alone. 
 
she loves humans and the elephant tucked it's head under my hand. it was a small elephant. they told me go ahead and talk to her she understands... she's strange they said. she dreams laying down ask her anything...
 
I asked . what do you dream about?... but then she turned the question around. I pointed up and said I dream of the sun ... she didn't understand. the light, I said. and the clouds. she nodded and her trunk moved excitedly. 
 
I kept petting her. she put her hoof on my shoulder. it weighed nothing. she said, I dream of colors, numbers, letters.
 
do you dream of people? I asked, she said.. no never. I had but I told her I didn't either, even though I had . she nodded, I nodded we were both excited .
 
the elephant was grey and then she turned blotchy with white patches. I felt the toughness of her skin (I can still feel that impression in my brain as I type this. it was so rough).
 
then I found myself in a truck with my friend sitting next to me. I started shedding tears and my lip quivered uncontrollably. he stared, I tried to put a brave face and he knew it. but my lips they kept shaking. 
 
I woke up crying. I'm still crying. I know that elephant was me. I have that feeling... I don't want to end up like that beat up, alone, sad. I wanted to rescue her...myself so badly. 
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before that I dreamt that my ex wanted to take 1 of my 3 dogs that I used to have . he came at night to the house I lived in when I was in middle school. and he threatened me with a shotgun. he wanted to take the dog for a walk. he cradled the dog with one hand and held the shotgun with another (ex is really tall 6'6, this ex left me for his best friend's widow of 2 months). 

the dog looked miserable. I was and and tried to take the shotgun away. we went back and forth like a hostage situation right outside the house. I never remembered how that ended.

(this ex met the dogs once in real life.  the dogs are owned and live with   another ex from way before this recent one.)

after that, I walked inside the house and my younger sister (30) was there with her son (5) who was dong something while sitting on the floor. I said to my sister, this kid will never know what it is to be a child and I pointed at a cellphone. she looked at me in disagreement . then she listed all the stuff we did as children. and then I inderdtood that she was raising a good kid bc she taught him to play how we used to- outside, run around, ride bicycles, yell and laugh. not video games or indoors. 

in real life: I have never doubted her abilities. she lives with depression and has a neurological-immune disease. she's poor. but she tries her best with her son. and I always admired that. I don't have children. I wish I did. but I'm 34, it won't be for me.

she told me the other day that she's sad bc her son won't have cousins to play with. he will be alone. I'm alone and no kids. and my older sister is alone no kids and has bipolar disorder. 

im terribly sad. it's 2:13 am. I woke up just in time like I always do. thanks, depression. 

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Hi EJC,

Our car represents our body and how we move about the world.  It is basically us.  The fact it needed repairs means there is some hurt you are working on.  The fact you were at the mechanics means you are making progress working on it even if you can’t see the repairs going on.  A model represents some ideal image we think we are supposed to aspire to.  Men are our active side so it could mean that you are learning to let go and laugh at the world’s expectations put upon people or you are putting down the ideal as a way to not feel bad about not reaching the expectations you think you are supposed to reach.   It all depends on if the posing was silly fun or mocking fun.  Your attitude in the moment is your attitude towards some ideal perfection that is really quite frankly unattainable but something that we are all fed growing up.  It could also possibly represent some ideal man you were told you were supposed to go out and find.  Your Soul mate so to speak and he isn’t showing up or he shows up and disappears but it is really just a fantasy.  Prince charming really doesn’t exist in the classic sense.  There is no perfect man out there.  All of us are human with faults and problems.  In any event try to gauge whether or not there was animosity in the teasing.   If there was then there may be some hurt feelings still there about not reaching some goal or about not finding your prince.  If it was light hearted fun and you really were just being silly then it would likely mean that you are getting past outrageous out of reach expectations which doesn’t mean we have to give up on our goals just on putting too much pressure on ourselves to be perfect.  Perfectionism is a slippery slope that can often lead to depression.   We become perfectionist when we find ourselves trying to meet someone else’s ideal of what we should be. 

A warehouse is where we store stuff.  It contains the things we may be working on or stored for safe keeping for later.  In this instance there was a circus performing elephant.  I agree the elephant is you.  You perform in some way to please the crowds but it doesn’t make you happy.  It doesn’t truly bring happiness because you are living for others and not for yourself.  And just because we jump through hoops for others it doesn’t guarantee that we will get the same in return.  And so you may have found disappointment in life and based on the male model, in relationships and have shut yourself off a bit from finding true love.  The elephant as well could represent the heavy burden of depression.  Oddly enough, I discovered that my depression wasn’t so much a character flaw as I had believed but really served the purpose to keep me safe. If I hide from the world it can't hurt me.  It is possible your depression is keeping you locked up and hiding to protect yourself from getting hurt by others specifically the men in your life.  By some ideal soul mate that you can’t seem to find which may make you feel undeserving of love when really it is just some false fantasy that little girls buy into growing up.  In any event it seems as though you may be working towards letting go of pretenses to please others and hiding from the world to keep from getting hurt. 

Interestingly enough without having read the second dream it seems to support the relationship angle.  Dogs are our best friends so the best part of us that has our back and wants only happiness for us.  Your ex who cheated and left you for another woman robbed you of your best friend side.  The ability to feel good about yourself and feel loveable.  Your impression now is that your ability to have a good relationship is over.  You will never have kids yet there is still a good 10-15 years for you to have them.  Every relationship is different.  Just because one guy left you doesn’t mean the next one will but we do have to leave ourselves open to it.  It sounds a bit as if you have closed some doors to your heart because of the hurt.  You should not have to perform in any particular way to attract your soul mate.  You are deserving of a soul mate relationship just the way you are and they could literally walk into your life at any moment.  That said, it sounds like you have some hurt to work through and some beliefs to process about your worth and who you are in a relationship.  With a family history of mental health issues it very well muddies the waters a bit for you but try to not decided being alone is definite.  Leave that part alone for now and work on your hurt and any preconceived ideas you have about what a perfect relationship is and who you are supposed to be and your circus performing self may be able to retire with another elephant perfectly suited for you.  Take care.

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I didn’t address the dreams part of the elephant dream.  That was interesting.  You in the dream is likely your true self while the elephant is the heavy burden you are carrying that is causing you to lose your sense of self.  The true you still looks to the sky for your hopes and dreams.  Dreams big and open while the depressed you only sees colors (emotions), numbers (analytical side), and letters (words people say).  Losing sight of dreaming big may be partly what is keeping you depressed.

One other thing I will mention just because it came to mind when reading your dream is there is a Buddhist analogy about who we are.  It states that who we are is the Sun, shining bright and strong for all eternity.  But sometimes the sun can get blocked by some very dark storm clouds.  Those clouds can seem to last forever and never break but the truth of the matter is, regardless how thick or stormy the clouds are who we are is still shining brightly and strong behind the clouds.  The clouds represent our clouded thinking.  We need not change who we are.  We are already perfect.  We just need to clear out the thinking that blocks us from seeing the truth of who we truly are.  So just because some men rained on your ability to feel loved that doesn’t mean the skies can’t clear reveling your true beauty.  You just have to be open to it and know there isn’t a thing you need to change about yourself because you truly are perfect just as you are regardless if there are a few clouded ideas about men lingering around.   

 

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thank you. I'm very grateful and teary eyed because you have told me more about myself in your responses than I ever could have learned from anyone else or even myself. I'm going to read this again and again. it's on point with everything in my life and what I. feeling. upon reading it I also learned things about myself that I didn't realize I was doing. you truly have a wonderful gift.  thank you. 

 

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8 hours ago, ejc said:

thank you. I'm very grateful and teary eyed because you have told me more about myself in your responses than I ever could have learned from anyone else or even myself. I'm going to read this again and again. it's on point with everything in my life and what I. feeling. upon reading it I also learned things about myself that I didn't realize I was doing. you truly have a wonderful gift.  thank you. 

 

You are very welcome and thanks for the kind words.  I will say I was absolutely stunned and yet not at all surprised by the things I uncovered during with my dream work.  Our dreams really are a window to our inner thoughts and emotions.  I sometimes wish they weren't so cryptic but with practice the symbolism starts to stand out.  Just allow yourself the time and space to process it all and soon things will be clearer for you.  Hugs.

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