Paranoia.

[Just Adam]

I've reallllllly been struggling with this. Some of it I can recognize as paranoia, even though it still bothers me. Other things, I don't think I have any way to be sure. Like if you think a friend did you wrong in some way, but you have no way to prove it. People can act like a friend to your face, but really be an enemy. In some cases there could be severe negative consequences if you guess wrong. That is just ONE example. But a couple cases of this, as well as many other things have been weighing on my mind heavily to the point that I lose sleep over it. That is a bad thing because I've never gotten much sleep anyway. And I'm guessing that the lack of sleep probably only increases the anxiety and paranoia.