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Do you still have moments when you get severely depressed? Or does it come in waves? I've been on medication now for about 15 weeks or something close to that. I generally feel better, but I swear it's like my depression has just moved around so it only hits me on the weekends. I still get sad through the week, but nothing like how it is on the weekends.

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In my experience I do not think I have ever felt, "Better."  It just becomes easier to deal with.  It may be different for you.  Maybe it's easier because I have lived with it for so long.  I don't know, I will figure it out one day.

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I would consider myself "better" since I can function well, I have a job, I socialise and I genuinely enjoy life most days. However I don't think I'll ever truly get rid of the roots of my depression, it's just in my genes. From time to time I have those days I feel like not doing anything but crying and I even think about suicide, not that I would ever truly do it but sometimes it's such a comforting thought. Sounds weird right? So I do still have those times I feel very depressed which I have for at least 8 years now but it only lasts for a few days usually unlike before I was on medication when those times would take months.

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Do you still have moments when you get severely depressed? Or does it come in waves? I've been on medication now for about 15 weeks or something close to that. I generally feel better, but I swear it's like my depression has just moved around so it only hits me on the weekends. I still get sad through the week, but nothing like how it is on the weekends.

 

I live my life in what I call spirals.

 

If I'm active and interacting with people - grocery shopping, going to the gym, doing something with friends, say, I feel pretty good.  But at some point someone seemingly tosses me an anchor and I'm once again in loserville.  Can't/won't shower for three or four days, won't get out of the house except to maybe drive through a fast food place for an easy warm meal, take a look around the ghetto bungalow and feel worse and worse about myself.  Then at some point, I clean up, get out, and the upward spiral begins again.

 

And, though I'm pretty good at recognizing my distorted thinking most of the time, I still can't pull myself out of it.  I need some extraordinary impetus to get me off my burro and moving.

 

Fortunately it seems to be maybe 2/3 to 3/4 upward spirals, but the downward are pretty bad for me.  Yeah, I think about it.

 

Anyway, take care.  If your bad times are on weekends, then I'd suggest you change something up.  Dunno you, dunno what... go hiking, visit a museum, see a friend, visit the parents - whatever'll occupy your mind, that you'll enjoy, that'll keep the depressed thoughts suppressed.

 

Adios! 

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I would consider myself "better" since I can function well, I have a job, I socialise and I genuinely enjoy life most days. However I don't think I'll ever truly get rid of the roots of my depression, it's just in my genes. From time to time I have those days I feel like not doing anything but crying and I even think about suicide, not that I would ever truly do it but sometimes it's such a comforting thought. Sounds weird right? So I do still have those times I feel very depressed which I have for at least 8 years now but it only lasts for a few days usually unlike before I was on medication when those times would take months.

I'm the same way except it would last for weeks at a time and then I'd break and have like one good week and then fall back into a black hole all over again. I was thinking about suicide last night and it was comforting. But only because it's familiar. Feeling 'better' is still foreign to me. 

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My situation is improving significantly - Still got extremely depressed last night and I'm not even sure why.

Yeah, this is what I mean! Compared to how I was around this time last year, I was thinking about ending it all the time. How I've been living since my meds have stabilized is like night and day. And still last night I got super depressed. I know why. There are a lot of big changes coming for me in the next couple of months. But I feel like I shouldn't have episodes that severe anymore. Like... isn't that the whole point of meds? It's supposed to get less severe over time

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Do you still have moments when you get severely depressed? Or does it come in waves? I've been on medication now for about 15 weeks or something close to that. I generally feel better, but I swear it's like my depression has just moved around so it only hits me on the weekends. I still get sad through the week, but nothing like how it is on the weekends.

 

I live my life in what I call spirals.

 

If I'm active and interacting with people - grocery shopping, going to the gym, doing something with friends, say, I feel pretty good.  But at some point someone seemingly tosses me an anchor and I'm once again in loserville.  Can't/won't shower for three or four days, won't get out of the house except to maybe drive through a fast food place for an easy warm meal, take a look around the ghetto bungalow and feel worse and worse about myself.  Then at some point, I clean up, get out, and the upward spiral begins again.

 

And, though I'm pretty good at recognizing my distorted thinking most of the time, I still can't pull myself out of it.  I need some extraordinary impetus to get me off my burro and moving.

 

Fortunately it seems to be maybe 2/3 to 3/4 upward spirals, but the downward are pretty bad for me.  Yeah, I think about it.

 

Anyway, take care.  If your bad times are on weekends, then I'd suggest you change something up.  Dunno you, dunno what... go hiking, visit a museum, see a friend, visit the parents - whatever'll occupy your mind, that you'll enjoy, that'll keep the depressed thoughts suppressed.

 

Adios! 

 

 

My apartment is an absolute mess. I haven't hit the upward swing yet. I'm somewhere in the middle. I'm okay, but not quite energetic enough to clean this place. That's a good idea to keep busy. Except it's hard to find things to do on the weekend with other people. Everyone has their own plans and I've had a few weekends where I plan things and then they fall apart on like, Friday night, and it's worst than if I wouldn't have planned anything at all. I don't know how to DO normal living yet

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