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The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread 2


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I'm doing OK, though I know on the surface I may look a mess to those around me. Dishes overflowing, roommate somehow telling me to do my part as if not registering that she's never ONCE done her part in the bathroom in the 3 months + since she moved in, and I always seem to be eating on the run, in class or wherever, which people seem to look down on as if I don't have my **** together. I'm incredibly short on time. But I got my two papers in on time, and now I only have one more paper (this week) due Tuesday, and the online portion of my French homework due tomorrow by midnight.

 

But the GRE is Monday (!), so my primary job right now is just to study, study, study. I'm glad I have the house to myself for the weekend. I'm glad I've been told that I don't need to worry about the math portion because they won't care about that. I have a lot to get through.

 

I'm trying to still stay connected, because I know that helped so much. I'm trying to keep in mind that adcoms don't care as much about GRE scores as the rest of your application, especially the writing, letters of recommendation, etc.

 

I'm having another brain fog issue, since breakfast, which I think is a blood sugar thing. Too many carbs. I need to get that straightened out. I'm going to make myself a healthy meal in between today. The setup for prep is nice, it actually works well. I'm going to just focus on that and forget about everything else until the test is done.

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Frozen, good luck with the GRE!! I'm sure you'll do great, just make sure to get a good night's sleep and wear something comfortable and warm. :)

 

I'm feeling pretty good this morning, just watching the snow fall while staying cozy inside.  Looks like it's going to be a lazy weekend hiding from the cold, but I don't mind. :)

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"You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty". - Ghandi
 
But there's more than just a few drops. I can't find a way out of this sewage waste.
 
 
 
"A pessimist is one who makes difficulties of his oppurtunities and an optimist is one who makes oppurtunities of his difficulties". - Harry S. Truman
 
As much as I want to make diamonds from the under the pressure and to make the most out of what I was given, the problem is that I'm outnumbered in these psychologically taxing obstacles. If I can't win at the end of the day, my optimism naturally goes out the window with all hope I had at putting an end to these bad situations.
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Besides being cold, fairly decent. Applied for a couple of jobs, took an assessment for another, did the grocery shopping, and got gas for $1.89 all before noon. I'd say I'm allowed to slack off the rest of the day now.  LOL

 

I hope everyone enjoys their weekend the best they can. :hugs:

Yay! A FF sighting :)

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As for me, I am feeling a little down. My husband is about to watch some tv and I may join him.

I really want cookies or pie, but it's getting late and it's cold outside.

Maybe make a hot chocolate? No. I don't want that much milk.

ill make some cookies have no clue how your gonna get them tho? maybe a teleporter!!!

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im in an ok mood... kind of wish i had someone to share my time with (be it may friends or a partner) but what can you do

Sorry your dad bailed on your plans.  He sounds kind of like mine.  I grew up with an absent father.  Always on business trips, never any real one on one father son type stuff.  He traveled a lot for business, so my mom and I became really close because she was there for me and me for her I guess.

 

With all the other dynamics put aside concerning my dad and me, it was when he had a stroke I knew he needed me.  I had been living in Hawaii for nine years but immediately moved back to the mainland to be with him.  We had five years to really know and love each other before he passed.  Not only did I hear him finally tell me he loved me for the first time, but we honestly became best friends.  Watching sports, going out, on the phone.  God, I miss him.

 

My point is, don't carry too much of a grudge against your dad. I hope you have the same  beautiful experience I had with mine which I thought would never happen.  It was the best closure I could ever have asked for.

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My point is, don't carry too much of a grudge against your dad. I hope you have the same  beautiful experience I had with mine which I thought would never happen.  It was the best closure I could ever have asked for.

 

i dont hold it against my dad ... he works 6 days a week.. so its kind of expected from time to time :P there is always going to be another day and heck worse comes to worse we where our kilts on st patricks day and celebrate my birthday the irish way! drunk hungover and cant remember what happened! lmao

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Scared to death!  My best friend, my rock, is having serious health problems.  We all don't know if he is going to make it. He lives in California and I live in Washington State.  The distance makes it hard.  But I try to do what I can from here to help.  Obviously will fly down if needed, although I am not in the best physical shape either.

 

Got off the phone with him tonight.  He said he feels like a loser because he has been so sick. And I replied I thought he was a winner and how proud I am of him being able to overcome these physical obstacles which have been more than anyone should endure.  Told him I am proud of him, and admire his strength and will to live.  I don't think I have even a third of what he has.

 

I've talked about this before in the forum many times.  I must admit, after I hang up with him I fall into tears.  I try to be his rock but it carries consequences like making my depression worse and very sad.  I know I need to take care of myself first, but can't let this situation loose.  Need to give him all the support I can muster.

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Being strong mentally or physically are both not my strong points right now.

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My point is, don't carry too much of a grudge against your dad. I hope you have the same  beautiful experience I had with mine which I thought would never happen.  It was the best closure I could ever have asked for.

 

im glad you and your dad where able to make up in the end... im sorry you lost your best friend.. i am sure he is with you guiding your hands and feet to where you need to be in life :)

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Scared to death!  My best friend, my rock, is having serious health problems.  We all don't know if he is going to make it. He lives in California and I live in Washington State.  The distance makes it hard.  But I try to do what I can from here to help.  Obviously will fly down if needed, although I am not in the best physical shape either.

 

Got off the phone with him tonight.  He said he feels like a loser because he has been so sick. And I replied I thought he was a winner and how proud I am of him being able to overcome these physical obstacles which have been more than anyone should endure.  Told him I am proud of him, and admire his strength and will to live.  I don't think I have even a third of what he has.

 

I've talked about this before in the forum many times.  I must admit, after I hang up with him I fall into tears.  I try to be his rock but it carries consequences like making my depression worse and very sad.  I know I need to take care of myself first, but can't let this situation loose.  Need to give him all the support I can muster.

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Being strong mentally or physically are both not my strong points right now.

highanxiety,

Your being there to offer him love and comfort and support are a gift and a strength you have. No one could blame you for feeling sad when you get off the phone with him.

I'm glad you can come here and lean on us for a while. Please know that even though I don't know you beyond what you share here, I am sorry for your grief and pain. Offering what comfort I can through cyberspace...

:hugs:

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Well, it's 23 degrees outside right now, I'm seriously considering hibernation as a viable option right about now, as I know this is just the beginning.  Who is going to go get my groceries? lol. Ugh.  I will have to work up the energy to go out in this weather.  Maybe I'll buy some nice hot cocoa to bring home...I hope it's better weather by you all for now. Such is life in the Windy City.  At least my happy light seems to be helping with my mood, so that's good. If any of you have seasonal depression, I'd highly recommend it. :)

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Woke up this morning feeling awful. Feelings left over from nightmares. Plus, I woke up at 3AM, not sure even why. It was too hot because the heater was set too high for the weather outside, but I don't think that's what woke me. And the nightmares came later, when I finally fell back asleep ~6:00. Woke up again at 8:12. And that was it, so roughly 5 hours of broken sleep. I was worried and dismayed, because I'm in the middle of prepping for the GRE still, which I take tomorrow. At least I'll have 6-7 hours to prep some more tomorrow before I have to go down there.

 

I'm trying to stay afloat. I had a couple of getting down on me yesterday, one of whom was just unbelievably rude even knowing that I was so stressed and under so much pressure with academic stuff. The other, my roommate, knows even about my health issues. But then she's ~20, so I'm trying to keep that in perspective. Now I'm about to go into a situation where I expect more people to thumb their noses at me, but I'm determined to stay positive and to keep moving in the direction of healing and growth. I know I can do this. I was worried about self-sabotage last night, that I won't let myself do well on the test. I have deep-seated issues with self-forgiveness and acceptance that I still need to work through, but I know I'm doing better than ever before in that regard. And I'm determined to push through and do whatever it takes to rise above all this, and to make it.

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