KidSurvivor2011 Posted October 28, 2015 Share Posted October 28, 2015 Someone I care about deeply.~ KS 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaniro Posted October 29, 2015 Share Posted October 29, 2015 My tooth kinda hurts. I don't feel like doing anything but laying here right now. I kinda want to eat. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
20YearsandCounting Posted October 29, 2015 Share Posted October 29, 2015 Heading to pdoc. I hate it. Don't think new meds are working but tired of the medicine merry-go-round. Never know how to express what I feel. Blarg.Hope it went well, illuminotreally. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
in the shadows Posted November 3, 2015 Share Posted November 3, 2015 I need stay quiet . Bury my feelings and thoughts. Better to be seen than heard . Nothing I say matters. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lady Mozzer Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I`m fighting the urge to self harm.But I`ve gone without it for a while now and I don`t want to give in and ruin it.I`m just hanging on tonight.I`m trying to fight it. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
20YearsandCounting Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I`m fighting the urge to self harm.But I`ve gone without it for a while now and I don`t want to give in and ruin it.I`m just hanging on tonight.I`m trying to fight it.Just for tonight, honey. You can get through this. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
20YearsandCounting Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I need stay quiet . Bury my feelings and thoughts. Better to be seen than heard . Nothing I say matters.You absolutely matter. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jesslynn111 Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Literally nothing. I'm listening to relaxing music and I feel like my mind is floating around on a little cloud taking a vacation. It is quite nice. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
20YearsandCounting Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I'm thinking of a couple of online friends who haven't been here in a few days. I really do worry about you guys when you don't show up for a few days. :verysad3: A young man in our community committed suicide this past weekend. And all I can think of is:Was he one of you? Did I miss an opportunity to speak/write a word of encouragement? Did he realize how much people care about him? Do you realize how much people care about you? You are wrong if you think no one will mourn you. Your family will, your friends will. And somewhere here online, I will. :hugs: 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
in the shadows Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Thank you 20yearsandcounting, and Lauryn. YOU Matter To Me Too , it's so Damn hard for me to care about myself at the moment. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
johnsvo Posted November 5, 2015 Share Posted November 5, 2015 Thinking about life in general, how some people are lucky to just fall asleep in the blink of an eye. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
20YearsandCounting Posted November 5, 2015 Share Posted November 5, 2015 Thank you 20yearsandcounting, and Lauryn.YOU Matter To Me Too , it's so Damn hard for me to care about myself at the moment.Sometimes I had to keep going because even though I didn't give a crap about myself, I didn't want to cause others pain. It'll get easier eventually. I'm glad you're here. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaniro Posted November 5, 2015 Share Posted November 5, 2015 I want to go out and get my haircut. I want to watch Fantastic Energy. I need to eat. I want to do things and this is weird. I know this good feeling is going to inevitably end. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nissala Posted November 6, 2015 Share Posted November 6, 2015 I'm 52 years old and what do I have to show for all the years I've worked? I live in a double wide with a leaking roof, I have no job, no friends, no significant other, nothing of value, no shoulder to cry on and nowhere to turn for help.... 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cupcake_girl Posted November 6, 2015 Share Posted November 6, 2015 I got in my head that I want an aquarium.. don't ask me why haha but I can't stop thinking about it. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
20YearsandCounting Posted November 7, 2015 Share Posted November 7, 2015 I'm 52 years old and what do I have to show for all the years I've worked? I live in a double wide with a leaking roof, I have no job, no friends, no significant other, nothing of value, no shoulder to cry on and nowhere to turn for help....You have us, for what it counts, dear. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
illuminotreally Posted November 7, 2015 Share Posted November 7, 2015 We are going to a local roller derby match this evening. I only remember the 80s roller derbies on TV. Don't know what to expect tonight but have high hopes it will be entertaining. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mikayla Posted November 7, 2015 Share Posted November 7, 2015 I want to go out and get my haircut. I want to watch Fantastic Energy. I need to eat. I want to do things and this is weird. I know this good feeling is going to inevitably end.Why should it end? Well, my good feeling has not started yet but probably it waits for me i don't know where and it can't wait to shock me and surprise... 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaniro Posted November 8, 2015 Share Posted November 8, 2015 I want to go out and get my haircut. I want to watch Fantastic Energy. I need to eat. I want to do things and this is weird. I know this good feeling is going to inevitably end.Why should it end? Well, my good feeling has not started yet but probably it waits for me i don't know where and it can't wait to shock me and surprise... It always ends. Its hard for me not to look for that ending and enjoy the good feelings while they're happening. But for now, I'm still feeling okay. Mentally, at least. Physically, not as much, but hopefully that'll get better soon. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hocico Posted November 9, 2015 Share Posted November 9, 2015 (edited) I wish I knew what to do, why do women have to be such a mystery. The touch of her lips is all I canthink about and I want more but I have a feeling it is going to end in tears. I should have walked away before it go to this stage but I am drawn like a moth to a flame when itcomes to these sort of women. Why can't I like the nice girls I should be old enough to know better :verysad3: Edited November 9, 2015 by hocico 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nissala Posted November 9, 2015 Share Posted November 9, 2015 I have to go help my daughter pack because she is being evicted and has be out by tomorrow.I hate the way my son treats our 14 year old dog, who has always been loyal to him and now that he's old he just ignores him.I'm sad because I have no money to help my daughter or pay my car payment. I hate feeling sad and panicky all the time....I hate my illness and wish it would just go away!or my doctor would put me on the right meds to help me be able to function.... 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KidSurvivor2011 Posted November 9, 2015 Share Posted November 9, 2015 Giving up~ KS 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sairyss Posted November 9, 2015 Share Posted November 9, 2015 wondering when will the memories stop so i can possibly get a decent night sleep 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
law055car Posted November 9, 2015 Share Posted November 9, 2015 where I work there is a lot of drama and people get away with things when they should have been fired. Nothing is getting done about it and it keeps getting worse. If I did those things I would be out the door. How do I let things go and not let it get to me so much. My boss is sick of me complaining about it and its hard not to see what is going on.I was told only when I give up total control and trust God I will get what I have been looking for in my life then I will be truly happy. I have been praying and trying my best to not let it get to me but I need more help how can I not let things get to me at work? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaniro Posted November 10, 2015 Share Posted November 10, 2015 My tooth is sore, but it'll get better. I need to take a shower, I should go do it. I'm happy with who I'm working with tonight. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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