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well i have officially hit rock bottom...

i have only 5 friends that i hardly talk to and havent seen in a year...

i have no job... i live at my moms house and sleep on an air mattress

i have no community... the pagan community i belonged to has shunned me

because of my ex's mom....

so hear i am in the depths of hell... reaching out to strangers for a little bit of light

an in hopes that something may change soon.... ... . . .

 

I've been at rock bottom and it's scary but it's only up from there. Please believe me that things will fall back into place.

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well it's been fun these past couple of months talking to you guys. i got a lot out of the site, but it is clear that this is no longer a safe space for me to be. i am not going to put up with continuing to get attacked even after i apologized to everyone. it is sad to me because that means my sources of emotional support just got fewer. but there is only so much i'm going to put up with.

i wish you all well, i wish you all healing. 

goodbye.

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Thank you so very much, all....we're now talking it through. This morning we had broken up. It was the most terrible feeling, I was heartbroken. I don't know how things will work out.... thank you so very much for the support!!! Much love & big hugs to all.

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Very angry.

 

I'm telling ya there's something going on in the universe. Everyone is on edge.

 

Today I feel tired (surprise!) and worried about money/career. :( I'm trying to remain as positive as possible about this new job. The universe is one big boomerang and what you say can/will come to pass. I'm not superstitious but I believe your thoughts (positive and negative) determine results. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies...and I'm not talking about depression, just life in general.

 

mercury is in retrograde...

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well it's been fun these past couple of months talking to you guys. i got a lot out of the site, but it is clear that this is no longer a safe space for me to be. i am not going to put up with continuing to get attacked even after i apologized to everyone. it is sad to me because that means my sources of emotional support just got fewer. but there is only so much i'm going to put up with.

i wish you all well, i wish you all healing. 

goodbye.

 

I'm so sorry that people didn't understand where you were coming from. I definitely understood it. People are so quick to jump to conclusions that they don't see how hurtful they are being to others. *hugs* I hope you have a chance to heal.

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Looking back I'm not sure which post you mean. I "like" posts to show that I have read them and to give my support.. this is supposed to be a warm, nurturing and supportive environment for all & I feel for everyone on here who is suffering. We are all suffering in one way or another. We already lost one member today because of a post that was made, which makes me very, very sad.

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Havehope I'm surprised that you liked my post but are still giving hugs to guys like sal.... Makes me think you missed the point I was making. :/

I'm not sure what your point is or if you're trying to stir up conflict, which is not a good way to be on a depression forum. I have been an active member on this forum for well over a year. I "like" posts to show that I have read them. I feel for everyone on here who is suffering. We are all suffering in one way or another. We already lost one member today because of a post that was made, which makes me very, very sad.
I'm not trying to stir up conflict. My point is that you guys all ganged up on my friend and I was trying to show that there are two sides to every story. You guys missed one side by a mile and frankly it made me angry. I don't get angry often... But I've seen this type of behavior here before and I want it to stop.
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well it's been fun these past couple of months talking to you guys. i got a lot out of the site, but it is clear that this is no longer a safe space for me to be. i am not going to put up with continuing to get attacked even after i apologized to everyone. it is sad to me because that means my sources of emotional support just got fewer. but there is only so much i'm going to put up with.

i wish you all well, i wish you all healing. 

goodbye.

 

 

 

Havehope I'm surprised that you liked my post but are still giving hugs to guys like sal.... Makes me think you missed the point I was making. :/

I'm not sure what your point is or if you're trying to stir up conflict, which is not a good way to be on a depression forum. I have been an active member on this forum for well over a year. I "like" posts to show that I have read them. I feel for everyone on here who is suffering. We are all suffering in one way or another. We already lost one member today because of a post that was made, which makes me very, very sad.

 

 

Stardreamer, I'm sorry if you feel attacked. I don't think that was ever anyone's intention.  We're a group of human beings, we're not always going to agree with each other and most of the time, that's okay. I'm sorry you feel like you need to leave the site. I can't speak for everyone but I"m pretty d@mn sure no one wanted you to leave because we voiced our opinion on what you said to Brian because we know what you described was not Brian at all and was not his situation. I don't know if you'll see this or not but I just needed to put it out there. Whether you stay or go, I wish you the best.

 

Dragonwings, I think your comment was way below the belt and completely unnecessary, backing up another member is one thing but being blatantly disrespectful is another. 

 

Havehope, I'm glad that you are doing better tonight.

 

That's my two cents for the night.

 

(((Hugs)))

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Dragonwings, I was not a part of that at all, so you are wrong in stating that. I'm ducking out of this since I wasn't even involved in this and did not comment on it. And your comment towards Brian was rude. I agree with Freckled. This is supposed to be a safe place, not a place for rudeness.

 

And thank you Freckled, I appreciate your note.. I am feeling a little better.

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I'm new to this. I just need to try something different. It's been a very difficult day. Feeling numb and alot of sadness

Hi Underdog, welcome to DF, and you're definitely not alone.. so very sorry for your pain and sadness... you can talk as openly about it here as you want to... there's a ton of support available to you here, it's a wonderful community full of many wonderful people. Sending a big ((((HUG)))) your way!!

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I'm new to this. I just need to try something different. It's been a very difficult day. Feeling numb and alot of sadness

:welcomeani: I hope you find some comfort in the site and knowing you aren't alone at all. There are many of us that have days that are more difficult than others. As havehope said, this is a great community. I hope you find some peace soon. (((hugs)))

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Beat!  Had a really good (for me, anyway!) workout, got back about fifteen minutes ago.

 

Doctor appointment in less than three hours.  General check-up, and to discuss the pain and soreness in my feet.

 

Vacillating on meditation/practice this evening.  I've been up since 7am, and I'm really... beat right now.

 

Mentally?  Not too bad today.  Strange.

RatBoy, Glad you are had a good workout and day in general.  I am curious about the pain and soreness in you feet.  I have had pain in my left foot especially.  Interested to hear what your doctor says if you guys talk about it.  Can't work out with this the way I like.  Can do upper body, but no cardio.

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Had my first session with my new therapist today.  It went really well.  I think I have finally found the therapist I have been looking for. Looking forward to our future sessions.  What a relief to find someone who really gets it.  I told him that the forum has been a great support for me and I think I would be lost without it.  Have many of you to thank, especially those that helped me ask the right questions and set goals.  He was impressed.  Couldn't have done it without you.

Thank you!!!!! 

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Had my first session with my new therapist today. It went really well. I think I have finally found the therapist I have been looking for. Looking forward to our future sessions. What a relief to find someone who really gets it. I told him that the forum has been a great support for me and I think I would be lost without it. Have many of you to thank, especially those that helped me ask the right questions and set goals. He was impressed. Couldn't have done it without you.

Thank you!!!!!

That's awesome news. Hope the progress continues.

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Glad to finally have had my root canal treatment done and to be out of pain.  Only a little discomfort after the procedure, but I feel so much better now.

 

Also happy that I finally found a specialist (endodontist) that I can work with.  He was great.  So gentle and patient with me.

 

JJ

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Well, this has been an interesting couple of days on this site for me and for others.  I just want to say that I wish everyone the best, even those who think I was wrong or perhaps over sensitive in this little dust up.  We are humans and misunderstandings occur.  I am far from perfect.  I would hate to see anyone leave who needs this community.  We are all here for each other, and that's a beautiful thing.  I am sure that stardreamer did not mean me any ill will.  I think she was asking me to ask myself some questions - and they are very good questions.  She could not know that they are questions I ask myself all the time - and she couldn't know this because, sadly, a lot of males don't consider these issues.  I think her first post was poorly worded and she said that to me. I am satisfied. She is looking out for herself and other women - and God knows, in these days of Bill Cosby and a thousand other men, she should be, and so should we all!

 

For my own part, by way of explanation for my response, I am very sensitive to anything that seems to be accusing me of less than gentlemanly behaviour towards anyone, especially women. The respect I show others, especially women, is one of my few sources of pride.  It is my very self identity.  I believe that because of my depression, I have some strong empathy skills.  It's why I identify with as much as I can as an old white dude with women, minorities, LGBT folks, etc.  It just hurts me deeply when I feel that all that has been called into question.  Perhaps I was irrational in the way I responded.  I don't know. I am too close to the situation to know what the answer to that is.  If I was, I apologize.  Again, I think all the posts come from an authentic place and I don't believe stardreamer was accusing me of anything.

 

Peace and love to all!!!

 

Brian

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Wow looks like I missed some stuff.... I just want to say I'm a huge peace and love hippie type of person and I love you all and want you all to feel good!  So wishing everyone lots of hugs and feeling betters and stuff (((((hugs everybody))))

 

I'm actually feeling pretty good today.  I have no idea why so I'm going to just roll with it.

 

Edit: Now I'm freaking annoyed with my mother.  I was feeling so good earlier ***

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