salparadise6132 Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 havehope and anita sending massive ((((((((hugs)))))))) to you both. :( 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
neurotic_lady89 Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Just popping in to let you guys know I miss you tons and am doing okay! I'm not in a depression - just having more issues with Comcast. I'll reply to all messages as soon as I can (most likely tomorrow). (((((Hugs))))) Christina 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
havehope Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch OUCH. Thank you for the hugs, Brian.... I need them badly. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sairyss Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 It looks like my so called wonderful boyfriend and I are breaking up. I'm sorry for everyone else's struggles, I am just a bit tunnel visioned about my own right now.we are here for you if you need someone... i am going thru a break up at the moment so maybe we can be there for each other :( 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 THIS IS WHATs on my mind::::: Your a lazy ass Biotch. A stupid one too. Your making money . What does it matter how many rooms? Just stay out of my life . Your to ****ing nut 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
watalife Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Thats the type of family I have 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Abandonedalways Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 So i guess my cold went from my head... to my... stomach. I guess it wanted to fool me when it took a pit stop at my chest. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
novangel Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 sorry for the second post but im just so upset i can hear my parents fight. they're fighting because of me. im always the cause of their fights. i dont even know what to do now. How are you the cause? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stardreamer Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Thanks for the support everyone. Let's move on. I have. I would just say that language is important. I will research the term and see if it has those negative connotations and then decide if I will continue to use it. But equally important in language is employing it in a tactful, unassuming manner, especially with people one doesn't know on a depression forum (but anywhere in public, really). I am a life long learner. I would invite a private message asking me if I "have considered that maybe I am thinking/being..." and I would consider it. It's the way I roll. I think we can all see that a public post that can potentially harm my standing within this lovely community is very hurtful and, dare I say, dangerous. For the record, my frustrated use of that term comes from internal feelings only - no expectations of others. I am wondering my I am always considered the "friend" but not the "heat" if you know what I mean LOL. I feel I must be doing something wrong. Let's move on.I am sorry that the post I made caused so many problems. If I had known this would happen, I would never have posted it.I am sorry for any emotional hurt caused by my post. If I wanted to send that, I should have sent it over a private message. I apologize for not realizing that at the time.As Senordomino said, I did not intend it to be hostile or an attack. I only wanted you to consider the information about the terminology.I am sorry for any emotional ramifications caused by my post, and the manner in which I made it. 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
verDominai Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 It looks like my so called wonderful boyfriend and I are breaking up. I'm sorry for everyone else's struggles, I am just a bit tunnel visioned about my own right now. I'm so sorry :( sorry for the second post but im just so upset i can hear my parents fight. they're fighting because of me. im always the cause of their fights. i dont even know what to do now. :c ((((hug)))) 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Alliee Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 tired 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Purist Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 So cyclical. I was okay a week ago but have been a complete mess the last few days. And to top it all off, I accidentally took a double dose of Ativan the other night, 8mgs total, so I have been zombiefied, for the most part. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RatBoy Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Beat! Had a really good (for me, anyway!) workout, got back about fifteen minutes ago. Doctor appointment in less than three hours. General check-up, and to discuss the pain and soreness in my feet. Vacillating on meditation/practice this evening. I've been up since 7am, and I'm really... beat right now. Mentally? Not too bad today. Strange. 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Adventurer Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 I ended up going after some convincing from another person on another site and I admitted the harm to myself. Now, I have promised not to hurt myself or end my life till group therapy begins. I am struggling to find hope when a part of me doesn't want to get better. I was also told today by my counselor that I will never improve unless I start reaching out and not bottling up. The worse thing about hearing this is that I know it is true. I had an emotional breakdown after hearing this. I just miss those that I have lost. My perfectionism gets in the way of me reaching out because it makes me imperfect if I do.hmm...I typed more than I thought I would. I'll stop for now. 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
salparadise6132 Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Very angry. 8 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sairyss Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Tomorrow makes the one week of being separated from my love.... I really miss him and I wish there was some way to be with him.... I am so depressed lonely sad... I am almost always crying... How do you start over completely ... No place to live.. No job... No love.. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Abandonedalways Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Much love to everyone. Sorry havehope about the breakup. 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freckledface Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Much love to everyone. Sorry havehope about the breakup. Ditto. Overall, today has been the best day of the month so far. 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renee2 Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Tomorrow makes the one week of being separated from my love.... I really miss him and I wish there was some way to be with him.... I am so depressed lonely sad... I am almost always crying... How do you start over completely ... No place to live.. No job... No love.. I wish I had an answer to your question, Sairyss. Starting over is never easy. The initial movement towards the goal seems to be the hardest. When I left my ex I wasn't prepared. I moved in with a friend and though I had a job it was an hours drive from her house and the pay was really bad. It was winter and I fear driving in the snow. I stayed with her for a year and then moved to an apartment I could afford on my own. I had to work a lot of overtime and be very conservative. I was depressed and probably had some ptsd stuff going on. The work I did, though the pay was poor, was probably about all I could have handled at the time. I was a caregiver. I went to people's houses and sat with them. I did their cooking, some housekeeping, and offered them companionship. In trying to be joyful for them I thought a bit less about my situation. It's been two years now and my situation is completely different. I just want you to know that though it doesn't seem like it right now things can improve for you. It's so very difficult and I understand your pain. love to you 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dragonwings Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 In a relatively good mood. Connected with my gods earlier, and I feel much better for it. Will likely do that again given the chance. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Realreason Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 exhausted, overwhelmed, tired of having to watch the pile of things I want/need to do increase without so much as a hope to do any of them. 9 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renee2 Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 It looks like my so called wonderful boyfriend and I are breaking up. I'm sorry for everyone else's struggles, I am just a bit tunnel visioned about my own right now. So sorry Havehope. Be gentle with yourself. Breakups suck. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dolphin2013 Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 I ended up going after some convincing from another person on another site and I admitted the harm to myself. Now, I have promised not to hurt myself or end my life till group therapy begins. I am struggling to find hope when a part of me doesn't want to get better. I was also told today by my counselor that I will never improve unless I start reaching out and not bottling up. The worse thing about hearing this is that I know it is true. I had an emotional breakdown after hearing this. I just miss those that I have lost. My perfectionism gets in the way of me reaching out because it makes me imperfect if I do.hmm...I typed more than I thought I would. I'll stop for now.You're reaching out here, and that's a start. We're here to listen and support you as best as we can. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sairyss Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 well i have officially hit rock bottom...i have only 5 friends that i hardly talk to and havent seen in a year...i have no job... i live at my moms house and sleep on an air mattressi have no community... the pagan community i belonged to has shunned mebecause of my ex's mom....so hear i am in the depths of hell... reaching out to strangers for a little bit of lightan in hopes that something may change soon.... ... . . . 7 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
novangel Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Very angry. I'm telling ya there's something going on in the universe. Everyone is on edge. Today I feel tired (surprise!) and worried about money/career. :( I'm trying to remain as positive as possible about this new job. The universe is one big boomerang and what you say can/will come to pass. I'm not superstitious but I believe your thoughts (positive and negative) determine results. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies...and I'm not talking about depression, just life in general. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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