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I want to throw responsibility out the window, run away on a long sugar cane toad taxi (stolen from highanxiety's wonderful poem on the creativity thread - bc I have no imagination), to a pacific island & hide behind a palm tree.

I looked for this poem and did not find it... does anybody have a link
Creativity when depressed thread, at the top of the page :):

http://www.depressionforums.org/forums/topic/110329-creativity-when-depressed/page-7#entry1220600

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Feeling like garbage, just finished an online questionnaire for a low paying job, and through the whole thing I kept thinking that life is too complicated for most of the questions, always thinking "it depends", but I know those things are great at assessing people, so no doubt it will be revealed just how nuts I am and I won't get an interview, much less a job.

Plan B.

I know the feeling.  Online applications are the worst.  Hang in there

 

We must be applying for the same job! I did the same, if I answered truthfully... I wouldn't even hire myself. 

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despite working really hard for 8 days with no leisure time and not much sleep, i still failed to meet my deadline. i really needed to succeed in this to start improving my life, but my effort was not good enough. i feel crushed. this was my chance to make a better future for myself and i failed, yet again. i just got done writing the painful 'sorry i can't deliver your project on time' email.

it's really hard to keep caring about anything right now, but i have to finish this work. 

i feel guilty for needing the 3 hours sleep i got last night, and i feel guilty for needing to take time to eat.

i'm so tired of this existence sometimes, it's like so much of it is just being tortured. just living is so exhausting, with all this BS we have to deal with just so we don't starve to death. i'm tired of thinking i'm a horrible person for not being able to overcome these obstacles.

i am trying not to end up in a self-hate spiral which i had last night. i am doing my best not to start crying again.

 

i want to go to a place where no one has ever heard of money and where nobody has to slave away for people who don't care whether you are alive or dead or how much effort you made, who only care about whether you deliver their stuff on time or not. i want to go where time doesn't exist, and where there is no such thing as deadlines or bills or taxes, and where everyone is nice and caring and gives you hugs, and you get to be intoxicated on the beach all day long and have as much sex as you want or have a picnic on a faraway moon somewhere in space looking at the stars or a pretty planet or maybe a nebula. or maybe go somewhere where windchimes grow on trees and you can sit in a flower meadow and eat strawberries and hear the most beautiful music you ever heard rolling across the land.

 

stardreamer - sorry the project/work did not go as you wanted :(  On the plus side, and I mean big plus, your writing is fantastic.  I want to go there too!

 

Well, I had a nice night with my friend, though, I'm still on the DL (LOL - and that's OK with me).  She is very fragile and not thinking highly of herself and so we talked and hugged even kissed a little and I hope I was able to help her feel a little better about herself.  Anymore would have been so wrong.

 

So much to do today, plus Toronto Hamilton CFL Labour Day Classic, Blue Jays Red Sox.  

 

I hope you all have the best day possible.

 

Brian

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stardreamer - sorry the project/work did not go as you wanted :(  On the plus side, and I mean big plus, your writing is fantastic.  I want to go there too!

 

Well, I had a nice night with my friend, though, I'm still on the DL (LOL - and that's OK with me).  She is very fragile and not thinking highly of herself and so we talked and hugged even kissed a little and I hope I was able to help her feel a little better about herself.  Anymore would have been so wrong.

Thank you. And thanks for the comment about my writing. I have a couple of books I already wrote that I have not managed to find the time to publish yet, hopefully one day I will be able to get around to it

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This week has really been hot garbage for me mentally. I feel so inadequate on all sides. Read about this thing called a comfort/grounding box, and I'm going to make that as a project this week.

 

Usually I like to read the posts here to see how everyone is doing but I don't think it's good for me right now.

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I thought I was getting a cold but maybe it`s just allergies or something.Mentally I just feel so depressed about my life right now.I was feeling really bad last night but I feel a bit better this morning.That`s my pattern I think .I start feeling pretty bad as the day goes on.

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My cat got adopted from the temporary home at the animal protection services center, so I'm happy for her that she's getting a new family.

 

I looked around the site and searched but can't figure out how to make a poll. It says there may be a "manage polls" link and I did not see anything like that. How do you make a poll?

 

Create a new topic and click "manage topic poll" to the right of the area you input the topic name into.

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I'm not feeling the greatest today.  I slept all day yesterday, which was my day off, so now I'm feeling sorry for myself that I didn't do anything enjoyable this holiday weekend.  The sleep must have been needed though.  It wasn't one of those I can't sleep but want to lay around days.  It was down for the count, drooling on the pillow, you are done sleeps. 

 

I'm trying to be content that I went to the store for healthy food and took out my garbage and did my dishes before I go to work tonight, but I'm feeling sort of lame that this is all I can manage.  I can't figure out why some days I'm so happy with just this much and some days it feels like such a boring life.  I wish I weren't so complicated.

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This evening is one of those times that I feel the need to take a break from myself. I've been hanging out with myself for far too long. It would be a different story if I was a person more to my liking, but I'm not. So this evening I feel that it would be okay  to slowly fade away and die. Not that I will be that lucky., but one can hope. Right ?

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I feel like giving up. I'm completely unsatisfied with my job. plus its stressing me out!! I have nothing to look forward to. When I do force myself to do something i like I dont' get any satisfaction out of it.  It feels like my life is crumbling around me. The house is a complete mess and I have no motivation to clean it. My wife and I can spend hours on it and it doesn't seem to make a difference. Starting to have family problems with my adult son who living here. Its just crap I don't want or should not have to deal with. He has a ton of problems and I can't handle all my crap and his crap and keep the peace between everyone in the house. why can't I be happy and satisfied. I have a great wife, great kids, a good job (despite all my bi-ching about it). I don't understand why I can't be happy with what I have. Its not like I necessarily want more. I could always use a little more money but on the whole I ought to feel "blessed", for lack of a better word, with my situation. Why can't I be satisfied?

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I feel super at being alive after major heart surgery 12 weeks ago and surviving a heart attack and 2 strokes. I am now fit and well and driving again.

I still do a lot of voluntary work with difficult and disabled kids and love my life.

I was 69 last week.

Jimbow

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