Hey guys! I'm new to this forum and I wanted to start off posting something that's been on my mind every single day. I've been diagnosed with depression and social anxiety in my third year of university. It's had a profound effect on my life. I've been having the same recurring thoughts over and over each day and it's making me have mixed feelings about it. I took a Design and Technology class throughout my high school years and found that it has opened the doors to my interests in architecture. I decided against it in grade 12 for a few reasons. One was the stress from my family. My sister who pretty much acted as my mother all my life put some stress on me. She didn't voice her opinion about it, but I could sense that she wanted me to go into the sciences. It was a strong point, but I didn't see myself going anywhere with it. The second reason was due to the universities requiring a portfolio. My teacher saw a lot of potential in me and tried to push me into applying into architecture, but I didn't tell him that I barely anything to contribute to a portfolio. I think it was being afraid of embarrassment or something. I didn't take any other arts classes and didn't do anything else that would help. The last reason was the interview portion of the application. Due to my social anxiety I felt a lot of anxiety just thinking about the prospect of an interview, especially long and personal ones. Even after all that, I still went into biochemistry. That was the year I first found out about social anxiety from a friend I met there. He mentioned he has similar feelings of anxiety and fear in social situations and it all went away after taking up his first job in fast food. He warned me to take a job asap or else I'll be having a lot of trouble later on in life. He was right on that point. I felt a lot of social withdrawal after first year and began hating biochemistry in my second year. I kept thinking back to my poor choices of neglecting what I really wanted to do. I should have stayed back a year in high school and focus on building my portfolio. I failed a few courses and gave up studying and quickly switched to attending school in Toronto because I could get assistance on my social anxiety. I still chose to go to school because I felt that I would disappoint my family if I told that I would be taking a year off. My third year, I chose computer science as a major randomly. I started going to a psychiatrist. Didn't help a lot though. I failed a couple more courses and stopped seeing my psychiatrist entirely because the meetings didn't help me at all. I'm on my off year right now. Seeing a psychotherapist with more progress than before. My focus: - continue therapy - volunteer at a couple of places for a month or so - take up a job, do some career exploration even though my mind seems set on architecture - asking professionals in their job - job shadowing Not sure why I'm posting this, but any comments would be great!