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    Last year of undergrad .__.<br /><br />Reading, politics, nature, travel, simple pleasures, swimming, sauna, snowboarding, cute things, geeky stuff

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  1. I hope you had a fantastic day :)

  2. I hope you have a fantastic day :)

  3. Happy Birthday :)

  4. Saw Hillary Clinton speak on our campus today! Very exciting. Couldn't break through the crowd to shake her hand though...
  5. Eastern Promises - the Turkish bath scene = O_O Viggo is so good. Daywatch - crazy-entertaining Russian movie.
  6. Thanks everyone for your replies. Fishguy, yeah, I was feeling very negative when I wrote this topic. I had a very stressful week in college and I did poorly on a couple of major assignments, I felt very discouraged...i'm getting better at staving off those negative thoughts...but it is a long and difficult process. Sheepwoman, no I haven't been seeing a therapist or anything. It's really hard for me to talk about myself and my problems face to face with another human being, and I'm so hypersensitive that each bad experience with a person leaves a scar that takes me forever to get over, so I haven't really worked up the courage to do therapy yet...plus I'll be leaving here in a few months when I graduate. Lizzy, Erik I think you've hit the nail on the head. Part of why I feel so insecure is because I haven't really found something that I'm really great at, and I don't really feel like I belong anywhere. I want to find a workplace or an organization, or a community where I feel unique and where I feel like I'm contributing in a way that no one else can. I want to be recognized and appreciated like everyone else, but at the same time, I'm incredibly shy, I hate being the center of attention, and I hate standing out...it's a real dilemma. Anyway, I spent a lot of my teen years trying to be what everyone wanted me to be, and failing, and I never really figured out what I actually was...when I went to college, I swung in the opposite direction and did the f---you phase, for awhile...I'm more balanced now, but still very uncertain. ((shadowless)) - yes, i'm very very obsessive with my thoughts. very obsessive. I dunno about mentally sensitive though...I think I'm emotionally very sensitive....but not mentally so. :/ Thanks though....: ) Shauny - i'm in a similar situation. I usually only have one or two people at a time that I can really talk to. Usually that's enough for me, but it does sometimes get lonely when you have interests or want to do things that those people aren't interested in.
  7. I've felt like this most of my life, but lately, I've just been feeling incredibly insecure. The fact is I have no sense of self outside of what others think of me, and I resent people who do. I'm terribly jealous of one of my best friends because she's ten times smarter and more personable than I will ever be. Lately, I've been so resentful of her that I bristle inside whenever she talks about someone who is very intelligent/accomplished, because I somehow manage to take it as a snide, indirect remark about how not intelligent/accomplished I am. I'm having such a hard time at school forming relationships with my professors and people of authority in general, because I resent them too. Why can't I just forget about myself for one second and learn from people, and like people for who they are instead of how they make me feel? It's so, so hard for me to approach relationships with other people in a non-calculating way....I think I know what it means to be emotionally mature, but I just can't seem to get there. Just really frustrated...my personality is broken, where can I get a new one?
  8. Procrastinated all weekend...first bout of serious procrastination so far this semester, and during the one weekend when I can least afford it. Stressed out, overwhelmed...feeling very guilty and angry at myself. Going to do try and salvage what's left of my weekend by getting something done before I go to sleep tonight.
  9. Received some encouragement from my boss today. Lovely weather.
  10. Hey Christopher, Interesting topic - I'm also very shy and don't talk to people much in RL, with the exception of a few close friends and family. I used to participate in written RPGs (like collaborative story-telling with each person writing thru the perspective of a character or two), I don't think I'd be able to do one in person though. Kudos to you!
  11. Yeah, i've been keeping an eye on Spore. It looks like a fun and quirky game, and it'll be interesting to see their approach to evolution. But, yeah, I don't think it'll be as popular as The Sims.
  12. Last night I dreamed about hampsters. Little dwarf hampsters. There were 3 of them, and they were really cute. 2 of them were cream-colored, the 3rd was gray. The cream ones were really competitive and aggressive and were monopolizing the food bowl. The little gray one was listless and kind of hangin back. I was worried that he wouldn't get any food, so I kept nudging him with my finger towards the food bowl, but it didn't seem like he had much of an appetite. I think he might have been sick.
  13. Ooh, those do sound lovely... Just looking forward to November....when I can go out again. Until then I'm chained to the desk in my room to study like I did all yesterday and like I'm gonna do tonight. I actually do enjoy studying quietly in my room, with some relaxing music on, and a hot cup of tea...I just hate the pressure of exams.
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