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  1. Thanks for the info and for the book recommendation, My pdoc switched me from Lexapro because he said it was too stimulating for me. I had an episode this last October, where I just couldn't function whatsoever. It's a weird story. I had been on Lexapro for 5 years and doing so good. I was always on 10mg but for the last year I had been at 5 mg because I felt confident enough to eventually quit the medication all together. Well in September I started feeling a little agitated but I just kinda shrugged it of, thinking it was just a phase, cause I've had them before. They would just last a few days. But it just wouldn't go away. I became very anxious and had this feeling of enlightened self awareness or hyper alertness. It's very unpleasant, to actually be stuck inside your thoughts and not be able to get out of it. Just, EVERYTHING was bothering me. When I told the pdoc about it, he said the Lexapro was too stimulating...What? I've been on the thing for 5 years??? I came here to ask you if we could increase the dosage? I didn't like his answer but I said I'm going to listen to him. He prescribed me Seroquel, he said that should calm the over thinking down. Well it would work for a week or so, and then we'd have to increase the dose again, until I reached 200mg and said enough, how muh higher are we going to go? (I've read alot about this medication and I'm aware of the short term and long term side effects). I told the doctor that I was still very depressed and still anxious. I said I wanted to try another SSRI. That's when he suggesed Celexa. It was either Celexa or Remeron. I picked Celexa because it was the closest to Lexapro and I had such a good run on Lexapro. And that pretty much sums it up...I don't know if it makes any sense, I've left out lots of details, such as going off Lexapro in 2 weeks, the slepless nights, the loss of appetite, the 10 lbs weight loss (I'm already skinny as it is), the 100 times crying out to my husband or my poor family, the 3 weeks off of work, and the scary, dark thoughts that you never want to go through... I've come a long way so I'm not ready to give up on Celexa! I'm having a better day today, but I'm so very careful with myself, every little sign, every little red flag, I try to spot them from far away, so I can be ready. It is so comforting to know that I'm not the only one, although I wish you didn't have to go through similar situations...But we're in this together!
  2. I will be keeping a close eye on this thread. I'm anxious to know what your doctor said. I was on Lexapro before and I never felt this way. I'm afraid to switch though, I've been through so much that I'm not ready to give up on Celexa yet. I'm HOPING that the 40mg will do the trick. Good luck to us! I feel shakey, I checked my hands to see if they were shaking but they're not. But they feel like they are. My whole body feels like it's shaking. And I feel physically sick inside my head. Like there's something wrong...it's very scary.
  3. Thanks, that encourages me. I will definitely discuss it with my pdoc. I was on Lexapro 10mg before and I really, really liked it. He said it was too stimulating though, which is weird to me because I felt so much calmer.
  4. I'm pretty much in the same boat as you 80wales. I've been on Citalopram 20mg for 5 weeks now, and although I saw some improvement in the first few weeks, it seems that this old jittery feeling is trying to come back and it's scaring me. I feel wired (nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach), and I also feel this head tension you're talking about... Let's keep eachother updated on our journey, if you don't mind! I see my pdoc on the 17th and we'll figure something out from there I guess...
  5. I've been on Citalopram for 5 weeks now. First week at 10mg and the last 4 weeks at 20mg. I had the yawning and a bit of jaw clenching. Decreased appetite, and the newest side effect is feeling jittery and very nervous. I absolutely hate the way I feel right now. Going to talk to my pdoc about it next time I see it. I don't know if I should increase the dosage to 40mg or just try another med instead. I guess we'll see.
  6. Thanks lukn4hope, I appreciate the input. The best way I can describe how I feel at the moment is very jittery. I have this nervous, uneasy feeling that I can't seem to shake off. If I didn't physically feel this way, I'm pretty sure I'd feel great. I will certainly bring this up to my pdoc next time I see him, which is on the 17th of this month...seems like forever away but o well, there's always Ativan that can help in the mean time. I was supposed to go back to work from the Holidays today but I called my team leader and asked for another vacation day. It really sucks because there's no reason for me to be on vacation but I just feel so nervous right now. I don't really have any intruding thoughts except thinking about how wired I feel. I wanted to give the 20mg at least 6-8 weeks but at the same time I think I'm ready to up it to 40mg. Or I'm just hoping it'll stop that feeling.
  7. I'm currently on Celexa/Citalopram 20mg, for about a month. The first week of that, I was on 10mg. Overall there has been quite a bit of improvement. My main issue that we're trying to work on is enlightened self awareness or hyper alertness. I tend to think about thinking, analysing and pretty much thinking out loud, which cause really bad anxiety. Especially when I try to move on and not worry about it, it always seem to be worse when I try to just get over it. Anyways, my question is, how did you feel, going from 20mg to 40mg. Did it help with the anxiety? Did it help with the intruding thoughts? Did you notice an improvement from 20mg to 40mg? I'm starting to be anxious again and it's seriously freaking me out. I'm wondering if the meds pooped out on me, but how could they, this early on? Don't they just keep on working? Please help...
  8. So how do you feel now? Do you find that the Cipralex 20mg helps? If so, then it's working :)
  9. Have any of you guys tried medication? Has it helped or stayed the same or made it worse? I'm currently on Citalopram 20mg and it seems to help. It gives me hope. :)
  10. Thanks Lindahurt, It did help lower the anxiety quite a bit. Now I'm waiting for it to help me kinda get out of my own head. This feeling of over self awareness that I don't like. Overall though, there has been an improvement.
  11. My question is, I was on 10mg for the first week, and then 20mg for the past week and a few days. Now do we count the first week at 10mg as being therapeutic or we start counting when I started the 20mg? Thanks for your help!
  12. Well, I had written this huge paragraph but I guess I pressed on the wrong key and it erased itself. Anyways, I hope I can remember everything I wrote... It is very comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way. I read posts about things and events making people feel depressed. Things such as a break up, or the pressure of doing good at work or at school, or money issues, etc. And I understand feeling depressed for things like that. However, what about fighting a mental oppression or a mental obsession, all day, EVERYDAY? Not just thinking about it 3-4 times a day, but countless times? Trying to fight it off only makes it worse. Over analyzing my own thoughts, my own actions, my own self being...I envy people at work just thinking freely and not realizing that they're actually thinking. They just think about whatever and life goes on. I wish I could switch heads with them. I want to wander in my thoughts without realizing it. To me it's way more than just feeling down. It's a constant struggle, every waking moment of the day. That's not human. And I wonder how I got myself there. I've had a few episodes in the past and I always seemed to be able to snap out of it eventually, with the help of meds, but this time I wonder if I will ever be able to snap out of it and it's quite scary. Maybe it's also because I've only been on the meds since 2 weeks, with the first week only being half the dosage. I hope that's what it is. I wish I could rewind my mind back to 7 years ago, or have major amnesia and be back to my old bubbly, carefree, anxiousless self. Does this happen to you guys: You're reading an article or just reading the forums and then oh, you realize hey, I'm reading, then reading the words out loud in your head, etc. Or watching a movie but being anxious the whole time because you have this over awareness feeling in the back of your mind? How can someone just live like that? It gets the best of you eventually. Just know that you are not alone. That's quite comforting, however it doesn't take the issue away... Hang in there people!
  13. I was put on Celexa 10mg for a week (started feeling better only after 4 days!), and after a week I started 20mg. Been on 20mg for 4 days but I really don't know how to explain this but my mind is blank. I can't think about anything, really. It's freaking me out so of course that's all I can think about right now. I also experience hyper-awareness or hyper-sensitivity to everything about myself (especially inside my brain), almost as if I was stuck inside my head. Just analyzing my thought process and freaking out. If by any chance my mind gets to wander away and I don't notice it, it comes right back in a split second. My brain reminds me that I'm thinking and what should I be thinking about next. It's maddening. I can't go much longer like this. I do get to sleep good at night, with the help of sleep meds. Any input?
  14. I just started citalopram 11 days ago. I was on 10mg for the first week and then 20mg now, for 3 days. I've noticed that my appetite has decreased ALOT. I'm still in the beginning process of the medication and it can cause various side effects. Mine are increased anxiety, a little bit of sweating when I feel like I'm going to panick, decreased appetite and feeling like my mind is blank. I sure hope it goes away soon. Funny thing is that after day 4 on 10mg it's like a switch had been turned off and the anxiety was gone! I was so happy and I felt like I was getting closer to the old me again! Well after starting 20mg the anxiety crept back up and it's not so fun. But I gotta hang in there.
  15. 40mg Celexa = 20mg Lexapro 20mg Celexa = 10mg Lexapro Thats what i thought too, but look at this link: http://www.depressio...ated-to-celexa/ "A clinical trial of LEXAPRO in people with moderate to severe depression found that a dose of 10 mg per day of LEXAPRO was as effective as a dose of 40 mg a day of Celexa." It really isn't clear how much more effective 40 mg of Celexa is over 20 mg of Celexa. I just wanted to add that on Lexapro for about 5 years, the last yeat being on 5mg. After a while, it seemed to have pooped out on me so we upped the dosage back to 10 mg and it didn't help at all, in fact in made me worse. I taperred of and had been off the Lex for 2 weeks and just feeling horrible. My pdoc started me on Seroquel XR and it seemed to work but I would always start feeling bad again about a week after we would up the dosage. This was starting to make me feel really hopeless. I asked the pdoc if we could add an antidepressant, I thought about Paxil or Luvox. He said that those would be stimulating me too much, so he suggested Celexa/citalopram. I said what the heck, let's just do it. After 4 days of taking the Citalopram, I started feeling MUCH BETTER! I've been on the Citalopram for 6 days now and the anxiety is pretty much gone and my thoughts are much calmer and I feel like the old me again. I'm taking Citalopram 10mg and will be starting 20mg on Sunday. I can only imagine how good I will feel on 20!!! Are you taking Celexa/Citalopram just for anxiety, or for depression as well? I take it for both but mainly Anxiety in my case. Because it's the anxiety that brings the depression in my case.
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