undertheblackclouds

I frequently spend long spells feeling like this. I feel like it right now. I hide away and don't want to see or talk to anyone. I am also very moody and irritable. I am losing friends left right and centre, as it doesn't seem to matter how many times I reassure them its not them, I just wanna be alone, they don't seem to believe me and think I should just cheer up.

Hi there, I feel pretty much the same as you right now. I feel, that because I have been here so many times before and I just feel like I am never going to get any better. I am guessing that that is pretty much how you are feeling now. The thought of going through life like this is tough. Have you had any drug therapy at all? Please know that you aren't alone in these feelings.

Hi Matt, you aren't worthless at all , you are just going through depression right now. I feel the exact same as you right now. I feel like I live such a pointless existence, but that is a symptom of the illness. Please try to fight those negative thoughts.

Having a bad day today so jst want to try and get through the day. I am seeing my psychologist tonite.

Positive thinking is all I have. I have no other solution for this.

I have just discovered the "one step at a time" part of the forum and it is a god send. I am just blocking all thoughts of him leaving as they are making me worse.

Thankyou so much to you and Elise and everyone who has replied xxxx

I also registered for Job Seekers Allowance

I have only just been directed to this part of the forum and it is the part that I need the most. Today I have achieved major things considering my suicidal thoughts lately. I have cleaned the house, cleaned the rabbits and guinea pigs out and managed a bath. For me this has been a monumental day. I still feel like my existence is so worthless though.

I am not sure why they want all this info if you have not had that much time off work due to your illness, but some companies are like that. I am in the UK as well and I worked for a major telecomms company. I had alot of time off with my depression, which eventually led to me losing my job a few months ago and I know that I was sent to OH and they wanted evidence of everything all the time. I think it is just the way that some companies can be. Good luck with the sessions.

My mum keeps telling me that I can't just rely on the meds that I appear to be so resistant too, that I have to find something from within me to overcome this. I am trying positive thinking. Does anyone think that this can help? Its all i have got.