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Hi! Welcome to the forum, I'm glad you had the courage and joined.

Well, personally I tend to get more depressed when I am dealing with financial issues myself. It is a huge stress and a burden. Especially when times where you have to simply go without essentials because there simply isn't the money. It can feel shameful and like you said as it is a punishment. However you seem to be doing the right thing and trying to live within your means even if it is very hard. I've been "poor" my entire life, but I try not to let the lack of what I have define me. One thing that really helps is to not simply live a "Monastic" lifestyle. Allow yourself luxuries every once in awhile even if you can't afford it. This isn't forever either. As for things like medical bills, and therapy. Definitely check with your local hospitals financial aid department. They offer discounts and also can put you in touch with medication help funds.

You aren't alone, it's a common anxiety especially when you are having an attack. Has your therapist discussed breathing exercises to lower your heart rate? Your heart is a very resilient muscle and as a young and fairly healthy person there isn't really a chance that your heart will burst.

I don't believe so. The main ingredients in hookah are tobacco and shisha, neither of which have a significant impact on anti-depressants. Especially if you are only occasionally smoking.

Hello Welcome to DF! I am not a professional at all however I might recommend dealing with your alcohol addiction first. Try going to to alcoholics anonymous meetings and finding a sponsor. It in turn can help cope with your gambling and relationships because AA is great at offering a support system.

Personally I never had this problem with celexa however I have had similar problems with other drugs in the past. Maybe try taking it in the afternoon like at noon/lunch time?

Hey James! Welcome to DF! Congratulations on your decision to quit smoking and on your sobriety. We have rooms dedicated to substance abuse recovery so feel free to share your wisdom and receive support :)

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much and feel stuck. It is really important to find a healthy release for your emotions! Especially when you don't feel comfortable crying. Have you tried exercise or maybe even journaling? Starting a blog here on D.F might be a good way to discuss your feelings without judgement.

Have you ever considered yourself asexual? If you have never heard of asexuality you may want to read a little bit about it. One of the things I recommend for people not to worry about is other people's experience. The right person for you will be a caring and patient partner and experience won't matter. Depending on your age you may want to try a dating site or maybe seeing if there are any LGBTQ events in your area just as a way to get to know people.

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with depression at the moment. Have you shared with your parents or friends how you are feeling at all? Depression causes a lot of negative self-talk but remember you aren't worthless nor are you a piece of trash.

I am sorry to hear that you are suffering from anxiety. When you start to get that nervous feeling do you ever try "grounding" exercises such as deep breathing or counting? Sometimes it keeps the anxiety from rearing it's ugly head. Maybe something to try as well is recognize the physical/emotional signs that your anxiety is starting and that can help cut it off at the pass. I hope you feel better soon.

Welcome to DF, I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much right now. One of the worst things depression does to a person is it slowly makes them doubt if anything is worth it. However it is worth it. You are stuck in a rock and a hard place right now while being in school. Unfortunately because of the schedule they keep college students aren't always the first choice of employers. It will get better though once you get your degree. Medical Assisting definitely can be a great job, and I have several male friends who are M.A's and they love it. It's an in demand job at the moment. Have you tried your college's counseling place as a place to start?

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling at the moment. Sometimes you need to take care of yourself even if it means leaving a job that makes you incredibly unhappy.

Woohoo! That sounds fun!

I am sorry. Benzo withdrawal is awful, however I am happy that you were able to enjoy your weekend. Practice self-care especially with nausea and exhaustion. Drink plenty of fluids and get plenty of rest!