thanks so much for replying Megan, Jimbow, User4035 and Mojosmama. I take so much medication and if it were helping i wouldn't complain. But i might not do thisd after all because I would have to be in the mental hospital for 2-3 weeks for testing and 6 treatments! I don't wanna go, I was hoping they could have done it out patient once they did all their testing so I have come to a fork in the road. Keep feeling bad, keep gaining weight, keep the clouds in my head (I stay in a mental fog) and don't want to go out, you guys know the whole 9 yards. Recently i have added Abilify to the mix and while I felt better for a week or so, then back I went to being depressed. Abilify is near $1,000 for a months supply of 30 weeny tablets, lucky for me i was able to get some samples my med nurse was able to get her hands on so i didnot have to pay. my question is this, if even the $1,000 stuff won't work where does it leave me. BTW Megan thanks for your long, detailed answer to my question, I appreciate all you said and I will throw it in there when i try to decide what to do. I used to be a big visitor 6 or 7 years ago then dropped out because so much pain and huring of others just got to me