Jump to content

Icarus21

Senior Member
  • Posts

    544
  • Joined

  • Last visited

  • Days Won

    1

Everything posted by Icarus21

  1. Bojack Horseman is a Netflix show that deals with an ex-sitcom star's life full of regret and bad choices he has made. Everyone is happy around him and he just struggles with himself. It gets pretty close to home. The show's serious themes are covered in comedy. You laugh and then it hits you really hard...
  2. Be careful. I have been emotionally blunted for almost 2 years now. I still care about things and worry and panic. I just can't do much about it because my lack of emotional response prevents me from taking action. Everything is meh. There is hardly any improvement. I don't really feel alive. I don't even feel human. It would be nice to be able to turn the emotions on and off. Sadly, it can take a while to reverse the effects. If it is what you want, I hope it gives you peace. Sorry you are in that much pain. It has to feel agonizing.
  3. I'm so sorry you are struggling so much. My heart aches for you. I been there and still partially there. Better than I was. I honestly would take time off and really focus on yourself and getting better. College will always wait. I hope your parents can understand your situation. It is so scary to be in. I'm a gamer as well and got me through the roughest days. It is easy for people to blame everything on video games. I hardly play like I used to but still carries a stigma. Also, if you can, would taking less classes help at all? If you are in the U.S. we have to have 12 credits. I hope whatever decision you make, you find happiness :)
  4. I will respond to this post when I get the chance. I have been following it for a while.
  5. De Press Ion Along with... Pessimism Exhausted Scared
  6. The stigma is the worst part for me. I try and be understanding that a lot of people can't understand. Instead I feel forced to understand their point of view. I feel all my life I am expected to understand others but no one is expected to understand my points of view. My empathy burned out a while ago. I barely care about anyone anymore. How can I? I would choose death over masking a fake smile and hiding rhe fact I'm in a lot of pain. Apparently me being in pain was hilarious to others while growing up. I wanted to help people in the world and help others who don't have a voice or need someone to believe in them. That goal is long over.
  7. I can completely relate to this post. I used to have a FB a while back and deleted it because it severly effected my mental health. Unfortunately I am a Mass Comm student in college and had to create a new one for a project. I really didn't want to. And you know, the second you make an account, people start requesting you and you try and limit yourself. Sadly you fall back under the slump that is Facebook. I think Linkedin, while useful, Instagram and Facebook all have the "look at me" fest. A lot of people only share their happiest moments and it really starts to skew with your perception of how happy people really are. I felt a lot better deleting FB the first time. I'm not sure If I can now since I have been managing social media accounts, but I want out as soon as I can. We are not used to being exposed to that number of people at one time and of course it is usually nothing but baby pictures, weddings, parties, achievements and such. I had someone on my FB feed gloat about their engagement. He was like, in case you didn't see this. I kind of wanted to roll my eyes. I'm not the one to be jealous about people's success but it is really thrown in your face on there. Sorry for my ranting. I hope you can have a way get off the FB pull and pull the plug to give you some of your life back. It is very common for other people's depression to sink even further, especially when we compare ourselves. It was one of the best things I did. When I deleted my account the first time, an enormous weight lifted off my back. Best feeling ever! But do what you think is best. whatever you chose, hope it work out :)
  8. Thank you feelinglostagain. Unfortunately, I am feeling a LOT worse today. I went to my family dodctor today, and I hate going to the doctors. I absolutely hate it. I believe it is because of my big history dealing with psychiatrists and other types of mental health doctors that severely traumatized me from going to the doctors. I have completely lost the ability to trust any doctor whether they seem kind or not. I could not sleep the night before and I had bad anxiety about the whole thing. I had some doctors abuse their power and I feel powerless around doctors and people who want to help. It seems like I have to give them the "correct" answer and if I say something that isn't usual, it is just shrugged off like I'm crazy. I feel like I have no control and it feels absolutely degrading. Especially when you have your mother besides you making things worse or giving uneeded comments. Any time I go to the doctor, medication is always brought up and I always end up taking them even though they never work with me. I explain over and over. I'm doing horrible without them but I wasn't any better with them. But today I agreed again to take the same medication that gave me no real relief. I explain over and over but I just have to suck it up and do what I'm told. The sessions always drag when I resist so I just tell them I will take it. I keep fighting against my gut and my opinions vs everyone else who always challenges me or disagrees with me or tries and get me to change my opinion. I have constant ruminating thoughts about whether I should take someone elses opinion or listen to myself. I can never validate how I feel because it is always the wrong feeling, deemed as irrational, or dismissed. I was never allowed to have an opinion of my own. I feel like I have no control over my life because I have to have approval. I wish I could just say how i felt without someone challenging me on how I feel. I hate this. I have to go back to school and I know i will be forced to smile, be happy, be positive, be pleasant and such and I JUST DON"T WANT TO DO IT AGAIN FOR A 5TH FREAKING YEAR!!!!!!
  9. Thank you Orso :) I could use a cheer right about now
  10. I am so sorry you are still in a lot of pain. it hurts to hear you are still going through this. Do what you think is best for you. I hope you can find relief soon.
  11. Even though being depressed is one of the most excrutiating thing in the world to me, I am not sure I would switch. I made it this far at least. I haven't done enough research on other illnesses to make that decision. I think every illness has it's dark moments. The only thing I wish I had that other illnesses got was mentioned above, and that is empathy from other people. I too get extremely jealous of other people giving others who have a more physical illness and everyone will give them an ear and won't tell them to get over it or try and minimize their struggle. A lot of MI are invisible and to me, I think it is the part that gets to me the most. It is like being put on fire and someone telling you to drop duck and roll and get over it. I think people with Austism are treated even worse and it is disgusting hearing all of the hurtful things said online. I also don't want to offend those who have other illnesses. But there are days where I wish I was taken as seriously as someone with a physical illness.
  12. Thank you Orso for the really thoughtful post! It is really frustrating at times. Well most of the time. I know everyone cannot understand my issues or PTSD in general. That is fine. I think what gets to me if instead of others acknowledging that, I receive a lot of blame from other people or receive those really unhelpful platitudes. I think I would respond better to others admitting they cannot help. I also hate feeling guilty for not getting better. It is all very daunting.I feel like the world is afraid to talk about these issues. I feel it is hurtful for those who need other voices speaking out. It is one of those things people tip toe over. It is really bizarre. I wish I had the answers too. I know that when dealing with other issues I'm not familiar with, I feel very uncomfortable and not sure what to say. At the same time. It sucks we can pnly deal with what we understand. I want to research other issues and see if it is possible to chanfe all of those uncertainties. I feel we should be discussing these issues more than how exposed Lenny Kravits (awesome guy) is. Even I got myself caufht up in the most dumbest articles and news when I should be looking at real discussions. I hope one day, we can openly discuss Mental illness as well as other misunderstood issues. Thank you for being so understanding and giving me you ear (not literally lol) I too hope I can find the right person to help as well. I hope everyone finds that.
  13. Thank you Fizzle for the response. I actually believe you are right on target with everything you said with amazing accuracy. I actually have been looking up Complex PTSD for quite some time now. I know it isn't officially in the DSM but I fit the criteria for the definition. And honestly, I don't think there was a point in my life where some sort of abuse wasn't going on. There has been nothing but traumatic experiences, soul crushing experiences, and really bad experiences with the outside world in general. It is hard to explain multiple experiences and how they all build off each other. I was diagnosed with chronic depression, adhd, add, tourettes, and bipolar. That last diagnosis was given to me by one of the most insensitive, judgmental, dismissive psychiatrist I had. Other peoole reported the same problems with him. And yes, my college counselor was the one to give me that diagnoses. But like you said it wasn't official. It is ironic since it was thw most spot on and just me being labeled as a troubled boy with bipolar and anxiety didn't paint the whole picture. I have been doing a ton of research on cptsd and I figure out more about myself each time. You are right. My mother seems to get to me the most in some cases. She was always financially and physically there but no emotional. I never felt that warmness around her. Just bitterness, sarcastic remarks, need for absolute control, smothering and dismissing. She never cared for my hobbies or interest. She ttied to get me to be like her. I am slowly reaching to the conclusion that my mom may be a narcissitic mother and it is a lot to take in. I know for sure my sister is and she was very emotionally abusive to me. I am planning on moving out when I get my first real job but that will still be a while. I can barely walk outside without crying. Even now I don't feel as seen or heard by most of my family. My mom constantly denies my sisters involvement in my mental state and is now defending my other sister who said something hurtful but I'm the one who has to apologize and feel bad. Argh!! I haad more I was going to write but then my phone erased it all and I'm too frustrated to write it again. I will leave you a message later. I'm really sorry :/
  14. I'm just done. My mom interrupts me once again. Everyone does. People think they have a right to talk over me, interrupt me, pay more attention to their phones right after thry ask me to talk to them. People want my company but won't let me talk. Then they pin me when Im about to cry and then give me a chance to talkm WHAT DO YOU ****ING PEOPLE WANT WITH ME!!! Leave me the hell alone!! JUST ****ING **** ME ALREADY.... I CAN'T ****ING STAND IT ANY LONGER. JUST BLAME ME MORE AND MORE. TELL ME I HAVE TO CHAMGE AND EVERYONE IS FREE TO HAVE THERE WAY WITH ME. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS LOVE, family, or friends. Just tell me how simple I have it and try and fix me. MINIMIZE MY SITUATION WHILE YOU'RE AT IT!!! Is there any legal way I can die. Why the heck do I need permission? No professional listens to me. No one listens to me. NO ONE!!!!!!!
  15. It happens all the time. Or someone will be more attentive to the TV. As someone who has major anxiety I at least give others my full undivided attention and look them straight dead in the eye. It isn't fair I had to learn social ettiquette but everyone else gets a free pass. Thank you for making me feel like my complaint was valid.
  16. Lauryncat, the more I reach out for help the more suicidal I feel. No one understands and it makes me feel more alone. I never had a healthy upbringing. From birth on, I was abused in rvery way, neglected, screwed over by a social worker who covered up my abuse. Then went to the real world when I was adopted only to feel alone, scared, vulnerable. I was always bullied, always the putcast. Always the troubled on. The one that needed fixing. Never was allowed to be me. Everyone always knew what was best for me. In the last few years I came across countless other sitiations that took all the little trust I had left and threw it at me. I was also screwed over the the MEntal Health system again. I don't trust anyone.
  17. I think I just lost patience tbh. At a time I was more forgiving about people not understanding but as I grew I got tired of it. I hate when people woild get mad at me and make me feel bad because they didn't understand. It was easy to give me ultimatums about feeling better than hearing me out. When I talk to others, sometimes they are texting on their phones when I'm talking. I give people way too many chances and it is something that really bothers me. I have a history of my trust being broken and I'm sick of making excuses for others at my own dispense. I wish someone cared how I felt for once. I have no more time, energy or patience to deal with one sided frienship s and self centered people. Sorry I'm just really frustrated because I constantly feel challenged on how I feel and have to constantly defend myself.
  18. I end up sharing my situation, PTSD, which constantly gets ignored, dismissed, minimized, or unheard. I reach out but I feel immediately worse afterwards but I NEED to vent. I bottle everything in. All the time. I'm at my complete lowest and try to talk to my mom about how Im feeling and she won't even look me in the eye. She seems so distracted with other things completely unrelated and I just want to feel heard. I talk to a therapist online as a last resort and they do not listen to me. I tell them I have ptsd over again. He then says oh well lets try to fix your depression. He clearly isn't listening to a word I'm saying. I try making boundaries with a friend but we she just gets defensive. I never feel that type of respect or same kind of compassion I give to others. I really hate people and all my life I had nothing but lies, abuse, corruption, and manipulation with a few good eggs sprinkled in. How am I supposed to care about anyone any more. No one gets what I gone through but likes to act like they understand or completelt write it off. I'm done with the world and its people. This is nothing more than a rant since no one else will even care. Might as well say I will jump off a roof out of spite. I'm constantly interrupted and talked over anyways. No one will miss me when I'm gone. They will just make it about them. I couldn't careless how they feel anymore.
  19. Els1e- We are like computers! It would be nice to see a big change in the view of how people look at people with MI in the future. I would really like to see that. We can all work on not apologizing so dang much. Seems simple but like Rhyl said, it is such a habit... I'm glad you mentioned habits, as I need to break a couple to get to where I need to be. Number one is not being so addicted being on the internet all the time!
  20. I learned somewhere along the line to stop actually apologizing, mostly. People still say and do stupid things, still try to blame me for being the way I am, but I do NOT apologize for the way I feel or think or act to them. It just feeds into what they are thinking and what they believe. I am starting to speak out for myself and others like me in a couple of different ways to combat the stigma and the idiocy of others. I'm writing a book that talks about this, starting a nonprofit for mental health advocacy, and am pretty outspoken on social media. The positive action helps my anger. I'm so sorry you don't feel anyone is hearing you. Sometimes I think that our issues are just too overwhelming for others - even our therapists - and they don't know what to say. They've hit a wall and they don't know which way to turn. I'm like you, I have several things going on right now, both physical and emotional issues that are urgent that I can't seem to get anyone to help me with 'cause nobody seems to be listening. It makes me want to *scream*..Is that how you feel? Oh yeah. It's like the better person you are, the more screwed you get. I'm the same, and sometimes I get these horribly dark thoughts - completely against my character - because, I think, I would and never could do any of that sort of bad stuff. It's hard to be continually judged by people who don't seem to understand the depth of your pain, who don't even take the time to hear how bad things have been for you and make assumptions that your situation is like theirs or everybody else's. My whole family uses those kinds of terms and I cringe every time I hear them. I try to explain that they are insulting to people who have an actual illness or trauma, but people who don't deal with this on a daily basis just don't understand. I've been dealing with mental illness since I was very, very young. At least 3 years old, and now I'm 54. I have depression, anxiety, OCD, and dissociative identity disorder. I don't believe *anybody* can understand what it is we go through unless they've had a similar experience and I think mental health practitioners are merely tools we use to help us help ourselves get better or learn to function better in our journey, or our time on this earth. I also think that we each must find the right path to help us do that, that there is no one single thing that will help everybody, although I do think there are many things that will help all of us. I hope you find your combination of things that help you feel better about you and this world in your journey. rhyl Wow we do relate a lot! I really would love to learn how to stop saying sorry. I say it almost out of habit these days than actually meaning it. I really like that your are advocating out against the stigma of Mental Illness. I still may want to do this as a profession and I know it isn't something that gets talked about like other issues. When you have your non-profit organization set up, can I work for you! I'm studying PR atm. About to get my bachelors, finally. But I'm really glad other people are taking this step. This makes me very happy! Yeah, i have a history of not feeling heard. Someone recently asked me what do I want. It was such a braod question and I had to think about it, and I told them, "being heard." After I said it, I realized how much I needed to be heard and realized it was a big part missing in my life and felt very empty and upset about realizing it. I want to scream too! I often fantasize going on the most secluded mountain closest to me and screaming on the top of my lungs just to let it all out. I find the though invigorating. Would make for a nice hiking trip too. And D-A-Y-U-M! I have NEVER heard someone notice they were depressed that early and live with it for THAT long. I always thought I had been depressed longer than many. I knew since I was 5 but I'm almost 25 and want to throw in the towel already recently. You are extremely strong. I resonated back with what you said and I appreciate you hearing me out. Did you ever have a "break" throughout all of those years without pressing issues weighing on you? I'm one of those people that - most of the time - thinks before she speaks, so what I started to do with the "sorry" stuff was I decided I would "pay attention" to when I said it and simply not say it. It was sooo hard. But I don't anymore. Oh, every once-in-a-while it slips in. But I'm much, much better. Very exciting that you are finishing your Bachelor's in PR! It will be a long time probably before we have actual staff, but we always need volunteers *hinthint* and I am looking specifically for those who have been diagnosed or have experience with mental illness. Today was an enormously bad day for me. I realized that "being heard" is an extremely critical part of where I am right now, but that nobody seems to have the capacity for understanding the depth of this pain, this depression, this anger, this hopelessness. Where do we go when NOBODY has the capacity to understand? Yes, my friend, I do have breaks in the depression. One thing I can promise you, and that is that everything, even the pain that we feel, is temporary. Sometimes you have to pay attention to notice the lull, but the more you do, the greater they become. I practice mindfulness, and it helps me recognize more of those spaces between the episodes of depression. It is the ONLY thing that has ever helped me. I still struggle, but in my darkest times, it always brings me back to the light. rhyl I learned somewhere along the line to stop actually apologizing, mostly. People still say and do stupid things, still try to blame me for being the way I am, but I do NOT apologize for the way I feel or think or act to them. It just feeds into what they are thinking and what they believe. I am starting to speak out for myself and others like me in a couple of different ways to combat the stigma and the idiocy of others. I'm writing a book that talks about this, starting a nonprofit for mental health advocacy, and am pretty outspoken on social media. The positive action helps my anger. I'm so sorry you don't feel anyone is hearing you. Sometimes I think that our issues are just too overwhelming for others - even our therapists - and they don't know what to say. They've hit a wall and they don't know which way to turn. I'm like you, I have several things going on right now, both physical and emotional issues that are urgent that I can't seem to get anyone to help me with 'cause nobody seems to be listening. It makes me want to *scream*..Is that how you feel? Oh yeah. It's like the better person you are, the more screwed you get. I'm the same, and sometimes I get these horribly dark thoughts - completely against my character - because, I think, I would and never could do any of that sort of bad stuff. It's hard to be continually judged by people who don't seem to understand the depth of your pain, who don't even take the time to hear how bad things have been for you and make assumptions that your situation is like theirs or everybody else's. My whole family uses those kinds of terms and I cringe every time I hear them. I try to explain that they are insulting to people who have an actual illness or trauma, but people who don't deal with this on a daily basis just don't understand. I've been dealing with mental illness since I was very, very young. At least 3 years old, and now I'm 54. I have depression, anxiety, OCD, and dissociative identity disorder. I don't believe *anybody* can understand what it is we go through unless they've had a similar experience and I think mental health practitioners are merely tools we use to help us help ourselves get better or learn to function better in our journey, or our time on this earth. I also think that we each must find the right path to help us do that, that there is no one single thing that will help everybody, although I do think there are many things that will help all of us. I hope you find your combination of things that help you feel better about you and this world in your journey. rhyl Wow we do relate a lot! I really would love to learn how to stop saying sorry. I say it almost out of habit these days than actually meaning it. I really like that your are advocating out against the stigma of Mental Illness. I still may want to do this as a profession and I know it isn't something that gets talked about like other issues. When you have your non-profit organization set up, can I work for you! I'm studying PR atm. About to get my bachelors, finally. But I'm really glad other people are taking this step. This makes me very happy! Yeah, i have a history of not feeling heard. Someone recently asked me what do I want. It was such a braod question and I had to think about it, and I told them, "being heard." After I said it, I realized how much I needed to be heard and realized it was a big part missing in my life and felt very empty and upset about realizing it. I want to scream too! I often fantasize going on the most secluded mountain closest to me and screaming on the top of my lungs just to let it all out. I find the though invigorating. Would make for a nice hiking trip too. And D-A-Y-U-M! I have NEVER heard someone notice they were depressed that early and live with it for THAT long. I always thought I had been depressed longer than many. I knew since I was 5 but I'm almost 25 and want to throw in the towel already recently. You are extremely strong. I resonated back with what you said and I appreciate you hearing me out. Did you ever have a "break" throughout all of those years without pressing issues weighing on you? I'm one of those people that - most of the time - thinks before she speaks, so what I started to do with the "sorry" stuff was I decided I would "pay attention" to when I said it and simply not say it. It was sooo hard. But I don't anymore. Oh, every once-in-a-while it slips in. But I'm much, much better. Very exciting that you are finishing your Bachelor's in PR! It will be a long time probably before we have actual staff, but we always need volunteers *hinthint* and I am looking specifically for those who have been diagnosed or have experience with mental illness. Today was an enormously bad day for me. I realized that "being heard" is an extremely critical part of where I am right now, but that nobody seems to have the capacity for understanding the depth of this pain, this depression, this anger, this hopelessness. Where do we go when NOBODY has the capacity to understand? Yes, my friend, I do have breaks in the depression. One thing I can promise you, and that is that everything, even the pain that we feel, is temporary. Sometimes you have to pay attention to notice the lull, but the more you do, the greater they become. I practice mindfulness, and it helps me recognize more of those spaces between the episodes of depression. It is the ONLY thing that has ever helped me. I still struggle, but in my darkest times, it always brings me back to the light. rhyl I'm sorry today was really tough for you. I hope my post or comment about being heard didn't trigger things within you. I really relate to what you said about it though. It is hard to turn to someone when no one really understands. I heard a lot about mindfulness. I tried to schedule an appointment for DBT but they have me on a waiting list. If DBT doesn't work out for me, I'm not really sure what will. I haven't been trained in mindfulness but there are times I pay close attention to how my depression travels. When I'm at my lowest, it usually gets better the next day. And when I'm under a lot of stress, I am depressed for longer. But I rarely have days where I'm more fine than depressed. I guess it is hard to look at it as temporary when you held onto the same issues since you were 5 and are now 24. They never left me. I would love to have a break from the nightmarish thoughts. Down the road, things could change and It wouldn't haunt me as much. They just seem to be getting worse. But i get what you are saying. It is important to recognize these things which makes it easier to prevent further damage. I'm really glad this has helped you a lot. I hope it keeps you going :) ~Icarus~
  21. I learned somewhere along the line to stop actually apologizing, mostly. People still say and do stupid things, still try to blame me for being the way I am, but I do NOT apologize for the way I feel or think or act to them. It just feeds into what they are thinking and what they believe. I am starting to speak out for myself and others like me in a couple of different ways to combat the stigma and the idiocy of others. I'm writing a book that talks about this, starting a nonprofit for mental health advocacy, and am pretty outspoken on social media. The positive action helps my anger. I'm so sorry you don't feel anyone is hearing you. Sometimes I think that our issues are just too overwhelming for others - even our therapists - and they don't know what to say. They've hit a wall and they don't know which way to turn. I'm like you, I have several things going on right now, both physical and emotional issues that are urgent that I can't seem to get anyone to help me with 'cause nobody seems to be listening. It makes me want to *scream*..Is that how you feel? Oh yeah. It's like the better person you are, the more screwed you get. I'm the same, and sometimes I get these horribly dark thoughts - completely against my character - because, I think, I would and never could do any of that sort of bad stuff. It's hard to be continually judged by people who don't seem to understand the depth of your pain, who don't even take the time to hear how bad things have been for you and make assumptions that your situation is like theirs or everybody else's. My whole family uses those kinds of terms and I cringe every time I hear them. I try to explain that they are insulting to people who have an actual illness or trauma, but people who don't deal with this on a daily basis just don't understand. I've been dealing with mental illness since I was very, very young. At least 3 years old, and now I'm 54. I have depression, anxiety, OCD, and dissociative identity disorder. I don't believe *anybody* can understand what it is we go through unless they've had a similar experience and I think mental health practitioners are merely tools we use to help us help ourselves get better or learn to function better in our journey, or our time on this earth. I also think that we each must find the right path to help us do that, that there is no one single thing that will help everybody, although I do think there are many things that will help all of us. I hope you find your combination of things that help you feel better about you and this world in your journey. rhyl Wow we do relate a lot! I really would love to learn how to stop saying sorry. I say it almost out of habit these days than actually meaning it. I really like that your are advocating out against the stigma of Mental Illness. I still may want to do this as a profession and I know it isn't something that gets talked about like other issues. When you have your non-profit organization set up, can I work for you! I'm studying PR atm. About to get my bachelors, finally. But I'm really glad other people are taking this step. This makes me very happy! Yeah, i have a history of not feeling heard. Someone recently asked me what do I want. It was such a braod question and I had to think about it, and I told them, "being heard." After I said it, I realized how much I needed to be heard and realized it was a big part missing in my life and felt very empty and upset about realizing it. I want to scream too! I often fantasize going on the most secluded mountain closest to me and screaming on the top of my lungs just to let it all out. I find the though invigorating. Would make for a nice hiking trip too. And D-A-Y-U-M! I have NEVER heard someone notice they were depressed that early and live with it for THAT long. I always thought I had been depressed longer than many. I knew since I was 5 but I'm almost 25 and want to throw in the towel already recently. You are extremely strong. I resonated back with what you said and I appreciate you hearing me out. Did you ever have a "break" throughout all of those years without pressing issues weighing on you?
  22. Thank you for writing this. I was attempting to explain this this but I feel like I butchered it completely. Your analogies are spot on. I really have nothing to add. And I enjoy your sense of humor! I'm sure dead people don't have sense or humor xD I understand about not feeling positive at the present. You don't have to apologize!
  23. I really love what you wrote! You go even further and explain. You are really good at explaining things in an interesting way. I agree with pretty much everything you said. I always wanted to reach into my head and pull out this matter/data that contained all my feelings and implant it in someones head like a usb drive to get the to understand how i'm feeling and pull out the usb drive, or matter/data when your are done. I have been working on computers for way too long. I need to unplug lol. But yeah, the invisibility of the illness is the hardest to deal with. Especially when you can't defend yourself because you can't explain what is going on. The part about humans wanting to plug gaps in the understanding of reality couldn't be any more true. I see it all time and it bothers me. Before modern science, it was still believed the earth was in the center of the Universe. Then it was the sun. We only had 5 elements and at one time depression was seen as demonic and being gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgendered were seen as Mental illness by the DSM! I could only imagine how our views will change about various of things centuries down the road.
  24. Me personally, i have come across many articles centering around how bad depression can be for the person experiencing it. Perhaps it's better to avoid articles your referring to, or at least try. I wish it was that was easy. But I don't think it is for depression or anything similar to it. It is a hard and difficult journey that is way more complex than that. My guess is it brings out their own stuff or they just don't know what to say? Unfortunately some people like to think we can just get over it and stop letting it bother us. It shows their ignorance, especially when it involves prolonged experiences. For me as well. I feel so used to it, it almost feel like its apart of who I am. Then I have to remind myself it's a condition. To be struggling feels natural to me, as uncomfortable as it is. I imagine it must be similar to say cancer patients going in and out of hospitals for years. The cancer and radiation sucks but its familiar at the same time and all the different aspects that goes with it. At least I'm guessing. BigMike, thanks for responding. For quote 2, it was more sarcasm. That is the attitude many people seem to have. If I fake it and put on a smile regardless how I feel, i will begin to feel happy. It really has done the opposite and makes me feel ill when doing it for how long I have been doing it. The last part is really sad, but true when you have been depressed for so long.You have some good responses to what I said and feel more grounded. Thanks for letting me hear your perspectives!
×
×
  • Create New...