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  • Birthday 10/19/1993

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  1. I have depression/anxiety, or bipolar depending on which doctor you talk to. But, my biggest problem is my social phobia. That has been my biggest hurdle in finding work. At the moment, I can't call or answer the phone, nor am I very good at working directly with customers, so my question is what are my options when it comes to job choices? I don't have any education past a high school diploma, though I'm planning on going back to school next spring, nor do I have any work experience. I did volunteer for a few places, if that counts for anything. I don't have a driver's license either. I love working with animals, but I've already tried going for kennel jobs and such, a couple of interviews there but no luck. So, what do I do now?
  2. I went to a pet sitting job this morning, and when I came back, one of my sister's textbooks was entirely destroyed and strewn all over my room. I'll have to pay for it, and you know how expensive college textbooks are. I'm feeling very stressed out, and angry at Link. I know he's just a puppy, and chewing is puppy behavior, but part of me just doesn't care.
  3. I do pet sitting, and I love it. It's not enough to live off of right now, since I don't get a substantial number of jobs, which is why I'm looking for another source of income. However, I hope to build up some credentials and maybe start my own business, and hopefully get more clients. The other option I'm looking at is going back to school to be a vet tech. They don't make much, but it's a job I would enjoy I think. In the meantime, I'm looking for a steady job to pay the bills, and it will probably be something on the low end that I won't enjoy. But, think about it this way. You make money so that you can do things that you do enjoy, and you can also pay off bills and such so you aren't stressed by debt. It could be much worse than it is.
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    I can relate to you. For the past few weeks, I've been in a slump where nothing appeals to me. I have to remind myself that there are things that need to be done, like taking care of my dogs, and that there is a good reason to do so, because I keep on thinking "what's the point?". Just hang in there, you'll get through it!
  5. It has helped in the past. I'm on Cymbalta and Abilify. What kinds of coping tools are there? I know breathing and meditation, but it doesn't always work for me.
  6. Yesterday, I had a massive anxiety attack at church. Shaking, crying, sweating, the whole thing. It lasted a good part of the mass, even though I took a Klonopin before even getting to church. Luckily, I had my parents there and one of the ushers took me to an unused room so that I could calm down. Usually when I have anxiety attacks, they're at home and I usually sleep through them. But, I was thinking, how am I going to cope once I have a job or I'm in school? What if I have such a bad anxiety attack and no one is around to help me? How can I cope and push through it?
  7. Thanks Gee. I don't know much about his past, but in the three months that we've had him, there have been no incidences that I can think of. Well, yesterday, I did some thinking, and I'm not sure that this is the right home for my own two dogs, Link and Pip. I've been overwhelmed, and while they do me good in giving me a reason to get up in the morning and something to hug when I'm depressed, I feel like I took them on too soon, and I can't keep up with the responsibility at this point in my life. I feel terrible saying this, but I may need to rehome my dogs. I'm not making any rash decisions on this, I'm talking with my parents and my therapist to get some other's opinions. But, I'm sad and scared right now. I don't want them to end up in a shelter, especially Link and his issues, and I can't guarantee it if they go to a new home. Hopefully I can get through these issues without having to give up my companions. But, what do I do if that's what happens?
  8. I'll be sure to have him checked out as soon as I can. I don't think he's got anything physically wrong though, he's showing no signs of discomfort and pain, and his aggression seems to be stemmed in fear. But, we need to get his rabies shots up to date with the city anyways. Unfortunately, because the lady didn't send us his records, that means overvaccinating him, but it's better that than him biting someone and being put to sleep because we can't prove he's up to date. Not that I think he's going to bite someone, but still, I can't be too careful.
  9. Sheepwoman: Link's actually a Newfie mix, possibly with some Border Collie. Link's actually pretty good with my other two dogs, he's just not good with strangers. We've made huge strides towards correcting his behavior; it used to be that he was terrified of my dad and brother. He even bit my dad out of fear. But, now he comes to them for pets. So, slowly but surely, we're fixing the problems. Yes, my depression has made it hard for me to work with him. But, I took him in, and I'm committed to him. Pensiveone: Thanks. Link is taking more work than I originally anticipated, and it's a little discouraging at times, but today after my vent, I went and hugged him and he licked my face and made me feel that much better. He may not be my competition dog, but he's a great pet at the end of the day. I think that's worth it. Epictetus: I'm so sorry. When my cat died, that threw me into a huge depression. He had cancer, but we didn't know about it until it was too late to do anything. He just went into a sudden downhill slide, and they did an x-ray and discovered a mass in his chest.
  10. I got a puppy about three months ago. Since getting him, it's been a roller coaster of emotion. Part of the problem was it was a snap decision. I didn't think it through all the way, and have been beating myself up about it since. Another part was that his former owners lied to us. He was advertised as being friendly with dogs and people, but since we've had him, he's been just plain aggressive towards strange dogs and fear aggressive towards people. Plus, she didn't give us his vet records like I asked. The last problem is I had some unrealistic expectations going in. I wasn't expecting perfect, but I was expecting a stable, well adjusted dog that I could do agility and obedience with. Instead, I got a puppy who has some serious issues and needs work on manners before we can do any kind of advanced training. Anyways, I've been working through the hurdles, and we've made some progress, but today it all became too much. I don't know what triggered it, but I just started thinking about how much I was going through with him. I talked to my mom, who also suffers from depression and is not in a very good place right now, and she said that he doesn't fit into our family and I need to get rid of him. That just made me break down. I love him, and don't want to get rid of him. And besides, I have an obligation to him that I made when I decided to bring him in my life. Naive as my decision was, I can't go back on it now. But, at the same time, I don't know if it's fair to keep him. I haven't been keeping up with the training as well as I should have, because of my depression. He's not what I wanted in a dog. Not that he can't become what I want. I just feel torn. I don't know what to do with him. I'm just feeling terribly upset right now, and maybe when I'm calmer, I'll be more rational, but right now, I don't know.
  11. I have social phobia and phone phobia. I can't make phone calls at all, and when I'm forced to, I get severe anxiety attacks.
  12. Well, I got through my work interview. From what I could tell, it went pretty well. I should know within a week whether I got the job.
  13. First some background information, I'm 19 years old and looking for my first job. I really want to work in a vet clinic, because I love animals and want to be a veterinary technician after school. However, I also suffer from depression, social phobia, and GAD, which has made the process of getting a job very hard for me. I was terrified of even asking for an application, nevermind going on an interview. I have been looking for months now, and for a while there was little progress. Now for the good part. I filled out an application to a vet clinic a couple of weeks ago, and they called me back for an interview which I did yesterday. I was still nervous, but I managed to keep my anxiety under control enough that I got through the interview, no problem. They scheduled me for a work interview, which I will do this coming Saturday. I'm so excited, and very proud of myself. It may not seem like a big accomplishment for some, but for me, it was huge. I just needed to share it. Thanks.
  14. Mine also changes from day to day. Today, I feel like a three. I think that all life is worth something, always have, but all of the qualities that I think matter, I simply don't have. My self confidence and self esteem are very low most days, today being one of those days.
  15. I know what you mean. I get a good night's sleep, wake up only to feed the dogs, and then crash again. I don't have work or school to deal with, so it's very difficult for me to find the motivation to stay awake. Sometimes, it feels like sleep is the only escape from my depression, and the depression itself makes me so tired that it only encourages the behavior. I wish I knew how to fix this, but I don't :(.
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