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Epictetus

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    Philosophy. Theology. Jainism. Music. Comparative Religion. Poetry. Nature and animals. Fine Arts and Music. Cinema. Travel. Meeting people. Humor and cartoons. Neurobiology. Asian culture. Japan. Flying.
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    Suffer from Depression, Anxiety and Panic Attacks. Also suffer from a hospital-acquired super-infection I am on the antibiotic of last resort and hanging in there. My meds are Citalopram daily and Clonazepam as needed.

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  1. Hi and welcome to the Forums Hedgehogdilemma. I like your screen name. I am sorry you are struggling and suffering. Depression is a brutal, brutal illness and I am not unfamiliar with anger issues either. Hopefully these Forums will be of some use to you. We are all fellow sufferers here and although none or us are physicians or medical professionals, sometimes there is no substitute for being able to communicate with people going through the same or similar things. At least that has been my experience. Having seen how depression has negatively affected my academic and professional life, your post is very meaningful to me personally. I wish I knew what to say to help. Hopefully others here will be able to make up for the paucity of my response to you today. I can feel so much for what you are going through but when I try to think what to say to help, the words just don't spring to mind. I hope things will turn out well regarding the situation you described. I am certainly rooting for you. I wish you only good things...only the best. - epictetus
  2. Losing all friends

    Hi Tangerine58238. Its nice to meet you. I would like to welcome you to the Forums. You've been through so much in your life. I am so sorry you have been suffering for so long. I am also sorry the the intensity of your pain has been so extreme. Depression is a brutal illness and it can touch every aspect of one's life including friendships and other relationships. I know this through bitter experience. Those who have not been stricken with this terrible illness cannot really understand how devastating it is. Too often they can treat us as though depression was something we are instead of something we have. Hopefully you will find this site helpful to you. Although we are not physicians or medical professionals, we are fellow sufferers of depression and other illnesses and fellow sufferers of how these illnesses negatively affect our lives in so many ways. I hope you will make many friends here. I have found people here to be understanding and compassionate, patient, encouraging and consoling. It is my hope that this will be your experience too and that this site will be of some use to you. I wish I could make everything better for you. Having suffered similar things as you have, I am not a total stranger to what you might be feeling. Apologies if my words are not helpful to you. It is hard to know what to say to someone sometimes. Hopefully others here will make up for the poverty of my words and thoughts. I have suffered numerous illnesses in my life and depression has been the absolute worst. I can only look up to you in respect and admiration for what you have endured. I hope things get better for you. You deserve more and better than life has given you. If there is anything I can do to help, just let me know. Welcome! - epictetus
  3. Saying Hi!

    Hi Martymar1964. Nice to meet you. I want to welcome you to the Forums. Hope you find this place as helpful to you as it has been to me. Depression is just awful. I've been struggling with depression for most of my life but have had good years for quite awhile now. I hope the Bupropion helps you. Right now I am on Celexa. It has been really helpful to me to be able to communicate with people going through the same or similar things. The Forums have made this possible for me. I look forward to reading your future posts. I wish you the best! - epictetus
  4. Hi and welcome to the Forums, Steve Steve. I only saw your post today although it was originally posted last Saturday. Sorry about that. How are you doing now? I am sorry you are going through so many difficulties. Sometimes feeling like one does not have emotions can be a symptom of depression. Have you ever taken one of those short online depression tests? There is one called the Burns Depression Test which is highly respected although so are others. If you did take such a test, what were the results? Hopefully this site will be of some help to you. Sometimes it helps just to express oneself or find others who are going through the same or similar things as oneself. At least that has been true for me. In any case, I am sorry you are suffering. You have been through a lot and are still going through a lot. I hope you will find a way to recover some peace of mind and joy of life! You deserve those. I wish you only good things! - epictetus
  5. Hi and welcome to the Forums, Sentinel2. Nice to meet you. I am sorry you are suffering. I experience something similar to what you describe in the first part of your post. A physician told me that it was a "limited symptom panic attack." But I am not a physician or medical professional so I would ask your own doctor about that. Panic attacks are just awful. Hopefully you will find this site as helpful to you as I have. It is helpful sometimes to be able to talk to people going through the same or similar things. I don't know about others, but it helps me feel less alone with my illnesses. I suffer from depression, anxiety and panic disorder. Wishing you good experiences here on the Forums and relief from your suffering!!! - epictetus
  6. Need help and info

    Hi Mark12 and welcome to the Forums. Nice to meet you. I am sorry you are suffering from depression and anxiety plus extreme mental fog and low energy. I wish I knew what to say that would help. A long time ago I was on a medication for depression/anxiety called Tofranil. It was a tricyclic antidepressant/anxiolytic and it did cause me to feel like I was in a thick mental fog. It also seemed to sap a lot of my energy. Don't know what might be causing your symptoms. Right now I am on an antidepressant/anxiolytic called Celexa. On this med, alcohol is a no-no since it works against the medication, like cancelling out the good effects of the Celexa. But I am not a doctor or medical professional so I am really clueless about medication issues and symptoms. What does your physician say about your symptoms? Anyway, I hope you will find this site as helpful to you as it has been to me, if for no other reason that it might make you feel less alone with your illnesses. Depression and anxiety are both awful. I wish you only good things! Welcome again to the Forums. - epictetus
  7. Hi TheGrey and welcome to the Forums. Nice to meet you. You have posted in the right Forum. You are welcome to post in any other Forums here that you think match what you are going through too. I am very sorry that you are suffering from PTSD, ADHD and OCD and any other illnesses!!! Any of these can be just brutal and there really are no words for the suffering level of bearing all the them together! I hope you will find this site to be as helpful to you as it has been to me. I suffer from depression, anxiety and panic disorder. I look forward to reading your posts here. Wish I knew how to make everything better for you! - epictetus
  8. Anxious about holiday parties

    Sorry you are in this situation. I also suffer anxiety and panic disorder. I don't go to parties at all although the consequences of this are that people might think I am selfish, antisocial or a snob. But then I don't like parties in general for other reasons too. I guess I prefer living with people's disapproval and scorn than going to parties I don't want to go too. Of course I live all alone so there is not must pressure from others to go to these things. A psychiatrist taught me some techniques to use if I have to go to social events. I would be happy to share what he told me if you are interested. Parties! My heart goes out to you, Thistoowillpass ! ! !
  9. Boyfriend getting ready to dump me

    Hi Chubbybuuny. I'm so sorry your relationship now is so precarious. How awful. It is scary to be in the position you are in with everything hanging on someone else's thoughts, feelings and moods. I wish I had some good advice for you but I have never been good with relationships. Since I suffer extreme anxiety, I would be very scared if I was in your situation. I sure hope things work out for you. You've been through so much and deserve a break and some good luck!!! - epictetus
  10. Hi there--and a question

    Hi Ericincalifornia and welcome to the Forums. Nice to meet you. I am sorry you are suffering! I don't know too much about BP II since I am afflicted with depression and anxiety disorder. Nor do I have any personal experience with the medications you are on, so I am hoping those members here struggling with BP II or who have experience with those meds will have something helpful to say to you. Sometimes it can take awhile for members here to see posts because we come from many different time zones. I do hope you find this site to be useful to you and I hope you will feel very welcome here!!! - epictetus
  11. What to do?

    I just read your post, w00t, and want to welcome you to the Forums. Nice to meet you. Let me say how sorry I am that you are suffering! Depression is an illness that doesn't discriminate when it strikes. It strikes people of every nationality, culture, social strata and walk of life. It is a horrible, cruel and brutal illness. You have every right to be able to feel some peace of mind and joy of life as anyone else on the earth. Even without really knowing you, I know that in your 17 years on earth you have done thousands upon thousands of good things: thousands upon thousands of strong and brave things, thousands upon thousands of wise and beautiful and nice things. Depression may conceal those from you or cause you to discount them [that is what depression does] but they all happened and they all sprung from the core of your being. Every single person on the earth has weaknesses and falls sometimes, but those are rare in comparison with the good. Please consider this analogy . . . A person's life is similar to walking. One takes many, many steps. One takes hundreds and thousands and thousands upon thousands of steps in life. The vast majority of those are successful. It isn't that a person falls down most of the time and rarely is able to walk. The opposite is the case. The little and big acts of strength and bravery you have made in your life, the little and big acts of intelligence and beauty and goodness vastly overwhelm anything negative. A person like a parent, a relative, a friend could "appreciate" that about you and could treasure you as a person. But often people are stuck in such negativity that they cannot appreciate things like that. It is not necessarily malice that prevents people from appreciating the good in you. Sometimes it is ignorance or other problems that blind them. I believe you will be appreciated here on the Forums. ' Another characteristic of depression is that it magnifies negative things. A basically good human being might make a mistake, even a big mistake and depression makes it seem like the worst thing in the world. Sometimes it can help to introduce some perspective into thinking when depressed. For example in the last 100 years a couple of men, a couple of world leaders caused the deaths of tens of millions of human beings in concentration camps and through forced starvation and genocide. Please consider that carefully: acts which resulted in the deaths of tens of millions of men, women and children. Now consider any weaknesses you might have or any mistakes you may have made. Have you done anything in your 17 years that has caused the deaths of tens of millions of human beings? Of course not. Any weaknesses or mistakes you have made are far, far, far, far, far, far, far away from anything like that. Have you ever consulted with a physician about your depressed mood? I know you are taking some natural products. But sometimes when things are not helping it can help to speak to a physician. Different things work for different people. Depressed mood can be idiosyncratic. You deserve better than to be suffering and in mental anguish. Although none of us here on the Forums are doctors or medical professionals, we are all fellow sufferers of depression or other illnesses. Hopefully here you will find the compassion and understanding, the encouragement and consolation you are not finding elsewhere. That is why we are here . . . to try to help each other. I do not think you are too emotional or are just wanting attention. You are a human being who is in anguish. Those not stricken with depressed mood might not be able to appreciate how awful that is, but I certainly do. I respect you. I consider it an honor and privilege to know you. Hopefully you will make many friends here on the Forums. It is difficult sometimes to know what to say to someone. I don't know if my words have helped or not. If they have not helped, please allow me to substitute my best wishes in place of my unhelpful words. Hopefully someone here will have something useful to say to you. You deserve a good life. Once again, I want to welcome you to the Forums. I look forward to reading anything you post here. All good things to you! - epictetus
  12. What is there to live for while growing old alone?

    I'm sorry you are suffering this anguish! It is so heartbreaking! Wish I knew how to help. Right now my mind is a blank, maybe because I am ill. Hopefully other members here will have something useful for you or at least helpful in some way. My deepest apologies for being useless or even worse than worthless to you in your time of great need. Depression is awful. I do want to welcome you to these Forums, NothingToLiveFor. I am wishing that someone here will have some insight or wisdom that will help. My heart goes out to you in your pain and suffering!!! - epictetus
  13. just complaining

    Hello Ugly_sock, Just realized this is a duplicate post. I wrote a response to you in the other message you posted. Best to you!!! - epictetus
  14. just complaining

    Hi Ugly_sock, So very sorry you are suffering. How terrible!!! You mention that you are in the care of a psychologist, which is good. I am wondering if you are also in the care of a physician? Sometimes mood disorders can have organic components and only a physician can diagnose these, treat them or rule them out as causes. You should not have to suffer like this. You deserve some peace and joy of life! - epictetus
  15. Haven't been this down in a long time

    Hi GoldenOne, I am very, very sorry that depression is so brutal and cruel to you and is taking such a toll on your life. How absolutely horrible!!! I don't know if I've asked you before, but are you in the care of a physician? If so, does your physician know how terrible your depression is and how long it has lasted. You may have told me this before, but my memory is not as sharp as it used to be. It is terrible that you are suffering like this!!! - epictetus (((((((((( HUGS ))))))))))